i don't care

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[chandlerbings]

[aidenwest]

eviegdi.

“You must not spend any time around toddlers because animals are hot right now. Especially since that Zootopia movie, which, I’m guessing you don’t know about either. Nah, it’s actually a good thing no one has a rabbit because otherwise, I’d be forced to actually be nice to someone besides my very exclusive friend group. Not a particularly enjoyable scenario for anyone involved, let me tell you. Check back with me next week; I’ll probably be asking who’s got access to the predator exhibits at the zoo. Brooklyn goes from zero to sixty.” 

“You hit the nail on the head. I don’t have any children, or nieces or nephews so I don’t find the need to keep up to date with what’s in. Although, I have heard of Zootopia before, but I’m guessing you are the expert of it by now. Brooklyn is your daughter then? Well, if she does end up wishing to go to the predator exhibits, I’m sure there is some way that you could sneak in. Or maybe in the next week you should get ‘buddy-buddy’ with someone who works at the zoo so you get free passes anyway.”

[aidenwest]

eviegdi.

“What’s with toddlers and phases where they get obsessed with animals? Like, I get that some of the first words we teach kids are that the dog goes bark and the cat meows, but should that really inspire an entire preoccupation with running a rabbit farm out of one’s apartment? I don’t think so. But hey, if anyone has a pet rabbit, I know of a small child who would absolutely love to come visit.”

“I can’t say I knew that there was an animal obsessed phase with toddlers but I’m glad that I don’t have a rabbit, and I don’t know anyone that does. You’re out of luck there, babe. Just think, though, it could have been much worse. They could have been aspiring to run an entire zoo from your apartment with lions, tigers and bears; oh my.”

[aidenwest]

tinycameron.

He chances a brief flicker of a smile, inwardly praising himself for taking at least the small step towards asserting his independence by labeling his relationship in the presence of his ex. It seems minuscule in comparison to the daunting task of proving how much better off he’s doing but it’s a step at least. The next step ought to be pulling his arms away from Aiden’s gentle touch but that makes his anxiety prickle and his lungs feel tight. Displaying anything that could be seen as physical dominance isn’t in Cameron’s realm of expertise. “I’ll be more c-careful,” he murmurs, keeping his gaze down on Aiden’s hand for a beat longer in contemplation. There are questions and Aiden’s fishing for something. What that specific something is Cammy doesn’t understand but it makes him nervous all the same. His throat feels arid and he swallows a few times uselessly, a sour taste in his mouth. Cameron’s not the best liar in the world, evidently. Or Aiden really does know him better. “I… it was more slipping out of the, um, the tub. Got a bit caught in the c-curtain and ended up on my back. Spooky stuff.” He lifts his shoulders in a shrug and uses the gesture to pull his arms back to himself, instantly folding them over his chest and cupping hands delicately over his bruises. “I’ll survive, ‘m sure.”

The label's repeating over and over in his head like a broken record. It just won't stop. How can something so simple cause his gears to grind, his blood to boil? It's quite absurd how much it is affecting him, and it's borderline ridiculous. Cameron wasn't his, and he does not like that. Not one bit. His former flame's stuttering convinces him that it's a lie, that these bruises are far from falling out of the shower. But is it his place to accuse him of lying? You bet it is. Will it win him back? No, so he bites his tongue despite the itch that's desperate for a scratch. He's learning to keep his mouth shut, but . Prying in general was a no, and he's already done that. "Yeah, 'course you'll live. I'm just concerned that you hurt yourself." He slips his hands back into his jeans pockets, fingers curling in to grip at this fabric the best he could. "I must add other than your injury you look good today." He compliments, a nod attempting to act as certainty to his words, to enforce that he does think what he has said (he'll always look good enough anyway). There's a charming grin coming to play and he's hoping to use his crooked smile to woo to Cammy, but whether it will work is another story. "You been busy lately? I haven't been able to catch you around." That's a good thing, Aiden.

[aidenwest]

tinycameron.

It’s very much not his place to be touching his sore spots so tenderly and crooning little quips of affection his way. If Cameron were a stronger man, he’d shake him off entirely and maybe give him a verbal lashing that would cut off this strange nostalgic tie that seems to continually bring them into one another’s space. The mottled skin tingles under Aiden’s fingertip, more of a memory of an ache than a current one and he heaves a heavy sigh. Shoulders lift in a noncommittal shrug; that’s an easier answer, isn’t it? “I’m all in, um, one piece. Just have to be more careful. Maybe me and –” There it is again. There’s an active decision to be made and one he felt he’d failed the time previously. “My boyfriend and I will have to go shopping for those… sticky floor mats?” His heart’s beating in triplicate but he nods with more sureness than he feels.

