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CALL ME SPELL ( ≧∀≦)ノ I VERY MUCH PREFER SHE/THEY (^3^)/

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INTRO POST

HELLO THEREEE, ITS NICE TO MEET Y'ALLヘ(^_^)

MY NAME IS SPELL, AND I THINK THIS IS A JIRAI BLOG (if I even qualify for that :( )

I WILL HOPEFULLY BE A VERY ENTHUSIASTIC PERSON HERE (⌒‐⌒)

I might've lied

I am VERY new to here, so please be nice

My pronouns:

My pronouns are she/they and (I think) I'm a demi girl!

WARNING, MINOR!!!!

Fandoms that I can remember: wha, kny, mha(?), bsd, tshd, genshin, Black butler, ddlc, skz and alot more!

I am probably the person on jiraiblr who's not rlly suffered all that much..

I HAVE NO NEED FOR COMFORT ON MY POSTS

My content

I almost always vent and stuff on here, as that's basically why I have this blog!

THIS IS NOT MY MAIN BLOG

THANK YOU GUYS FOR 51 FOLLOWERS, LOVE Y'ALL (　＾▽＾)

If I send asks and want you to KNOW it's me, I'll probably end it with

-Spell~Agott

WARNING, I AM A MISERABLE WOKE PERSON

DNI list

~ Predators

~ Sexist people

~ Racist people

~ Ableist people

~ People who call others "cringe" and "corny all the time

~ Trump supporters

~ Radqueers

~ people over the age of 21

~ People who hate others for doing things which don't harm anyone (therians, people witj silly car humor, etc)

~ People who shame any addiction

~ EXTREMELY clingy people (as I, a minor, won't be able to be a good person to trust and confide in)

~ "They're doing it for attention!" People, when mentioning something like sh, mental suffering and stuff like that

~ deeply religious people

Tag system

I barely have any but

Spell being casted (*ゝω･*) - just my sig tag

Updates of Spell ~ - reblogs of my own posts and they're mostly updates!

Spell answering asks!~ - me answering asks

My favs of a few fandoms (and reasons):

Bsd ~ Akutagawa Ryuunosuke, I like my characters aggressive sometimes, and very obviously traumatized!

Wha~ Agott Arklaum, she works hard yet looks down upon herself (which I can relate to a little)

Genshin~ Chevreuse, full of justice and I pulled her once, used her as a healer ever since

Kny ~ Kokushibō, I hope you're seeing a pattern right now. Cold, traumatized character are really my thing. Even if a little aggressive

Mha ~ Aizawa Shōta, such an "idgaf" characted, so very likeable!

Black Butler~ MY GORGEOUS GRELL, this is one of the times where I contradict myself, I love this open and loud girly! Also AMAZING trans rep

Tshd~ I binged this in a day and forgot half the cast. Has to be Yoshiki, good rep of internalized homophobia!

Stray Kids~ my bias is Seungminnie! I love his vocals and he's so funny!!!

Fun little fact:

The first few episodes of wha, I thought Agott was a man untill I was told otherwise! She was my fav character since the beginning!

ANYWAYSSS, SEE YA NEXT TIME!!

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When I don't post a bunch, you rather assume I'm doing a little bit better for a bit or that I'm dead.

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I dunno why but I feel shitty today. I hate it

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"I'd absolutely break if you commited suicide"

Well dad, I hope you get ready for whats comin in winter if I actually have the balls

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ong if my friends find this blog somehow, I am GIVING UP on having a priv blog so none of them see ts.

ANYWAYS I wish I was able to tell them stuffff, but my brain won't let me even if I trust them

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Oh my godddd, why did my father have to see my (self inflicted) bruise. Mentioning it looked bad too, thank goodness I had an excuse

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My father realizing that it wasn't my blind ass that just can't find my brush, but we both don't know where it is 😂😂✌️✌️✌️ why are there tears in my eyes lololol😂😂😂😂✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️

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~TW, SH~

I think it is bruising a bit.. hehehehhe.. bruise.. I lowkey found the way I like sh.. I never rlly liked cuts that much

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something thats totallyyyy unrelated to the prev post... if you try and get a bruise by kinda like throwing your arm into the corner of a not rlly sharp wall, and it like only hurts a bit.. does that count as sh?

