a 27 years old lost soul

{dane} ~ {she/they}

[the-daily-dreamer]

Rhaena’s purpose as a character has been so thoroughly destroyed by this show, and it’s a perfect example of just how little the writers of HOTD understand the themes of the Dance/Fire & Blood.

Rhaena is a young girl born into two of the most powerful houses in the realm, and yet her existence and youth is overshadowed by her inability to procure the symbol of her house. A symbol that id the epitome of power but also violence and destruction. Interesting that she would struggle to obtain one unless there was a narrative purpose, no?

She’s thrust into a civil war of her family and incapable of fighting. So instead she is protected, along with her the young of her family and dragon eggs. Her character isn’t there to fight. She is there to keep peace and protection. She is unintentionally a symbol of the future. All of her narrative ties are with the young, with eggs, with children. In a time where her family is praying for each others deaths and actively slaughtering each other and their dragons, rhaena prays for birth. For an egg to hatch. To bring life about.

And right at the bleakest part of the dance, when it has ended but basically every dragon has been eradicated…Rhaena’s dragon hatches. (Interesting timing). And she names it Morning. Not just a subtle reference to the loss and mourning she has endured and overcome. But a symbol of the dawn. Of the sun rising on a new era of life.

And after the Dance? She’s married twice. And that second marriage that is successful with many children? A Hightower. Of all houses, Rhaena finds her peace in a marriage to a Hightower the main enemy of her family.

Rhaena’s entire story is eclipsed by this narrative of birth, life, protection, peace. She is removed from war, from having a dragon at a time where that truly means fire and blood.

But this show was so desperate to protect Rhaenyra and Daemon from the darkest parts of their book counterparts. That they had to eliminate nettles and fill her narrative importance with someone. So they chose Rhaena. And that not only destroys Rhaena’s story and narrative. But also the point of the dance.

Because now the dance is just a constant thread of “misunderstandings”. Nobody means anything. Nobody wants anything. Everyone is a victim of miscommunication and accidents.

And there is no hope. No redemption. No one who existed with peace and hope in their mind. Only war.

And what a tarnishing of a story that was meant to not only show how power corrupts and destroys. But also how we will always overcome because of those of us who hold hope and protect peace.

What a damn waste.

[unrealunearths]

!!!!!!!

[ajollybirdcollector]

My favourite ASOIAF characters (2): Rhaena Targaryen

Rhaena Targaryen

Rhaena Targaryen is probably my favourite Targaryen altogether. She was the first grandchild of Aegon the Conqueror (and Rhaenys, whom she was named after) and it is said that he wept when he held her for the first time. She was a queer woman and a low-key badass despite her life being riddled with tragedies.

She was the rider of Dreamfyre (in HOTD, Helaena ends up bonding with Dreamfyre which is fitting as Helaena share many similarities with young Rhaena. I like to think that Dreamfyre who did not bond with any rider for 50 years after Rhaena’s death eventually decided to bond with a girl who reminded her of her first rider). She is the one who gave Dreamfyre her name and loathed being separated from her dragon.

She was a shy and dreamy child who was more comfortable with animals than other children, she would hide being her parents when in front of strangers and preferred books to having friends. She began to overgrow her shyness after bonding with her dragon and flying for the first time.

By the time she reached adulthood, she was considered brave, fierce and headstrong.

She had numerous female favourites throughout her life, all of whom she would shower with affection and attention to such an extent, that it was cause for whispers at court.

She was close to her siblings. She had many suitors but wasn’t interested in them, preferring animals, her siblings and her female companions. She ended up marrying her younger brother, Aegon, per Targaryen’s custom. They had twin daughters together.

When her father died, a succession war broke out between her uncle, Maegor the Cruel, and her brother-husband, Aegon. Rhaena wanted to flee to protect her daughters claiming that if it had only been her and Aegon, she would have been ready to die for him and his claim to the throne, but now that she had daughters, she was unwilling to risk their lives, but Aegon refused to flee.

Rhaena sneaked into King’s Landing with her brother-husband under Maegor’s nose to get Dreamfyre back and steal Quicksilver (their late father’s dragon who eventually bonded with Aegon).