Hearing him say that this guy was his boyfriend shouldn’t have concern Aiden the way it has. In their last interaction Cammy hadn’t put a label to it which was a benefit for the dominant, it meant that what they had between them was still in the yellow, the unknown. Suddenly now, however, there is a label slapped upon their relationship, and things are apparently real. There’s no turmoil and it sets Aiden’s teeth on edge. Keeping his inner conflict to himself and expressing no emotion about the matter whatsoever, he continues to brush his thumb tenderly across the dark colours on Cameron’s skin. “Ah, maybe you should babe. It’d be a good idea. Can’t have you injured again now can we?” Aiden pauses for a moment to return his gaze to Cammy’s delicate facial features. “But I still can’t understand how you fell on both your elbows.. Is your shower big enough to have you fall right back or?” The more he thinks about it, the more suspicious it sounds and Aiden is going to pry, obviously. It wouldn’t be Aiden if he didn’t.

[aidenwest]

tinycameron.

Cameron makes note to look before he speaks. It might prevent him from mindlessly babbling to the ex boyfriend he’s trying to avoid, next time. He feels belittled within seconds, his attempt at half-humor falling flat and being completely forgotten, the heat of embarrassment coloring his cheeks instead. “Um… probably. I slipped this morning and, well…” He turns his arms over, palms downward, so the swollen bumps of his elbows could do his speaking for him. No, he wants to add. I’m not alright. But Aiden isn’t the one he’s going to turn to. He’s about the last person he even wants to see. “Silly me.”

As soon as his elbows are on show, Aiden’s examining them, reaching and taking his arm without a second thought. His touch is gentle; he doesn’t want Cameron running away from him that’s for sure. He’s hard up trying to get a hold of him as it is. “Yeah, silly.” The pad of his thumb brushes against the coloured skin, his eyes diverting from the bruise for a moment to attempt to make eye contact with Cammy. “I don’t think you heard me, but I asked if you’re alright.” Aiden needs an answer. He keeps a hold of his former flame’s arm, waiting for an answer that he will deem appropriate. 

[aidenwest]

tinycameron.

“It’s no wonder I never went very far with, um, sports after middle school. I’m so terribly uncoordinated, I’ve managed to injure myself in the shower of all places.” He rubs his elbows with a hint of a pout; it’s too warm or else he’d have them covered up most definitely. “They really ought to put a warning on those things – watch your step or slippery when wet or something.” It’s a well orchestrated fib, or at least he thinks so. At least the swelling has gone down.

A slippery when wet sign in the shower? Well that’s something he’s never heard of before. “Isn’t it common knowledge that it’s slippery in the shower babe?” He probably shouldn’t have added babe on the end of that, but he did and there’s no turning back down. “What, did you fall back and land on your elbows or something? Are you alright?” It’s sincere, yet kind of not. He does have care for Cameron otherwise he wouldn’t have prolonged the conversation, but something is just a little suss. He thought his ex was more coordinated than that.

[aidenwest]

lucbaz.

Lucian was hanging outside the building, the last bit of a cigarette dangling from his lips. The wisps of smoke curled up as he took it from his mouth, and dropped it to the ground, snuffing it out with the toe of his shoe. It was decompressing, but it was also a new place– one with new, well, customers. Definitely a few of his neighbors. His eyes scanned the area, before resting his eyes on someone just approaching the building. Lucian put on his best smile, and immediately strode over to the other tenant, an air of confident around him. “Hello! Hi, I think you might live in the same building as me, but you see, when I came out to have a cigarette, I think I have might have left my keys in the apartment.” That was a lie, but no one could tell with him any longer. The language that explained that long since repressed. “Do you think maybe you could let me in? Sorry to be a bother. The name’s Lucian Baz.”

Another unsuccessful day job searching. What a surprise. Almost all of the places Aiden has been to aren’t hiring, and the rest of them direct him to applying online. Maybe Aiden is a bit of a traditionalist in terms of gaining employment and believes human communication is the best way to get a job. Apparently, in his opinion, too many people are becoming more antisocial as the days roll on and are more inclined to hire someone on how they sell themselves in a word document over the internet. Not that that is a struggle for Aiden. He can do that easily; it’s just immensely frustrating to waste his time going in in person. Sighing heavily as he approaches the building of Marlborough after a long day, he notices a sketchy figure coming over to him and he’s not in the mood to be dealing with anyone. “Look, it’s incredibly suspicious when you come up to me introducing yourself and asking me to let you in. You need to give me proof that you’re not out to steal anyone’s shit and you’re being genuine, right? Cough up the evidence.” Maybe that’s a little blunt, but that’s Aiden for you.

[aidenwest]

malitiosa.

YOUR STEREOTYPICAL MASCULINE SIDE

you love hoodies.  you love shorts.   dogs are better than cats.  it’s hilarious when people get hurt.   shopping is torture.   sad movies suck.   you own a car racing game.   you played with hot wheels cars as a kid.   at some point in time you wanted to be a fire fighter.   you owned a ds, ps2, n64, or sega.  you used to be obsessed with power rangers.   you have watched sports on tv.   gory movies are cool.   you go to your dad for advice.   you own like a trillion baseball caps.   you used to collect hockey or baseball cards.   baggy sweats are cool to wear.   it’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.   green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favourite colours.   you love to go crazy and not care what people think.   sports are fun.   you talk with food in your mouth.   you sleep with your socks on at night.   you have fished at least once.