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I feel like I'm better than before, but that makes me feel horrible. I hate the feeling of not knowing what the hell I'm supposes to do, whilst simultaneously kinda enjoying life. Stop, I hate it. I actually hate it. Why does it feel like I'm getting better, but I'm not sure. Why do I feel so horrible about that, or whatever it is. Let me get rid of my life already omfg. If recovering feels as horrible as this, I don't fucking want it.

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I might or might not have cut off a bit of my hair.. just a little bit, and this my people.. this is what boredom does

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GAH I TYPE SO MUCH- 🥹 I need to be more aware of how much I'm typing seriously I wrote a mountain. My apologies!!

But yeah that's fair, people who are religious but not hateful are actually really cool imo ^^

And yeah, I fully agree. Trump is smart but that's also kind of the problem? Like in order to manipulate a population into thinking a certain way, you have to be at least somewhat smart. And yeah... He really is just the seven deadly sins lmao.

YEAH... I have opinions... but they're hidden in my basement :> but yeah </3 unfortunately that's also true 🥹 I feel like personally, it's important for society to have a government, I just wish that politicians weren't being paid an annual salary every day and that they weren't being worshipped. Like, they're not celebrities. They're SUPPOSED to be a public servant (that's the best way I can put it), whose job is to try and make our country better and improve quality of lives. Nowadays politicians are just power hungry bastards because they're overpaid and essentially worshipped. If we had like, a normal, working class person get in power and they continued to be paid the same, the way they'd handle power would be so different compared to how a rich person would.

Also... I feel like a big part of it is because of misogyny :( men like "delicate" women with soft skin, long hair, thin waist 🤢 yk. All the usual misogynistic bullshit that treats women as if they're just an object of men's pleasure rather than an actual human being... Sigh.

ALSO WHAT? Saying "I'm gonna cut my sourdough deeper" is so weird 🥹 not only that but what's the purpose?? Like I understand traditional scoring but if we're just cutting it deeper and deeper eventually it wouldn't even look good or slice correctly

That's just awful 🥹 tbh, I hate to be the person saying this when I'm literally on jiraiblr and shedblr BUT, I feel as though there is a point where people need to stop posting about their mental illnesses and go seek out genuine help... Especially because the internet is not a kind place, it's just full of people who would find it amusing to try and make it worse.

GAH IM BLINDED YOU'RE SO GAY /silly

Yeah same 🥹

ANYWAY I BEEN YAPPING BUT HOW ARE YOU!!? *Jumps on you lovingly* /p, I HOPE YOURE WELL :3

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It's really no problem at all! I love to see people write alot, I can't really write alot back tho.. sorry for that!!

Yeah like no disrespect in your heart? Thats the best thing ever! Yet I've not met one fully respectful Christian so far.. sigh..

Thats what I've BEEN saying, he cannot be that dumb to genuinly start a war. This man is smart, commiting crimes, and knows that nothing is happening unless he gets murdered/dies by illness. He has everything planned, even his death. 100% sure. He genuinly paid others to make him win for this exactly. Oeeehh, I know what you are Trump.. smart but not wanting to let anyone know.

It's such a pain to agree with things you don't, even worse when you only realize later.. atleast there's no argument.. my thoughts on politicians in general is that they're dogshit and not needed. I think that lawyers, police, and people like that are needed for law enforcement, laws will be needed, because there will always be people out there doing the wrong shit. The concept of a king/queen in general is dumb. They're just there to make everyone stay equal, yet they're treated like gods and worshipped with everything they have when they're doing nothing? Bullshit. I totally do see your point tho. Politicians were probably at some point actually helpful, but atp that isn't the case anymore. Everyone just wants money nowadays.. I also think you're right to an extent with the normal working class thing. Knowing some normal people out there would also abuse their power, when sympathetic people would probably make a great and helpful goverment.

