Alaisabel

(they/them) 28. Bisexual and bipolar, but nonbinary I write destiel fics over on Ao3 ♡ https://archiveofourown.org/users/Alaisabel (cover is Richard Siken - Crush)

[mahawavy]

[not-the-blue]

All that's left is the song I've sung The breath I've taken and the one I must

aka

any song can be destiel if your heart is pure

(lyrics are from The Wrote & The Writ by Johnny Flynn)

[nickyandmikey]

when two musicians sing into the same microphone and lean in very close to each other… like omg are you guys gonna kiss now to relieve the homoerotic tension?😳

[nickyandmikey]

THIS IS NOT ABOUT ONE DIRECTION I DON’T KNOW WHO THIS “HARRY” PERSON IS GO WATCH BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN AND CLARENCE CLEMONS KISS ON STAGE RIGHT NOW

[irrelevantlyvalid]

op is the only valid person i’ve ever met. everyone else needs to come to the light

[chokolattejedi]

Okay, but this is really important: Bruce Springsteen occupied this really weird place in music history. His songs were all from this pessimistic, nihilistic view of an America that had let him down:

Just like the anti-Vietnam War protest songs that we associate with the 1960s, or the early nihilism that spawned punk music in the 1970s. But he didn’t *sound* like a punk anarchist; he sounded like a country rock singer. When he released Born in the U.S.A. people completely misinterpreted (or possibly ignored) the lyrics in favor of the tone of the music.

Politicians used his music to promote their ‘Murica Yes! brand, and he had to literally explain that that was not what he was about. He’s over here asking when we’re going to have jobs and heathcare, not stanning the politicians who weren’t helping the people.

It was also kind of a big deal that he had an integrated band, because even as late as the 1980s music was still kind of segregated and MTV was straight up racist. They refused to play and promote black artists and then claimed that were no black artists in the first place. Michael Jackson’s record company had to threaten a boycott of their white artists to get MTV to play his Thriller video.

Plus, the first black/white interracial kiss on TV was in 1968 (OG Star Trek). Also it took us until the 70s to get sympathetic gay characters on screen, and the 90s to get gay characters to kiss onscreen. And all of those firsts were met with outrage.

So keep that in mind when you see Bruce Springsteen not just playing with an interracial band, but engaging in an interracial, gay kiss on stage repeatedly.

Passages from American Popular Music by Larry Starr and Christopher Waterman

[executeness]

I used to think that Bruce and Clarence kissing onstage was exuberance, showmanship, and telling racist homophobes to fuck off. Like, they picked up a certain kind of audience and went “Racist homophobes? Not in our house!” And started the kissing then but then I actually looked it up and

https://www.gq.com/story/this-fucked-me-up-bruce-springsteen-singing-about-clarence-clemons

It was a story where… we remade the city. We remade the city, shaping it into the kind of place where our friendship and our love for one another wouldn’t have been such an exceptional thing. - Bruce Springsteen

It wasn’t about showmanship or rejecting bigots or anything it was just. Damn right that was one of the loves of his life and damn right he was going to kiss him onstage

It gets me a little that Bruce has had a divorce, that he’s been married twice, but he loved Clarence for the rest of Clarence’s life and will presumably love him the rest of his own

Clemons said in one interview. “Bruce and I looked at each other and didn’t say anything, we just knew. We knew we were the missing links in each other’s lives. He was what I’d been searching for.” In another version of the story, Clemons says “He looked at me, and I looked at him, and we fell in love.”

I’m having some emotions about it!

“He was elemental in my life,“ Springsteen adds, “and losing him was like losing the rain.”

Not just! I love you pure and deep and true but! I am going to love you like that in front of the whole damn world!

We have fewer narratives about taking risks and making statements for platonic love rather than romantic and supposedly it would be easier to downplay this onstage than romance and! They refused! They fucking refused! In front of hundreds of thousands of people, over the course of years! In the spotlight, in word and deed, I love you!

God I’m not okay about it

[ramshacklefey]

Now I’m mad that this is not among any of the things I was ever told about this artist.

[jbbartram-illu]

I knew about this in general (& via all those fabulous photos), but this just adds even more beautiful context <3

[eregyrn-falls]

Just to add to the pile: this was the cover of Springsteen’s break-through album Born to Run, in 1975:

I mean, will you LOOK at this:

This was the pic chosen for the album cover from an extensive photoshoot, too. A few others:

There’s a lot more online if you search. They’re all pretty amazing. But the photographer is right, the one chosen for the album cover just pops.

