You never knew

Dark Matter-Forget Me

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"I've dared to love again. What a mistake. For now a cigarette is my mistress. She'll leave me after a couple of breaths. This is love." - A mere existence

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I once had a heart, yes this was true. It fled from me and went to you. Please take care of it, as I have done. For now you have two, while I have none.

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Losing you is the forever symphony of my heart.

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They asked me about saddest thing you can experience; Sitting in your own house, while wanting to go home.

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After everything, that I have done and said. All the things, which I have done for you. I was not enough.

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Torment

You promised you’d never give me pain. Promised a together merrily ever after. I bowed and gave you my all.

Indeed you kept your promise. As you’ve shown me the life I’ll never have.

A future I could’ve been happy with you. Fading in an eternal torment of never belonging to you.

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An answer of plain cruelty

What happens when you meet the right one, at the wrong time?

- A tragedy of a lifetime

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The hardest

It was to live again. Leaving me, even for the slightest glimpse of happiness, was all it took you to end all means of our engagement.

The strong suffer at the sight of newfound joy, which they wish for, yet never obtain again.

 I hope you’re happy and I’m glad to have met you.

How could you break me? How could you not see me anymore?

How could you make me feel special?

How could I loose you?

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Wishes

I’d revert time again and again. Just to hold your hand. What we had The thing we were to be. I wish for it all every single day.

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All these years I thought I am the one. Now I know I just was someone

A mere existence

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Past

I wonder which songs remind people of me.

Being the ghost of her past;

It’s killing.

I hope she’s happy.

That has to count for something.

...........Right..................

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God

God? Please tell me about god. Why should I believe in his grand plan? Why should I put my faith in god? I used to believe, but when I asked him for help he never answered. All the prayers and wishes; The cries for help what to do so I wouldn’t lose you. He never bothered to answer. So when you left I stopped believing. I stopped having faith in him. I don’t trust him. Did he even care to listen? He would’ve known how much you meant to me and you still do. I wish to be in a dimension, in which there’s still a you and I. Then there’d be faith.

I’m in hell.

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Oh how much I wish death upon myself

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Dear XX,

I’ve finally found the courage to write about my feelings, but I’d rather keep them hidden than explain every aspect of my emotions. It’s something that I have a foolish tendency for but I promised to work on that.

Something happened which I couldn’t see coming even though I told myself to stay cautious and not putting myself on the market . This is the beginning of something beautiful. I met someone and she’s fantastic in every way. An incredible innocence mixed with insatiable passion for everything she loves. And I fell in love with her for who she is. As simple as it sounds but I think she’s the one.  This person is you. I still meet you every night and relive every memory of when we used to hold each other. But when I wake up I realise the distance between us and it’s been already six years when I saw you the last time.

Once in a lifetime someone breaks your heart and if you still feel to hold that person with every broken piece; that amazing pain is true love. But people live in a world full of twists and negativity and we have a knack of missing the right moment. This is scaring me because I don’t want to forget you and I don’t want you to forget me.

I know we have spent a leap of faith on each other and took different turns but my heart will always be with you. I’ve been loking for my place and you are what I can call home. That’s got meaning, right? Call me! Unfaithfully yours,

XY

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Can we?

Can we go back to the part when it all began? When we were just happy and madly in love? When the only thing which seperated us were ten blocks? When we didn’t have to pray for our love to last? When our love was everything? When all we needed was affection? When you didn’t leave me?

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I wish my dream would come to life, To hold the hand that once held mine. I dreamt my dream came to life, I hold the hand again which once held mine. I know my dream never comes to life, I’d give my life for one more time

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I wish my dream would come to life, to hold the hand that once held mine

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