Aegon eventually died fighting against Maegor and his dragon, Balerion the Black Dread.

Her uncle Maegor forced her to marry him to assert his claim to the throne and Rhaena only agreed because Maegor and his mother, Visenya, had taken Rhaena’s daughters hostage. However, Rhaena apparently tried to kill Maegor with a dagger hidden beneath her pillow during their wedding night.

When she learned that her younger brother Jaehaerys had made a claim for the throne, she stole the Valyrian steel sword Blackfyre (the sword of Aegon the Conqueror) while Maegor slept and escaped King’s Landing at night with her daughter on Dreamfyre’s back to join her brother’s cause.

After Maegor’s death, many wondered whether Rhaena (first born child) and her daughters (with Aegon who was the eldest son) had a better claim to the throne than Jaehaerys (younger son) but Rhaena had come to loath King’s Landing and its court while being married to Maegor and agreed that the crown should go to Jaehaerys instead. However, later in life, she would come to resent that Jaehaerys’ claim was put above hers.

She married her third husband, Androw Farman, however, the true love of her life was his sister, Elissa Farman, and the marriage to Androw was most likely a cover. When Rhaena moved to Dragonstone, Lord Farman forbid Elissa from going but Rhaena took her with her regardless. However, Elissa grew restless on Dragonstone and wanted to sail west to explore the Sunset sea and announced to Rhaena that she was leaving but stole three dragon eggs in the process (which are theorised by fans to be the eggs Daenerys will eventually get in GoT).

She had a complicated relationship with her mother, Alyssa Velaryon. Rhaena was resentful that Alyssa supported her siblings’, Jaehaerys and Alysanna, claim to the throne above hers. Alyssa had been deeply offended that Rhaena did not inform her or invite her to her third marriage. Rhaena was upset that her mother got remarried to Lord Baratheon, who had remained passive when her brother-husband Aegon was at war with Maegor, and did not attend the wedding. However, when she learned that her mother was on her deathbed after a difficult pregnancy and birth, Rhaena rushed to Storm’s End on her dragon to make amend with her but arrived too late. Rhaena threatened to personally kill Lord Baratheon if he ever was to marry another woman after her mother.

Upon her return to Dragonstone, she found all of her female companions dead, including her young cousin Lianna Velaryon who died in her arms. Rhaena discovered that it was her third husband, Androw, who had poisoned them with tears of Lys out of jealousy. He committed suicide before Rhaena could have him tortured so she fed his body to her dragon.

She had a complicated relationship with her daughter Aerea (her other daughter Rhaella had become a septa in Oldtown). By the time Rhaena settled on Dragonstone and had Aerea come live with her, Aerea had been raised by Alysanne and Jaehaerys in King’s Landing for years and mother and daughter knew little of each other. Aerea also disliked Dragonstone. Eventually, Aerea claimed Balerion the Black Dread and flew away. Rhaena tried to find her thinking she had probably gone back to King’s Landing or somewhere in Westeros but Aerea was nowhere to be seen. Two years later, Aerea and Balerion reappeared in King’s Landing but she was infected with a terrible disease and died the same day. When Rhaena arrived after hearing of her daughter’s return, Aerea had already been cremated. Jaehaerys proposed to have her ashes interred on Dragonstone but Rhaena refused as Aerea had hated the place and she instead took off on Dreamfyre to scatter her daughter’s ashes into the sky claiming that Aerea had always wanted to fly.

Her sister Alysanne tried to convince her to take a fourth husband but Rhaena refused, saying “I fed my last husband to my dragon. If you make me take another, I may eat him myself”.

After that tragedy, Rhaena grew to dislike Dragonstone as much as King’s Landing and finished her days at Harrenhal, where she befriended the sickly and impoverished Lord Towers who was the last of his line and had no family. She remained there even after he passed and took his household into her own care. For the last seventeen years of her life, she would only leave Harrenhal to visit her daughter Rhaella in Oldtown once a year. In her later years, her hair turned completely white and the smallfolk began to fear her as a witch although she granted hospitality to all travellers who came to the castle.