YOUR STEREOTYPICAL FEMININE SIDE

you love to shop.   you wear eyeliner.   you wear the color pink.   you go to your mom to talk.   you consider cheerleading a sport.   you hate wearing the color black.   you like going to the mall.   you like getting manicures and/or pedicures.   you like wearing jewelry.   you cried watching the notebook.   dresses are a big part of your wardrobe.   shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.  you don’t like the movie star wars.   you are/were in gymnastics.   it takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.   you smile a lot more than you should.   you have more than 10 pairs of shoes.   you care about what you look like.  you like wearing dresses when you can. you like wearing high heel shoes.  you used to play with dolls as little kid.   you like putting make-up on others.   you like being the star of everything.

APPEARANCE

i am shorter than 5’5”. i have scars. i tan easily. i wish my hair was a different color.   i have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.  i have a tattoo. i am self-conscious about my appearance. i’ve had/have braces. i’ve been told i’m attractive by a complete stranger. i have more than two piercings. i have/had piercings in places besides my ears.

EXPERIENCES

i’ve gotten lost in my city. i’ve seen a shooting star. i’ve wished on a shooting star.  i’ve seen a meteor shower. i’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. i’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.  i’ve kicked a guy where it hurts. i’ve been to a casino. i’ve been skydiving. i’ve gone skinny-dipping. i’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. i’ve crashed a car. i’ve been skiing. i’ve been in a musical. i’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue. i’ve seen the northern lights. i’ve sat on a rooftop at night.  i’ve played a prank on someone.  i’ve ridden in a taxi. i’ve seen the rocky horror picture show. i’ve eaten sushi. i’ve been snowboarding.

HONESTY/CRIME

i’ve done something i promised someone else i wouldn’t. i’ve done something i promised myself i wouldn’t. i’ve snuck out. i’ve lied to my parents about where i am.  i’ve cheated while playing a game. i’ve ran a red light. i’ve witnessed a crime. i’ve been in a fist fight. i’ve been arrested.

DEATH AND SUICIDE

i’m afraid of dying. i hate funerals. i’ve seen someone/something dying. someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide. i’ve written a eulogy for myself.

RANDOM

i can sing well. stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. i open up to others easily. i watch the news. i don’t kill bugs. i sing in the shower. i am a morning person. i paid for a cell phone ring tone. i am a sports fanatic. i twirl my hair. i care about grammar. i have “?”’s in my screen name. i’ve copied more than 30 cds in a day. i bake well. my favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange. i would wear pajamas to school. i like martha stewart. i know how to shoot a gun. i laugh at my own jokes. i eat fast food weekly. i’ve not turned anything in and still got an a in a certain class. i can’t sleep if there is a spider/cockroach in the room. i am ticklish. i love white chocolate. i bite my nails. i’m good at remembering faces. i’m good at remembering names. i’m good at remembering dates. i honestly have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.

[aidenwest]

do you feel any guilt at all for the shitty, abusive way you treated cameron, or are you a psychopath on the reals? just curious.

“Let’s set the record first; I wasn’t abusive to Cammy and I am not a psychopath. Cameron’s not that stupid to have stayed with me as long as he did if I were a psychopath. And why would I feel guilty about treating him wrongly when I didn’t? I treated him better than his parents ever did; maybe you should be turning to them about abuse rather than me.”

[aidenwest]

[oliverhamptonx]

[aidenwest]

myoliverhampton.

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[aidenwest]

cfmusings.

    i’ll whisper mine into your skin so often                     until you moan yours back to me. 

[aidenwest]

What are the highest and lowest points of your life?

“I’m just going to give you the extremes because that’s all anyone cares about. The highest point was being second in charge in my previous job, and losing that plus living in this shithole takes the cake of lowest. Nothing beats this.”

[aidenwest]

what means are you willing to use to get cammy back?

“Not murder or any physical injury, that’s for sure. Cammy obviously is infatuated with this guy, so just treating him better than he does will be my best bet to get him back.”

[aidenwest]

are you a sociopath?

“Oh yeah, I’m a definitely a sociopath. Being determined and wanting happiness and love back makes me a one, does it? Right, I’ll remember that.” 

[aidenwest]

in as much detail as possible (that is to say, explicit detail), explain how it feels to be the pathetic ex-boyfriend that can't move on when, clearly, your old flame already has?

“The things is, I just feel incredibly frustrated that it’s not deeming as easy as I thought it would be, but honestly… this is me we’re talking about. He couldn’t resist me the first time, how could he not this time around? I’m okay with having to wait to a certain extent, but you can’t say I’m the pathetic ex-boyfriend when he couldn’t even tell me about his so called ‘person’. When you’re in love don’t you want to brag about them? Show them off? Obviously there’s either bumps in the road for them or I still have power over him. And that is just what I want; it gets my foot in the door. I can be patient, and right now… I’m feeling pretty darn content.”