really hate to have to write these words out at all, but I no longer have a choice.
so hi its me, I am a SL / Sims creator (on long hiatus, i wish to come back but cant really do nothing but work to try to get out of here atm) and I’m stuck in an abusive household, which is becoming progressively worse as days pass by.
And it has reached a point where if I do not leave soon I am sure I will be trapped here.
my dad has been verbally and emotionally abusive to my whole family for my entire life, and it has only gotten worse as I’ve become older and he has become more bitter and spiteful.
I don’t want to go in to too much detail but this fractured my family last year, causing my mother and sisters to leave. I was unable to.(and im kinda glad i didnt because they ended up moving in with another abusive asshole, just with a job this time, and my sister ended up coming right back here anyways, and mom now renting in a apartment room with someone)
The verbal and emotional abuse continued and worsened considerably without the sort of “buffer” of protection the rest of my family provided, when i was living alone with him.
last May I was finally able to leave, but only temporarily. I went to visit my girlfriend in Missouri for a month. which became two month, thene three months.
And the three happiest months of my life so far. I returned to new york due to the guilt tripping and pressure of family and friends, only too find that nothing had improved at “home.” It’s just become worse and worse.
My mother stopped paying her portion of our phone bill during this, without my knowledge. This led to a sudden request for $210 to continue service ( on top of not paying the phone bill anymore, she disconnected her phone from our plan, which still had the remaining balance from her phone to pay off, so we have to pay that too eventually, on top of that a year or two ago she forced me into college and im now ending up paying student loans that shouldn’t even be mine, i made a post about that,and managed to get help from others to get nelnet (the government loans) to let me pay when i want, but the credit bureau (the money i owe to school itself) its not optional to pay monthly). just to clarify i only had *one* year of schooling, because i couldn’t go back untill I paid the school off.
After paying this amount they then requested $400+ to keep our lines connected. I could not pay this, I could barely afford the original $210, and my sister has been struggling to find a job.
My phone service has since been disconnected entirely (which means my older sister basically cant find a job now because people cannot call her phone). This leaves the internet as our only means of connecting with anyone outside of this apartment.
and now this will be lost as well. My grandmother, who pays this bill, has decided to cancel the internet service suddenly and without warning.
I don’t know what day she will cut this off, just that it is going to happen and I will lose everything in the process.
Without an internet connection I am unable to continue creating for second life and working, since I work online freelancing for Secondlife, and as this is my only means of making money at all, it essentially costs me my job.
Without this income I will be stuck here, in this small apartment, across the room from my abusive father (we all have to sleep in a small ass room because my grandmother is a hoarder)
The only break I have from his glares and rude comments is when he himself is doing something on the internet, so even that small amount of peace will be lost.
Again I really hate having to type this out, asking for help, or sharing this information that is painful for me to think about, let alone send to other people, but I have no choice.
I need help and I have nowhere else to turn. Absolutely anything that you can offer is appreciated. I have to get out of here, and get back to my real home with my girlfriend, and I have to help my sister get her phone service restored for she can get a job and get out of here too.
thanks for reading, and heres my paypal: anything helps really, even a dollar, even 50 cents. im not trying to be cliche here, but anything *really* does help even a reblog
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