I have genuinly seen women make conspiracy theories that men are aliens. Imagine being such a horrible type of person towards your own kind to the point they don't think you're the same kind. Men having this insane type in women is horrible. Them being protected by the system is horrible. Worst thing is that whenever I talk to another about this, it's always someone who's bio sex is something else than male.

A whole other thing is when its internalized misogyny. Oh my goodness, do not get me started on that bs. I even made up the theory the series SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS is misogynistic. Now hear me out, the only female teen character is Pearl. What type of sea animal is she? A FUCKING WHALE, and she's portrayed as annoying and very stereotypical. Mrs. Pearl? She's portrayed as fat and annoying. And so much moreee..

I'm pretty woke and annoying on the topic of misogyny (　ＴДＴ)

It was something along the lines of that. They were lile cutting it like a lil deeper and stuff. They said it had to be a certain like depth. I know damn well I've seen sourdough SO much less deep than whatever that bs was.

Those were my thoughts too.. I watch a certain ranter that talks abt mental illness and support them a bunch, they spread awareness alot! Also as another person who is sure somethin is wrong with them but dunno what, but what Thien did was bad. Bad bad. Also I saw his comments and so many said "Don't listen to them keep doing that!" Aaaannddd this is why mentally ill people don't recover nor heal

HEH, TASTE THE RAINBOW!!!! (*σ>∀<)σ

I dunno, not all too well at recognizing a bunch of feelings, but thats only SOMETIMES.. Although I think pretty well, what about you? AAAAHHH, I HOPE YOU ARE TOO!!!

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NO GENUINELY LIKE... I don't remember the Bible saying "love thy neighbour unless they're gay, a person of colour, a foreigner, a woman or disabled"?! DID I MISS SOMETHING? 🥹

Yeah.... Trump has said a lot of negative things about his followers but these idiots don't pay attention to any of that. I swear that any Christian who also supports trump is just lying to themselves. I mean... There's a lot of reasons why Christians SHOULDN'T support trump cough cough... pedophilia... cough cough and we could get into all of them but then we'd be here forever because absolutely everything trump says and does is sinful in some way 🥹 the man is a walking representation of what it means to be a sinner.

TWINS </3 why form your own opinions when you can just reflect the opinions of everyone around you? /silly (unfortunately even though I occasionally like to do that... doing that too much is a huge part of why we have MAGA in the first place... because istg those people would rather be TOLD what to think and feel rather than just actually thinking and feeling for themselves.) But yeah!! Personally, I don't really get triggered when it comes to food and such, like videos don't trigger me just seeing myself in a mirror triggers me 🥹 but I get how some people ARE triggered by videos and whatnot because.. yeah, but also, we live in a society where unhealthy/unnatural and difficult to maintain physiques are literally the norm. That shit is promoted and half the time what you see on social media is fake, and it's younger teenagers and people with existing disorders who get affected the worst. But yeah, I mean... the first person to EVER have posted a sourdough cutting video probably didn't think about self harm, because for most every day people that isn't something that they think about much so it probably was just a harmless video someone uploaded that then upset people because... Yeah. But now I do agree there are people who upload that kind of content SPECIFICALLY to get a reaction and engagement out of people it triggers, which... I feel like that's kind of predatory no? Like, you're using people's mental illness to get engagement out of them which is fucked up... but the internet is just a fucked up place unfortunately </3

LMAO 🥹 you're homophobic until you start talking and then they realise you're ✨gay✨ and their fuzzy lil heads explode in pure shock /silly

But YEAH... people ragebait in public and I DO NOT understand how these people feel safe when they go to sleep at night because if I knew I had spent my entire day being an inconvenience to everyone who came across me, I'd be terrified that some crazy person would've followed me home and try to kill me... LIKE HOW DO YOU GO HOME AND SLEEP COMFORTABLY AT NIGHT AFTER BEHAVING LIKE THAT?!?

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The Bible DOES have hints of allat, and thats why I hate it. Not the followers, unless they're homophobic, etc etc!!