So yes, Rhaena had a fascinating but tragic life. She is one of the only obviously queer characters of ASOIAF, she had a lot of love for her family but complicated relationships with her mother, sister and daughter. She was not to be trifled with, standing up to Maegor the Cruel, having her dragon eat her husband for killing her companions and threatening her late mother’s husband if he were to replace her and finishing her life at Harrenhal as a semi-recluse witch. How can we not love her?

source: Rhaena Targaryen (daughter of Aenys I), A Wiki of Ice and Fire (https://awoiaf.westeros.org/index.php/Rhaena_Targaryen_(daughter_of_Aenys_I))

[ajollybirdcollector]

My favourite ASOIAF characters (1): Rhaenys Targaryen, the Conqueror

Rhaenys Targaryen (the Conqueror)

I feel like when it comes to the Conquerors, most people gravitate towards “badass” Visenya and don’t mind me, Visenya was really cool wielding Dark Sister and doing blood magic. But because of that, I feel like Rhaenys is only viewed as the younger soft and sweet sister that Aegon married for love and lust. And she really wasn’t? So here are all the reasons why Rhaenys is my favourite Conqueror.

She was the rider of Meraxes, a she-dragon bigger than Vhagar. Rhaenys loved flying on dragonback and would spend more time doing so than both her siblings combined. She also wanted to fly Meraxes across the Sunset Sea to discover what was west of Westeros (yes, like Arya at the end of GoT).

Although she was indeed described as kindhearted and graceful, she also was playful, curious, impulsive and had a mischievous side to her.

She participated in the Conquest just as much as her siblings. She was the one to take over the Stormlands alongside her bastard brother, Orys Baratheon, and helped her other siblings defeat the Westerlands and the Reach.

She was the one to push for the earliest laws protecting women (sure, it wasn’t very much but it is as much as could be done in this time, in this fantasy-medieval world). That included putting the law of six and the law of thumb in place (an adulterous wife can only be beaten six times, one for every gods save the Stranger, with a stick no bigger than their husband’s thumb) to prevent women from being beaten to death by their husbands which was their right until that point. She also had Aegon make it illegal for Ironborns to steal women in the Seven Kingdoms (Ironborns have a culture of “stealing” women during raids on land and taking them as “salt wives”, that is sex slaves).

She aided Aegon to earn the respect of his vassals and the smallfolk who were a special concern of hers.

She loved music, dancing, and poetry. She was fond of singers, would often surround herself with comely young men and have them entertain her in her chambers when Aegon was away.

She died in her mid-thirties during the Conquest of Dorne when a scorpion bolt pierced through Meraxes’ eye. Aegon and Visenya were so grief-stricken by her death that they set every Dornish castle and holdfast they could find ablaze (but they are very interesting fan theories that Rhaenys might actually have survived in Dorne since the events surrounding her death are very vague).

source: Rhaenys Targaryen, A Wiki of Ice and Fire (https://awoiaf.westeros.org/index.php/Rhaenys_Targaryen)

[ajollybirdcollector]

HOTD: Succession is messy and Alicent has a point

I’ve seen many takes all over the internet that Alicent is power-hungry and wants to usurp the throne from Rhaenyra in favour of her own kids. That the Greens have no rights, that Rhaenyra is the heir, that it doesn’t matter that her kids are bastards because they have their claim to the throne through their mother, etc... And I wholeheartedly disagree. 

I do not think Alicent necessarily wants the throne, actually, we are given quite clear indications in the earlier episodes that Alicent did not want Aegon to be named heir ahead of Rhaenyra but she quickly becomes to understand that things are not going to unfold smoothly and it’s mainly due to the patriarchal system of Westeros but also how Rhaenyra behaves as an individual. Early in the show, Alicent is made aware by her father of how ugly the situation could turn out, she also understands that Viserys is not willing to clean up the mess (much of it of his own making), that Rhaenyra is going to act however the fuck she wants and that Alicent can trust neither with her own safety and the safety of her children. Alicent knows shit is going to go down regardless and that she and her kids will die if her side loses.

