#relapsing

[unicornblah]

[prettylittlethingzx]

[ineffablemoonglade]

Coincidence?

Yes, I am going crazy. I am starting to go mad inside of this thinking noggin life has cursed me with, things don't make sense anymore, I am beginning to hate every thing and one around me, and my own creations and passions.

I am... An amateur.

There is a fire blazing within me to create, yet my procrastination and lack of motivation is binding me to a cell of nothingness. If only someone could take all of my ideas out of my head and see just how many I have/had... It'd be enough to write over ten novels and become a bestselling author.

But those are all for another day.

Goodbye everyone

[mkkaferty]

"I'll stop after today" I tell myself for the fouth day in a row

[xproblematiquexx]

ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴊᴜɴᴋɪᴇ ɪꜱ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ꜱᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ꜱᴜɴ…

Yep! Here I am again, with a needle in my arm.

Just after I pulled the plunger something very weird happened; basically I had the pins and needles sensation at the bottom of my face, also on my lower lip. The feeling slowly grew, getting stronger by the minute. I got scared while the sensation spread to the top of my chest. At one moment I thought I was about to have some sort of aneurysm! This whole crazy feeling reached its peak and for a while it looked like it was not getting any better. After some time, the intensity eventually started to fade; I was sitting on the toilet staring at the ceiling without actually seeing it. That was some crazy trip for sure.

[angeleternity]

cr to for_lovers on pinterest

[hel7l7]

Sometimes I still find it hard to do what's best for me. I know what I'm capable of and I know when it is too much. And sometimes I just want more. I keep going. Old habits creep back in. I start pushing all my feelings away. I tell myself it is better that way. I tell myself it will make me happier.

Until it all becomes way too much and it all exploded.

I'm trying though. Relapses happen. I will keep going ;)