[beetusthatyeetus]

John’s voicemail: If this is an emergency, call my son.

Sam’s voicemail: If this is an emergency, call my brother.

Dean’s voicemail: If this is an emergency, leave a message or try my other phone.

Bro is his own emergency contact on top of being everyone else’s I’m going to throw myself under a jet ski

[upset-to-dead]

Obsessed with Ilya struggling to straddle Shane for a second bc Shane's first instinct after being pushed onto a bed is to spread his legs

[colorlessjay-destielblog]

SPN if Dean was openly bisexual

[leonkennedywho]

Quick Cas doodle with charcoal

[ambiguousdisorderken]

I’m just starting to think that… maybe there’s more to it all than I thought.

[junkiepunkie]

I beg of you to do another part to Castiel saying things to Dean that he doesn't realize are so incredibly gay. I'm literally on my knees begging you.

(immediately yes)

Cas saying things to Dean he doesn't realise are incredibly gay, Pt 2 (even gayer edition);

*Cas and Sam in the library while Dean cooks dinner*

Sam: So how're you feeling since losing your grace again? Any weird side affects to being human?

Cas: Not as much as last time, well, other than my growing affinity for watching movies with Dean.

Sam: Yeah? Got a favourite one yet?

*Dean entering unnoticed, sipping a beer*

Cas: I identify most with Brokeback Mountain. It reminds me of myself and Dean.

Dean: *spitting out the beer* Hey, no it doesn't. Sammy, I PROMISE you it does not.

Sam: *Refusing to look either of them in the eye* Why do I still live here?

Cas: I don't see why Dean and I enjoying each others company is so odd-

Dean: Angel, shut up.

*Cas walking into Dean's room unnanounced*

Dean: Jesus! Cas, we've been over this! Humans knock.

Cas: My apologies. I just had a question I needed to ask.

Dean: Okay, shoot.

Cas: Would you say I 'give off' top or bottom 'vibes'

Dean: *slapping himself in the face* Nope, not a nightmare. Okay, dude why do you even know what that means?

Cas: I was on a site called Buzzfeed.

Dean: ...of course you were.

Cas: That doesn't answer my question. What is my 'vibe'? And why is it apparently important in male on male friendships?

Dean: Sometimes I miss hell. *Leaves room, then sighs and turns back* Top buddy, you're a top.

*Cas, Sam and Dean in the Impala*

Dean: Okay Cas, your turn, truth or dare?

Cas: Truth I suppose.

Dean: Oh, okay, I've got one. Whats the worst thing about your angel mojo?

Sam: Dean, that feels a little insensitive, he's human right now-

Cas: Hearing peoples thoughts when they're aroused.

Sam: ...

Dean: ...oh god, that- you can hear that?

Sam: Dude... I can only apologise. I'm gross.

Cas: No apology needed Sam, you're actually quite clinical with it all things considered. Dean however, is far less so.

Dean: What?! Oh come on, no way I'm worse than Demon fucker over there!

Cas: I find it easier to tune out Sam, he's not very interesting to listen to.

Dean: What? And I am?

Cas: Yes. You make it very easy to picture myself in the room-

Sam: OH MY GOD! Shoot me! Shoot me in the face!!

[carisstiel]

the one thing I want. the one thing. he only wanted one thing a million years old and he only wanted one thing. the one thing I Want. I know I can’t have.

[pinknatural]

just realized dean has a cowboy kink not a cowgirl kink and in fact dean is NEVER faced with a cowgirl in all 15 years of the show but he is faced with cowboys many many times

[gremlin-pattie]

god i love this show

[fabuki]

a little detail I wasn't able to share from my last post cuz it was too small 😔

[sicksicksixx]

like dean realizing he’s queer later in life is fine i guess but what about a dean who had a limp wrist as a five year old. what about a dean who was taught to course correct before he learned how to read. a dean who always knew he had to stand up a little straighter and not sing along to madonna in front of his dad and not hold that other boys gaze for too long, two seconds max, count it out. like it’s fine! look how far apart we’re sitting! i’m being so careful. a dean who knew there was something in him that other people could always sniff out if they got close enough and who has tried to hide it by lowering his voice until his throat hurts and wearing a giant leather jacket that doesn’t fit and making sure his little brother always sees him flirting with women. a dean who is constantly running the math in his head to see what he can get away with and what is a little too far and constantly coming up short. a dean who knows what he is but who wants so so so badly to be different, so much so that he has to constantly mirror the men in his life who seem to know how to do this effortless masculinity thing and who loses so much of his authentic self in the process.