* DISCLAIMERS: I just want to make it clear that I am pro-absolute primogeniture, I do not agree with the male preference within the patriarchy and overall misogyny of Westeros. This post is not about justifying Rhaenyra being passed over or anything like that. It is more about highlighting that Alicent does have a point and that viewers are short-sighted and unfair when they bash her and judge her action with their 2022 worldviews, completely ignoring the different social structure of this fantasy world and the implication it has for how the characters within it behave. Personally, I am neither really on Team Green nor Black when it comes to who has a right to the throne because... It should be Rhaenys Targaryen, she should have be Queen instead of Viserys... so Team Queen Who Definitely Should Have Been? Or even better, Samwell Tarly’s idea of I don’t kow... democracy? Like a government chosen by the people and not some random dude who happens to be the son of some other random dude but hey... We are a couple of centuries too early for that in this world. Furthermore, this post is mostly sticking to a political cost-and-benefit analysis of the situation and won’t got to much into details about how those characters’ personal feelings and traumas obviously affect their decisions.

Alicent has every reason to be fearful of what will happen once Viserys dies. It was already the case before Rhaenyra had children and it only got worse once she gave birth to obvious bastards. You may think what you want about Otto but he puts out a very fair assessment in the show when he says that most lords won’t easily accept a woman as the Queen, especially when there is a healthy dragon-riding male heir (Aegon) available. There are rules of succession in Westeros but nothing is set in stone and many scenarios can unfold. The judicial system is really more like a set of loose customs rather than organized laws that are rigorously enforced like in our world. The laws of inheritance are not clear cut.  George R.R. Martin says himself that they are “vague, uncodified, subject to varying interpretations, and often contradictory”. So yes... succession gets messy when several people have a claim. 

The ideal situation in this world is to have a strong, healthy and adult legitimate first-born male as heir but when you can’t have that, what is chosen instead? If you know about the lore of ASOIAF, you will see that there are many instances of succession crisis when a choice must be made between different pretenders that all have a claim but none has the absolute best claim (ideal situation above). So what do we choose? The female heir (daughter) or a more distant male relative (half-brother, uncle, cousin, etc), the infant heir who can’t rule or go to war on their own or an adult relative who can, a sickly/insane heir or a healthy relative, the heir with dubious parentage or the relative who is undoubtedly legitimate, etc... There are quite a few messy successions in ASOIAF’s history like the succession of Beron Stark, of Walder Frey, of Aenys I Targaryen, of Aegon IV Targaryen, of Donella Hornwood, of Jeyne Arryn, of Jaehaerys I Targaryen, etc... And most succession disputes involve a lot of people dying. People pick sides and start scheming and fighting and it quickly turns into a bloodshed (the Dance of the Dragons is the most famous one).

In HOTD, there is no first-born male heir to Viserys. So what would the lords of Westeros choose? A first-born female heir (emphasis on the first-born) or a second-born male heir (emphasis on the male)? Viserys might think he settled the matter by naming Rhaenyra his heir, but it doesn’t really mean anything. The lords are technically subservient to the king but in reality, their collective opinion matters more than his individual one, especially once he is dead. I believe Jaehaerys knew that and it’s why he had the lords choose the future heir at the Great Council of 101 rather than declare an heir himself. 

