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Happy Eid Everyone

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My life is falling apart.

Life is getting difficult. Too many treats pointed at me. My head is getting tired. I feel so useless. I am no longer a kid with a big dreams. Now my path is leading me down to the drain.

Why I am getting worse?

I need to find my old me or should I become the new me?

I tried my best to please everyone but at last My heart hurts the most.

I am Seeking for some motivation. I pray to god everyday to give me strength for me to face the reality. I thought I had strength to face this yet I was wrong.

I created the positive vibes around me and now I am losing it. May the positive forces be with me forever.

[adeelane]

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Clear your mind here

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My first shirt. I was walking around doing nothing in Jusco. My eyes were caught of this shirt. I had memories with this Brand. This’s my first shirt I bought before I went to University. Back then I had no enough money to buy myself all the basic things before enter Uni. My dad borrowed my uncles car to send me to Uni. My grandparents gave me money and they were so proud of me. I love them so much. I got a list of things to buy before I enter University. They’ve listed many things that I must buy for University. I want to use this opportunities to say thank you to my uncle and auntie for the pants, shirts, tie, shoes and many more. I really appreciate your help. Why Id still want to buy this shirt. I feel like what I was wearing that time none of it was new and never used. I went to “The Store” somewhere not far from my UNI, in my pocket I only had RM27. I hope I can find shirt cheaper than 27 Ringgit. When I entered, I saw too many branded Shirt. None of the price was below than RM50. The cheapest was RM52.00. I was like ok let’s go home. But then, came this old Indian lady she was so nice. She approached me and asked me what can I help you young boy. I said to her. I only have RM 25 in my pocket and I want to buy shirt for myself. The 2 Ringgit I used for my motor petrol. Then, She brought me to the section “clearance”. I said ok la. Maybe I can find good quality shirt within my budget. She left me there. Its take time because I couldn’t find cheaper shirt for myself. They’ve mixed up all brands with difference price in one table. So I’ve to look up one by one. After 30 mins the Indian lady came to me. Did you found one? I said no. It’s ok la aunty maybe I will come again next time. She said no, you wait there. Less than 5 mins she reached out this green shirt and pass it to me. The price was RM22.90. Haha that was fast. I salute you la Aunty. Tq so much. She smile at me and say how are you going to face your life if you was about to give up because of cheap shirt. I was so speechless and I said to her tq aunty. You are such a good person. I hope you well. I left her and went straight to the cashier. I left The Store and I had another 2 Ringgit in my pocket. I went to my usual port for lunch and had “Nasi Bujang” (white rice,soup and fried egg) it’s an economy food for Uni Student.

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You were sent with a Mission Although you may not Remember

Among the many things You have to do Is your soul’s purpose

Sometimes clear Sometimes cryptic Always truth

Illuminate the niches inside And see the truth

Wipe away the cobwebs If you need to and hang on Let it shine through you And don’t let fear stop you From what you came here to do.

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Depression and anxiety is killing me.

As I am getting older, I feel so anxiety of my life. Why I can’t live my life like before. I can do anything I want at anytime any moments.

It’s killing me deep inside of my mind.

I hope I can overcome it and live my life. I hope everyone please live your dream and enjoy every moments of your life .

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Coconut by the beach 🏖. When I was a kid I really really wanted to open hotel by the beach. So that I can feel the oceans vibes everyday. I believe tourism by the beach can be very challenging because of the seasons. I don’t mind because if anything planned accordingly it could survive. I want to provide a romantic service for the couple to have a romantic dinner by the beach. While a guy playing a 🎻 and a piano. I feel so satisfied if I can provide that kind of service. I hope one day I can open my own hotel by the beach.

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My bro is no longer part of the bros.

I wish you all the best for your new life. I hope your wife will never regret la Haha

Bro all the best. I am so happy to see your smile on your “pelamin”. Missing 3 more amigos in the pics. I hope I can take picture complete with all my amigos.

I miss Those moments together with you guys. Hope we can be friends forever. May our relationship stay together and stronger forever.

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My all time fav maggi sedap. I love this noodle so much. I used to eat this noodle almost everyday. My lect told me not to eat this everyday. But what can I do. It’s very cheap and I need to save money for my study. Alhamdulilah I made it. Tq misedap for being there when I need you the most 😘

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Durian Musang King Yesterday was my first time ever having Durian musang king. It was so delicious. The isi was so yellow and it was so creamy. So sedap liaoma

[hplyrikz]

Clear your mind here

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Everything I love here

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You will never know what will happen to you in 10 , 5 or 3 years from now. Shield up yourself, get ready to face the reality of Life. Your imagination before will never be the same. Life is tough. It could be yourself or your surrounding. Get along and chase your dream. My 2 mins advice to the so called “teenagers” please do something good in life. For me personally don’t waste your teenager’s life. You can never get the same feeling when you turn into an adult. Yes I know every stages of life got problems. It’s just Life is getting difficult. New commitment added to burden your shoulder. Adulthood means you have to faced ‘more’ people. It could be at workplace, your family and friends. If I ask you to get ready for this, will you ready? Please take note my friend . Enjoy your life and do something good.

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Get well soon Pakngah. Me love you so much. I am the younger brother in the family. So I feel like everyone was giving attention to me even neither of them care much of me except my Lovely Makngah. I don’t care. As long Makngah love me more so that should be fine. I feel like I was at home when I stayed at their place. I ate 5 times a day. Haha when I wake up, breakfast was ready. In the afternoon, lunch was ready on the table on time. Then after asar we had roti kapit sardin or Kek Batik and so on dinner and supper. This’s why I love Pakngah’s house. I pray to god so you can live longer and be happy forever.

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The best feeling ever. Having my lunch at the back of the kitchen while listening to the mumbling of my nenek angkat. They were stranger to me before but food bond us together. Every weekend if I don’t have anything to do I will come here for lunch. I like to combine my rice with fried bee hun or fried koey teowtopup with my fav sambal catfish. The combo hits my tummy well. Best thing about here is they cook a lot of sambal ikan keli maybe the sambal is their signature food. When I come here. They treat me well. It makes me feel at home. Sometime when I miss my grandparents at Singapore I also come here. All those stressful at workplace gone for a while when I came here. They had a super delicious food beside I like how they treat me. It’s hard because nowadays people comes with agenda. To find a good people with a big heart is getting difficult. I don’t shout to anyone. It’s just my 20 cents. Peace no war.

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When I was doing my laundry, a young couple came in to the laundry. I think they get married after finished school. They smiled at me and I smiled at them back. I smiled because I forgot to bring my detergent. I wanted to borrow some from them. Haha I saw them bring In Two bags of detergents. So I asked how much for the Detergent and the boy said no need la abg just take it. Ok if you say so. While waiting for the laundry finish, the girl bring out a container. When she opened the container, walaweh it smells so damn delicious. Suddenly I am so hungry. After the drying session ended. They were folding the baju carefully and I was just sumbat sumbat my baju in the container. Haha The girl asked me, abang sorang je ke duduk sini? I said, eh no la, my wife is at home preparing dinner for me. Ok I won that night..

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