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- Amanda - Level 23 -

[ahelpinghand-xox]

Maybe this summer I will get my romance.

[ahelpinghand-xox]

The strangest thing is..

I actually did & now I’m getting married September 24th 2019 💍❤️

[meanplastic]

me: hi! how are you today :)

customer:

[thelovelybones124-deactivated20]

This isn’t even an exaggeration

[queenfaithmarie]

This🙄🙄🙄

[ahelpinghand-xox]

Relentless

I know I have nothing really bad going on in my life. Everyone’s healthy, have roofs over their heads. But yet I feel this relentless pit of sadness that never goes away, it hides sometimes.. But it’s always there..

[ddistancemeanssolittle]

Whenever you need me, I promise I will be there. I promise to love you unconditionally even on your darkest of days. I promise to stand by your side and support you with your choices. I promise I will be your shoulder to cry on and I promise to be here with open arms when you need someone to hold you. I promise to tell you the truth always, even when it might not be what you want to hear. I promise I will stay forever loyal to you, and I promise I will do everything in my power to make you happy. I am not the person who is going to break your heart, I’m going to fix it.

I promise (via ddistancemeanssolittle)

[forever90s]

[ahelpinghand-xox]

Hobo Johnson

I’m gonna feel alone forever,

I’m gonna feel alone forever,

But I’m getting used to the thought,

Except when I’m alone so maybe I’m not.

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[90skindofworld]

[wakeupamericatonightlala-deacti]

[fightingpersonalshit-deactivate]

[fydisneymisfits]

[msdisneyprincess]

Bless the Sultan

[itraseras-deactivated20140622]

The fact that that was the thing that pulled the Sultan out of his trance.

[ddevestation-deactivated2012090]

[ahelpinghand-xox]

I’m in that mood when you don’t even know whats wrong but you’re sad, you’re lonely and it feels like you’re being slowly swallowed by a black hole of depression for no blatant reason at all. You’re just sat alone in your room with nothing but your thoughts, to comfort you, its that time of night when everyone else is asleep. When you most need someone to talk to but are to afraid to call anyone in case you’re rejected because its better to think that your friend would help you if you woke them than to know that they don’t really care. 

[ahelpinghand-xox]

Depressed and suicidal.

How fucked up does a person have to be to completely isolate themselves from everyone? All day every day I isolate myself and even when I have to see people at work I have to drink two cans or redbull minimum to liven myself up enough to smile and tell them I’m okay without causing worry.

I feel so bad when I don’t answer texts or calls but I just can’t. I don’t know what it is inside me that won’t let me do so. I read a text and then not reply because when people ask me how I am I never want to answer. I don’t think anyone I know would expect the answer ‘no, I’m not okay. Have you ever imagined what it’s like to die? Have you ever re-played it in your head over and over again because you don’t have the confidence to actually kill yourself.’

So instead of facing my problems I let my anxiety, panic attacks, depression and suicidal thoughts control me and still right this minute I’m contemplating on whether to use pills or rope or razors to kill myself.

I’m not saying I want to be normal, just not so fucked up is all.

But then again..

'To die would be an incredible adventure’

[ahelpinghand-xox]

Low on strength

It’s taking all of my strength not to revert back to my old ways.

Not to slice my skin just to feel something that isn’t loneliness, pain or sadness.

Yes it hurt, but a good pain, a reminder I’m alive pain.

[fiona-the-unicorn]

[thegoodvybe]

[thedankmemes]