And while I’m mentioning the Great Council, the characters in the show are right to say that it sets a precedent. Rhaenys and her children (which included a boy) were passed over in favour of the next male in line, Viserys. By the very precedent that put her father on the throne, Rhaenyra and her children should be passed over in favour of the next male in line who is Aegon. Without that precedent, Rhaenyra would not even be in a position to be heir to the throne or to fight over it with Aegon because Rhaenys would be Queen and Rhaenyra would be way down the line of succession behind Laena, Baela, Rhaena, Laenor and their “Strong” children (although in a world where Rhaenys became Queen instead of Viserys, Laena and Laenor probably would not have married Rhaenyra and Daemon). If you go against that precedent, then what would stop Rhaenys and the Velaryon to start their own war for the throne since Rhaenyra becoming Queen would nullify the precedent set and actually make Rhaenys the person with the best claim to the Iron Throne. Without that precedent, the Iron Throne ‘rightfully’ belongs to Rhaenys. Now, this could have been solved by the marriage of Rhaenyra and Laenor Velaryon. Rhaenys compromises. She forgoes her claim to the throne and in return her son becomes consort and her grandchild will be the monarch after Rhaenyra. She, Rhaenys, never becomes queen but at least her descendants do eventually get the Iron Throne and a war is avoided. Except... Rhaenyra and Laenor do not have children. Worst than that, Rhaenyra passes off bastards as Laenor’s children as well as Rhaenys and Corlys’ grandchildren (in the world of GOT, it doesn’t matter that Laenor is on board with it, especially since Corlys is still the head of House Velaryon and not Laenor). Because of that, both the Iron Throne (Rhaenys’ birthright) and Driftmark (Corlys’ birthright) will go to the bastard sons of their daughter-in-law (Jacaerys for the throne and Lucerys for Driftmark) who are blood-related to neither of them (in a feudal, patriarchal world like ASOIAF in which bloodlines, ancestry and houses are the most important social institutions, it doesn’t matter that Laenor liked those boys as if they were his, it doesn’t even matter if Rhaenys and Corlys like the boys, they are still bastards that aren’t related to them. Equal rights for adopted/non-bio kids do not really stand in such a social system like it does in our world in 2022). And this is why the betrothal of Jacaerys and Lucerys to their cousins Baela and Rhaena was essential to keep House Velaryon on Rhaenyra’s side. Through those marriages, the Iron Throne still goes to Rhaenys’ descendants through Baela and Driftmark still goes to Corlys’ descendants through Rhaena.

Coming back to what the lords would choose between the two claimants (Rhaenyra or Aegon)... Well, every house is going to take a side based on what they think is “right” but mostly according to which side they believe they stand to gain the most on and which side won’t upset the social hierarchy for everybody else (how many succession disputes would break out all over the kingdom if it becomes acceptable for women to have a claim as strong as their younger brother? Most lords will want to avoid that). And it doesn’t matter if Alicent and Aegon do not want to throne (which was made pretty clear that they indeed don’t really want it). It doesn’t matter if they are perfectly fine with letting Rhaenyra become Queen.

Daenerys said it quite accurately to Jon in the last season of GoT which is (roughly): “It doesn’t matter what you (Jon) want. What will happen went they (the lords) demand you press your claim and take what is mine (the throne)? [...] It will take on a life of its own (the truth about his ancestry) and you won’t be able to control it or what it does to people.” She knew that it didn’t matter that Jon had bent the knee to her and that he didn’t want the throne. The lords and ladies who had something to gain (or even just had a preference) from Jon being on the throne instead of Daenerys will plot to get him there and to get her out of the picture. Similarly, Alicent knows very well that many lords (because of misogyny and because of how recklessly Rhaenyra behaves) will force a war on her sons against Rhaenyra.

Furthermore, she knows that if she lets Rhaenyra take the throne before a war can be forced on all of them, her sons will still most likely die. For the Blacks, Alicent’s sons will always be a threat to Rhaenyra’s rule and they will have them killed even if the order to do so doesn’t come from Rhaenyra directly (it would probably be from Daemon or Corlys or any other advisors who will make sure “accidents” happen to ever prevent Aegon, Aemond and Daeron, or anyone else on their behalf, from pressing their claim to the throne.) 

Rhaenyra does propose marrying Helaena to Jacaerys to ‘reunite’ the Green and the Black but that is also not a feasible option and Alicent refusing it makes sense. As I mentioned above, Jacaerys and Lucerys must marry Baela or Rhaena if Rhaenyra hopes to keep the support of Rhaenys and House Velaryon. Furthermore, Alicent must have known that if anyone still tries to use her sons  to take the throne from Rhaenyra, such a marriage would have condemned her daughter and her grandchildren by her to most probably die (see Elia Martell and her children, they had to be killed even after Robert had won the throne because they will have always been a threat to him).

Really, the only way the Dance of Dragons could have been avoided would have been either to marry Rhaenyra with Aegon (best solution as they would have ruled together and the throne would have passed down to their legitimate son who should have then been married to a daughter of Laena Velaryon, effectively making both Rhaenyra, Team Green and House Velaryon happy) or have Rhaenyra and Laenor actually have a legitimate son that would have married Helaena (different combination, about same result).