[tamilhobbit]

Dean is so damn performative in the early seasons, and it's fascinating to watch him stop caring about playing those roles in the later seasons. (Was it losing John and having Bobby's more positive influence? Or was it going to Hell and back and saying fuck you to the other role destiny/Heaven tried to shove him into?)

He's unapologetic about loving LARP and nesting and cooking and decorating and enjoying soft fabrics and nightgowns. He stops the over-the-top flirting and fucking random women, and instead starts turning into a brother/father figure for every woman and girl he meets.

And, of course, very early on he stops caring about personal space with Cas. No more mental calculations of how close he can stand or how long he can look.

The famous S10 quote - there’s things, there’s…people, feelings that I-I-I want to experience differently than I have before, or maybe even for the first time. We mostly use that for Cas/Destiel in particular, but there are other things Dean wants to experience differently, too. Everything that John forced him to suppress, or to temper his reactions to.

Also, the vulnerability when he asks Jesse and Cesar what it's like.

Just more reasons to be furious at the ending - in that last season in particular we see those walls coming down even more. His wistfulness when he sees what Garth and Bess have, the dance/lamp scene and later saying he always thought he'd be a good dancer, etc. Dean deserved the chance to move into a cottage with Cas and be soft and domestic, dammit!

[beautiful--feathered--wings]

ten people you'd like to know better

I got tagged by @bloopitynoot, so let's go!

last song: According to Spotify it was "Woman" by Kesha Featuring The Dap-Kings Horns.

favorite color: Lavender or Lilac.

currently watching: I only have two episodes left of Wu Xie's Private Notes/Time Raiders 2025! I'd watch them if I had a bit more time to myself. My Mom and Sister are watching reruns of Kitchen Nightmares and Hotel Hell on the shared TV, so I am too.

currently reading: I'm on Vol. 4 of Heaven Official's Blessing/Tian Guan Ci Fu. I've kind of gotten a little bit spoiled for what happens with He Xuan, Shi Qingxuan, and Shi Wudu. I don't know (or understand) too many of the details and have no idea what Hualian is supposed to be doing while all of this is going on (other than making out as indicated by the cover), so don't give me any more spoilers! I want to be surprised!

For fics, right now I'm reading this Xicheng mpreg! fic (don't judge me) and this Banana Fish fic that is just breaking my heart.

current obsession: Napping. No, seriously, I've spent two days in bed non-stop napping. I've had a migraine and stomach upset. Also been using it to avoid interacting with people I don't want to, so that's probably healthy.

currently working on: Three fics. One has been outlined, and I'm currently writing the second chapter. One, I'm in the process of outlining. One, I've just been saying "fuck outlining" and riding with the vibes. Although I'm probably going to have to make an outline for that one soon, because I haven't really figured out my end goal.

last google search: "what happened to the river rock inn hotel hell"

tagging ten people

@celestialsonglines

@rien6769

@bluebonnetblues

@peachyhalloween

@missgetawaycar

@toni-queer-as-in-fuck-you

@an-z

@tentapun

@imma-bunni

@jess-ence

[peachyhalloween]

Thank you for the tag @beautiful--feathered--wings 🩷 I love tag games!

Last Song: 16:12 by The Left Rights bc my husband sang a bit of it and I had to listen again

Favorite Color: Princess Peach Pink 🩷

Currently Watching: Justified (love me a cowboy)

Currently Reading: In the Middle by @whoipretended2b

Heaven Came Down by @bethmints

Sacred Things by @farenmaddox and @stonelions

and looking at 833772 other Destiel fics with a special emphasis on @xev3n works

Current Obsession: Playing Breath Of The Wild

Currently Working On: Fic for the Over 40 Bang and a Dean/OC a lovely reader of mine requested 😍

Last Google Search: if it's 12est what time is it in my timezone? (I don't want to be late to art claims for Horrorfest so I needed to put it in my calendar)

I'm on mobile and not sure I know ten people, so I'm just extending the game to the people I already tagged!