Trump is smart and I hate to admit that. I just know he has a plan behind his facade, I swear. He has shit planned out, but I just have no solid proof.. the Christians who follow him are just dumb. I'm not gonna sugarcoat it, they're such dumbass bastards. Trump is probably the seven deadly sins in ONE man.. and the fact people follow him pisses me offff.

Thats so true!! Atleast like that you don't get hated just because your opinions differ!!! I do have opinions, I swear I do, but they just change a little around different people.. but yeah, you're right.. people like us are the reason why Trump was elected in the first place. I dislike being a leader of someone, but they need to atleast align with my morals a LITTLE.

Woahhh, but like I see whatchu mean!! Mirrors are kind of shit :(( I also don't get why being skinny is the trend. Why aren't men even half as judged as women are for their body and looks... I did hear about someone saying that the standard is being skinny, because men want us to stay weak so we can't run away. The thought of that being reality is sickening. Yessss, I hate how bad it affects the younger generation too. And the mentally ill. I have also thought about the first ever before, although how people treat it now and just being so obvious with their sourdough to be triggers. I saw someone talking about "cutting their sourdough deeper".. that wording is really off, when they could've just use "scoring deeper" I dunno, but thats weiirddd. The way the internet has used every trick in the book so far just to be getting views is sickening. It's so weird.

Recently this guy named thein or smth has been going viral. He is so insecure of himself to the point where he cut his mouth and posted about it multiple times. No censorshipment whatsoever mind you. His fans have BEEN telling him to take a break and then made fun of them. People think he's in psychosis.. worst thing is, some want to do it themselves all because he posted about it.

My eyes do not shine gay. My personality shines full of gay and they get BLOWN AWAY by the brightness ﾟ.+:｡∩(・ω・)∩ﾟ.+:｡

Ragebaiting in public seems so weird. I could never waste someones time over something as trivial as a stupid joke that is supposes to cause rage. I would sleep with one eye open if I was an annoying prick.

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I hate myself so much I want to die. Yet when I think of dying, I get excited whilst also being of the thought

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Yeah no I don't understand when Christians will be like "omg if you're gay you're going to hell" and then be like "oh but it's against my religion" because BRO. TELL ME YOU'VE NEVER READ THE BIBLE WITHOUT TELLING ME YOU'VE NEVER READ THE BIBLE??!

Tbf, a lot of maga Christians CANT read so I'm not surprised they haven't read the Bible -.-

Oh... I COMPLETELY MISREAD WHAT YOU WROTE EARLIER 🥹💔 my bad... I AGREE THOUGHH (This time I genuinely agree 🥹 I was trying to be a people-pleaser lil bitch earlier and it didn't work out because I can't read I guess lol) but yeah no, personally I've never felt triggered by bread-cutting but I absolutely see why people can but, I don't know if you've seen these videos or not but like - there's these videos on Instagram I've seen where it's "asmr" (I'm not relaxed so idk how it's asmr), and basically, they're like putting glass beads in slime then cutting the slime and THAT is triggering, but everyone in the comments is like "C section 😛😍" and I'm like "lwk... I do that to myself lol", ANYWAY YEAH NO WE ARE IN AGREEMENT!! 😋 At least to some extent! Because I've seen a lot of sourdough cutting videos where the comments are like "me at 12" and I do feel as if SOME people are saying it when they've never actually self harmed.

WHAT- Ah yes, you're a very homophobic lesbian 😔 how dare you!! /silly

Awesome! :D I recommend adrenaline and crazy form if you don't already know them!

IKR rage bait makes no sense, also semi-related? But yk those people who just deliberately go out in public and make a nuisance of themselves? Like, I once saw a guy recording himself blocking off the escalator with his body so no one else could get down and it's like... Where is a crazy lunatic who just hits people when you NEED one? Lmao

SAAAAMEEEE, Love thy neighbour, but they're faking that shit. ALL THEY TALK ABOUT IS HATE YET THE BIBLE SHOULD BE ALL ABOUT LOVE????

Thats sadly true..

Trump even said it himself, 1998.. If he were to ever run for president, he'd be republican bc they're that dumb.