Alicent was put in a difficult position in which her life and that of her children would have been on the line no matter what. She could either let everybody uses them as pawns, or take charge of her own side as much as she could and try to get the best deal out of it because everybody else in her life (her father Otto, her husband Viserys, her best friend Rhaenyra) made it clear by their words or actions (or inactions) that she and her well-being are not their priority and that she would always come after them and their interests. She is not a man, she is the daughter of a second son who might be Hand of the King (a title that can be given or taken away on a whim of said King) but is no lord and has no army (unlike say Margaery and Cersei who were the daughters of great lords and had the red cloaks/green cloaks in King’s Landing to protect them as well as brothers in the Kingsguard), she has no power of her own and unlike Rhaenyra she doesn’t have a dragon, she is the Queen but that is really just an honorary status because her husband is the King and it only lasts as long as Viserys is alive. She is in survival mode and it is understandable that she is going to be as ruthless as need be. For all that I support this woman’s rights and this woman’s wrongs (mostly).

* English is not my first language, please forgive my poor grammar and convoluted sentences. 

[ajollybirdcollector]

my year of 2022 in books, movies, tv shows, albums & fan fictions.

{books}. 13 books, 4440 p.

1# sharp objects, gillian flynn ~ 321 p.

2# pride and prejudice, jane austen ~ 389 p.

3# my year of rest and relaxation, ottessa moshfegh ~ 289 p.

4# a deadly education, noami novik ~ 313 p.

5# gone girl, gillian flynn ~ 555 p.

the last graduate, naomi novik ~ 388 p.

the silent patient, alex michaelides ~ 339 p.

the cruel prince, holly black ~ 370 p.

the wicked king, holly black  ~ 326 p.

the queen of nothing, holly black ~ 305 p.

hood feminism, mikki kendall ~ 258 p.

dark places, gillian flynn ~ 424 p.

convenience store woman, sayaka murata ~ 163 p.

{movies}. 4 movies, 522 m.

elvis (2022) ~ 159 m.

death on the nile (2022) ~ 127 m.

top gun: maverick (2022) ~ 131 m.

fear street, part 1: 1994 (2021) ~ 105 m.

 {tv shows}. 7 tv shows, 54 ep.

1# reservation dogs, season 1 (2021) ~ 8 ep.

2# stranger things, season 4 (2022) ~ 9 ep.

3# heartstopper, season 1 (2022) ~ 8 ep.

young royals, season 1 (2021) ~ 5/6 ep.

my umbrella academy, season 3 (2022) ~ 10 ep.

bridgerton, season 2 (2022) ~ 8 ep.

peaky blinders, season 6 (2022) ~ 6 ep.

Guillermo Del Toro’s Cabinet of Curiosities, season 1 (2022) ~ 8 ep.

{albums}. 18 albums, 214 songs, 776 min.

1# strange trails, lord huron (2015) ~ 14 songs, 55 min.

2# the stranger, billy joel (1977) ~ 9 songs, 42 min. 

3# igor, tyler the creator (2019) ~ 12 songs, 39 min.

4# favourite worst nightmare, arctic monkeys (2007) ~ 12 songs, 38 min.

5# superache, conan gray (2022) ~ 12 songs, 40 min.

6# harry’s house, harry styles (2022) ~ 13 songs, 41 min.

7# carrie & lowell, sufjan stevens (2015) ~ 11 songs, 43 min.

8# pony, rex orange country (2019) ~ 10 songs, 33 min.

9# cleopatra, the lumineers (2016) ~ 11 songs, 33 min. 10# dizzy up the girl, the goo goo dolls (1998) ~ 13 songs, 45 min.

my head is an animal, of monsters and men (2012) ~ 12 songs, 53 min.

stratosphere, duster (1998) ~ 17 songs, 53 min.

titanic rising, weyes blood (2019) ~ 10 songs, 42 min.

heaven or las vegas, cocteau twins (1990) ~ 10 songs, 37 min.

cape god, allie x (2020) ~ 12 songs, 43 min.