[bethmints]

thanks for the tag @peachyhalloween 💖

Last Song: "Numb Little Bug" - Em Beihold

Favorite Color: forest green

Currently Watching: lmao, I'm watching a video essay about fanfiction on YT (hopeless)

Currently Reading:

No Man's Land - @akaalaisabel (western horror <3) Horror Vacui - @kickflaw (season 16 fic w/ a very compelling premise) You, On Your Good Days - @flatcokeao3 (professor/construction worker rom-com) The Middle - @whoipretended2b (emo cas/bartender dean) Return to Sender - @sicksicksixx (epistolary fic that has me FOAMING AT THE MOUTH) (and an additional 22 open tabs that I haven't started reading yet 😭 peachy, I am also planning to binge @xev3n fics soon lol, I'm behind)

As for non-fanfiction, I'm reading Pride & Prejudice and the Gravitation manga series.

Current Obsession:

Supernatural 😶‍🌫️

Currently Working On:

Heaven Came Down - HunterCorp Dean/Endverse Cas WIP Several bangs Restraintstiel Week Another POLLSPN fic Sequels to Knockoff Constantine and Scenic Route

Last Google Search: "best halara coupon codes" (basic bitch alert 😔) tagging: @shes-beauty-shes-ace @deweys-posts @lioness-of-hadasht @bleuzombie @scifiromance7 @tea-or-die @lazarus-rose @nezyy78 @blackhorsedances @creamycarbonara2459 (and also everyone tagged above—sorry if y'all dislike tag games <3 and if you just wanna do this, feel free!! tag me bc i'm nosy!!)

[akaalaisabel]

Thank you for the tag @bethmints !

Last Song: "Take What You Want" by Post Malone (ft. Ozzy Osbourne and Travis Scott)

Favorite Color: -

Currently Watching: Game of Thrones (rewatch)

Currently Reading: Ulysses by James Joyce Normaliseret by Haidar Ansari (Poetry. Title translates to Normalized)

Current Obsession: Ilia Malinin's gala program from the World Championships in figure skating. Watch it and tell me you couldn't see either Ilya Rozanov or Dean Winchester opting to do this one (if they'd gone into different professions, lol. And Dean would obviously be to the original and not a Yungblud cover, I love it, but he would probably get a rash from it):

Currently Working On: My destiel Mafia Cas, Sex Worker Dean WIP: Incentive

Last Google Search: "Quad axel force hit the ice with"

Tagging: @farenmaddox , @whoipretended2b , @artemis-73 , @xev3n , @cheesecakekiss , @sinkat-arts , @imaginaryprotagonist

(I have no idea who's already been tagged. And no pressure, just view it as a gesture of friendship!)

[dark-as-abyss]

I would really like to make a video with Destiel to a popular trend based on Mindless Self Indulgence song. But I don't have any experience with animation, so that's why I only drew a couple of sketches.

[akaalaisabel]

hello i am such a big fan of all of your destiel works-insanely interesting, unique and well executed AU concepts every time

seeing as you’ve just published your first destiel fic involving anything supernatural (i believe), i was wondering if you were ever planning on publishing any canonverse fics on ao3,, i would love to see your take on their characterization in the context of canon,, either way it’s always a delight when you post! you are truly an excellent author 😁😁

Thank you so much for all of your kind words 🖤 I think you're right about No Man's Land being my first published fic to include supernatural elements!

I don't think canonverse is in the cards for me unfortunately. Inspiration might strike (especially after this lovely ask!), but I've just never really been drawn to canonverse when it comes to fics 🖤 I prefer having full creative control, without sharing with Chuck, haha

[sinkat-arts]

My (first) contribution to this year's @destielaureversebb was with the wonderful @akaalaisabel who turned my little blue comic up there into an ***incredible*** horror / western / love story that you are NOT gonna want to miss.

Seriously. The vibes, the world building, the characterization... all immaculate. Run, don't walk, and read today.

No Man's Land by Alaisabel on AO3 >

[akaalaisabel]

I've been so excited to share this! And for everyone to see this amazing art!!

I've been in love with it from the very first piece I saw and it has just kept getting better.

I can recommend spending inordinate amounts of time on studying these pieces to get the full experience. My personal favorite parts are the rocks looking like fingers, and the general use of light (and of course how hot Cas looks in these. Might have been part of what drew me in at first)