LOLLL, DW I HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM CHANGING OPINIONS WITHIN A MILISECOND.. but like true. There is so much obviously triggering about it, yet they hate? I lit got triggered by somethin about Felix, and it was SUPPORTIVE mind you.. shit caused my dumbahh to attempt to eat less💔💔 anything is triggering. I do NOT have insta, but that sounds also really weird. The weird thing is that it's genuinly the dumbest bs that could get someone triggered, tho it should OBVIOUSLY be taken seriously??? I totally see you, some people fake that shit like they've crazy for click and views. Pisses me off soooo bad.

Lolll, but the thing with me is that I get told I look homophobic pretty often.. then they find out how much gay light I shine out

THANK YOUU, into my playlist it goes!

People who rage bait in PUBLIC? Never heard of that one before, but no one punches anyone? No one? Hand woulda been across their face in a MILLISECOND

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LMAO lucky me /silly

Yeahh... Bigotry of any kind has never made sense to me, I don't understand hating people just for the sake of hating them.

Also yeah, I agree 💔 humans are just irritating lmao, and people who ask for a trigger warning because they saw sourdough need to just get the fuck off the internet 🥹 also yeah </3 the idea of being able to get doxxed randomly at any moment because of one post you made on any given social media is HORRIFYING

Understandable lmaoo skz does have a really specific vibe :3 if you like skz I feel like ateez would probably be the closest! One of my best friends went to see them a couple years ago and she had a really good time lmao

FR - like ragebait is so confusing to me because WHY? There's no need for it lmao

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Exactly.. and what makes even less sense? A Christian person being mean. I get so absolutely confuzzled when they actually don't love thy neighbour.

Oh. Here's somewhere I kinda don't agree, because some people genuinly do it on purpose. I believe that some people score their sourdough, make it red inside, and then blame it on them for being triggered. Sigh.. being too woke means being miserable.. doesn't even take a minute to edit some "tw bread cutting" text into it. The doxxing thing reminds me of the time I got a threat over the fact that I didn't ship ShinoMitsu. They called me homophobic, talking to someone of the community, and one of the woke fellas💔

Yeah thats true!!! I've also heard about that. San's chest pump has everyone on chokehold right now. I think I have Bouncy, Lemon drop and another song of theirs in my playlist too.

Ragebait especially pisses me off when its straight up homophobic, transphobic, racist or ableist of any kind. It's just so annoying, and why is it ok to just spread rage ( ＞Д＜；)

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I swear no experience is original LMAO we're all just living the same lives!

Also thank you! ^^ I don't know when I'll actually get around to watching it but I'm sure it'll be soon :D

IT IS </3 it really is the world is honestly moving in absolutely every direction except forwards lmao.

Frr lmao

I don't know if you've experienced this but I feel like you find whiny babies on every social media :/ people are just like that for some reason 💔 I think it's partly due to the fact that if you're online you FEEL anonymous, you feel like "no one knows you", even though in reality we're a lot easier to track than we think we are lol.

Fully agree! Also I think my favourite Kpop groups are probably stray kids, ateez, enhypen, txt and some of BTS?? but, I also don't really stan any, I just listen to whatever songs I like :3

Yeah </3 that sounds exhausting and probably would be as miserable and exhausting as it sounds lol, I don't know how or why anyone does it.

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Well you are one lucky fella, some people have waited for 3 years for this s3 (　ＴДＴ) (not me included)

Ai, misogyny, world just worse and worseee :(((

Everybody is annoying to everyone. Try being empathic on any social media and you'll get insane hate. Especially the hate against people asking for tw on bread cutting videos. They piss me tf offff.. also true, I do be scared of getting doxxed bc this is sounding too easy to do for this to happen so often.

Oh really?? I'm trying to get into more groups but I'm slightly too attached to skz (ToT).. TxT always sounded nice to stan, same for Cortis and Ateez. I KNOW Ateez got my type of music, but I just never get into them 💔 so true tho. Playlists be a mix of everything

I will never in my life understand why people do annoying stuff knowing they can just be nice..?? Its not that hard.