2, mac demarco (2012) ~ 11 songs, 31 min.

lonesome dreams, lord huron (2013) ~ 13 songs, 58 min.

young the giant, young the giant (2011) ~ 12 songs, 50 min.

midnights, taylor swift (2022) ~ 20 songs, 1h & 09 min.

awaken, my love (2016) ~ 11 songs, 49 min.

{fan fiction}. 37 fan fictions, 3M 702k

1# art heist, baby! {hp; jegulus, wolfstar, dorlene & rosekiller} ~ otrtbs, 38 ch., 219k, completed

2# choices {hp; jegulus, jily & wolfstar} ~ messermoon, 56 ch., 624k, completed

3# evitative {hp; drarry} ~ vichan, 29 ch., 222k, completed

4# you belong to me (i belong to you) {hp; tomarry} ~ child_otkw, 18 ch., 104k, wip

5# quite like us {hp; jegulus} ~ alarainai, 16 ch., 67k, completed

6# the miseducation of draco malfoy {hp; darry} ~ magpie_fngrl, 7 ch., 37k, completed

7# after everything, always {hp; jegulus, wolfstar & dorlene} ~ reggie4dayzz, 32 ch., 236k, wip

8# the bucket list {hp; drarry} ~ gallaplacidia, 17 ch. 32k, completed

9# just lovers (like we were supposed to be) {hp; jegulus, wolfstar, marylily & dorlene} ~ zeppazariel, 24 ch., 321k, completed

10# crimson rivers {hp; jegulus, dorlene & wolfstar} ~ zeppazariel, 40 ch., 403k, wip

intermission {hp; rosekiller} ~ zeppazariel, 4 ch., 43k, completed

redivider {hp; drarry} ~ vichan, 12 ch., 75k, wip

tea, cigarettes, and whiskey {the secret history; francis/richard} ~ jorsten, one-shot, 3k, completed

teenage wasteland {hp; drarry} ~ gallaplacidia, 9 ch., 51k, completed

adventures of a suicidal gentleman {hp; drarry} ~ gallaplacidia, 23 ch., 47k, completed

cassiopea lily malfoy {hp; drarry} ~ gallaplacidia, 15 ch., 37k, completed

lessons in grace and decorum {hp; drarry} ~ gallaplacidia, 21 ch., 48k, completed

goodnight from your future husband {hp; drarry} ~ gallaplacidia, 5 ch., 13k, completed

code name L {hp; drarry} ~ gallaplacidia, 17 ch., 32k, completed

“dad says” {hp; drarry} ~ gallaplacidia, 13 ch., 39k, completed

you’ve got the antidote for me {hp; drarry} ~ kandakickass, one-shot, 20k, completed

ship of theseus {hp; drarry} ~ gallaplacidia, one-shot, 18k, completed

dwelling {hp; drarry} ~ aideomai, 6 ch., 83k, completed

lumos {hp; drarry} ~ birdsofshore, one-shot, 41k, completed

lily’s boy {hp; drarry, snupin, ninny & sirius/charlie} ~ somewheressword, 109 ch., 746k, completed

how miraculous {hp; jegulus, jily, wolfstar & dorlene} ~ flipp, 12 ch., 37k, wip

house colours {hp; jegulus & wolfstar} ~ buttons_n_bose, one-shot, 3k, completed

operation keep black in the dark {hp; jegulus} ~ arctiinae, one-shot, 6k, completed

i am yours {hp; rosekiller} ~ heyhoessslol, one-shot, 2k, completed

don’t blame me, love made me crazy {hp; jegulus} ~ coup_de_foudre, one-shot, 14k, completed

like a balast {hp; jegulus} ~ orphan_account, one-shot, 4k, completed

never have i ever {hp; jegulus} ~ moonymoment, one-shot, 3k, completed

you fell apart like a stone {hp; jegulus} ~ kaedeeee, one-shot, 5k, completed

till forever falls apart {hp; jegulus} ~ nikipa, one-shot, 5k, completed

from now you love me {hp; jegulus} ~ orphan_account, 5 ch., 14k, completed

delenda est - rebooted {hp; harry/bellatrix} ~ lord_silvere, 6 ch., 44k, wip

i’m only here because of you {hp; jegulus} ~ miriammt, one-shot, 4k, completed