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[not-the-blue]

why am i like this

[maxknightley]

(girl who's been thinking about The Character nonstop for two months voice) you'll never guess what this song reminds me of

[reallyunluckyrunaway]

[sailorsallyart]

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[supernaturalapocalypse]

Actual Scene vs. Gag Reel - Season 9

Requested by bonjovirocks-on-occasion

[leatherdean]

many good takes on here about how f!dean/deanna would actually express her gender in a high femme way. my take on f!sam however is that she is exactly like m!sam except she has a massive “not like other girls” complex

[leatherdean]

samantha: well at least i actually use my brain and do lore research like a feminist instead of wasting my time putting on makeup and reading cosmo :/

deanna: well at least i’m not a sanctimonious CUNT

[not-the-blue]

witnessed a magical moment on the bus last night

[valtsv]

you are my friend and to some extent the altar upon which i mount my guilt

[valtsv]

you are my friend and to an increasing extent the saviour i worship

[valtsv]

you are my friend and i hope something ruins you before i do

[xofemeraldstars]

DESTIEL 2ND ANNIVERSARY by @destiversary -> day seven: season 10

[not-the-blue]

checked the lore (roller derby groupchat) and found out the curse (random muscle cramps) has a cure in the form of an ancient rock (magnesium tablets)

[souldysphoria]

Awesome height chart. Need to remember this for if/when I do fanart. I forgot that Luck was shorter than Ludo it just doesn’t seem right…given her seme nature….feel like all the fanart I see of them doesn’t acknowledge this

[pepurika]

i always forget about this. why is jamis so...

and luck makes themselves taller on purpose... LOL

[scoobydoodean]

people sometimes flatten Dean’s protectiveness into possessiveness because from the outside they can look similar:

hypervigilance

difficulty letting go

stepping into caretaker mode

panic when loved ones are endangered

trying to “fix” situations

but emotionally, the root is different.

possessiveness is usually about ownership and entitlement. Dean’s behavior is much more rooted in responsibility and terror of failure.

John essentially conditioned Dean into believing:

if something bad happens to this family, it’s your fault.

which is an absolutely catastrophic burden to put on a child. especially this child, because Dean was already naturally empathetic and nurturing before the parentification fully set in.

and the phone call with Mary and John is so important because it reveals something crucial: Dean’s instinct toward comfort predates the trauma configuration we usually associate with him.

little Dean doesn’t respond to distress by withdrawing. he moves toward it. Mary gets upset and he immediately tries to soothe her:

“i’ll never leave you”

“dad loves you”

reassurance

emotional caretaking

that is not John programming him from scratch. that’s John exploiting something already there.

which honestly makes it sadder.

because John takes a naturally affectionate, emotionally sensitive kid and turns those instincts into survival labor.

Dean learns that being nurturing and noble and dependable is not optional. it is duty. it is vigilance. it is crisis management. it is:

keep everyone together keep everyone alive absorb everyone’s fear do not break do not need anything

and because Dean succeeds at this so often, everyone around him unconsciously starts relying on it too.

that’s why he gets trapped in impossible expectations throughout the series:

be emotionally available

be strong

be forgiving

be ruthless when needed

be soft

be hard

be a brother

be a parent

be a soldier

be stable

never fall apart

he’s expected to endlessly regulate both himself and everyone else emotionally.

and when he can’t? people often react with discomfort because Dean’s caretaking became structural. he’s the emotional hearth of the narrative, and when the hearth starts to get cold, everyone notices.

I think the tragedy of Dean is that he often genuinely doesn’t know where responsibility ends and personhood begins.

because John blurred that boundary repeatedly.

protect Sam. watch over Sam. raise Sam. save people. hunt things. keep moving. don’t complain.

Dean’s nurturing traits become militarized.

so when he spirals into overprotectiveness later, it’s usually not:

“you belong to me.”

it’s:

“if i fail to protect you, i have failed fundamentally as a human being.”

that’s a completely different psychological framework.

and honestly? Dean’s terror is less about people leaving him voluntarily and more about people dying on his watch. abandonment hurts him deeply, obviously, but guilt is the thing that truly devours him. because guilt reinforces the conditioning:

you should’ve done better. you should’ve saved them. you should’ve carried more.

which is why he keeps overextending himself emotionally and physically until he breaks.

there’s also something deeply important about the fact that Dean never fully loses his tenderness despite everything. that’s kind of miraculous, actually. because a lot of people subjected to that kind of emotional exploitation either harden completely or stop nurturing altogether because nurturing became associated with pain.

Dean doesn’t.

he still cooks for people. still comforts people. still wraps blankets around sick shoulders. still worries. still notices tiny emotional shifts. still tries to make people laugh when they’re hurting. still loves deeply.

even after Hell. even after betrayal. even after losing basically everyone seventeen thousand times because television writers feed Winchester suffering like it’s a renewable energy source.

that softness survives.

damaged, exhausted, defensive sometimes, absolutely. but alive.

and i think that’s the core of who Dean is: not a man driven by ownership. a man whose capacity to care was weaponized against him, and who kept caring anyway.

[beansprean]

they're so stupid

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ID: 1. Waist up of Cas and Dean on a mottled background. Cas holding his trenchcoat and jacket open with one hand, the other hand glowing with grace as he treats a bloody wound on his side. Dean comes up behind him with a look of mild concern, an arm extended hesitantly behind Cas's back. He asks, "Does it hurt?" Expression bland, Cas replies, "Not at all."

2. Dean claps his hovering hand down on Cas's shoulder and grins suggestively, asking, "So no need for me to kiss it better?" Cas whips his head around with wide eyes and red cheeks, dropping the hem of his coat in shock, and blurts out "Its hurt so much. I was confused you see." The hand he was using to heal himself jerks back and reignites the stab wound for good measure. To ensure it is visibly in need of kisses. /End ID

[niceworkhuggybear]

prince x barbarian Dean getting a sunburn and now they're also animal interspecies couple

[arden-in-the-garden]

I had a dream last night that the Decemberists guy put out a new song that was him announcing the band was breaking up, but the song was also his like detailing his future career path, and it was an excruciatingly granular 13.5 minutes of him explaining to us in detail that he was going to become a world renowned marionette maker and like the steps he was going to take to complete this (step 1 was learn to spin flax to make his own cord, step 2 was learn whittling to create his own puppets, step 3 to make his own paints, etc etc. He was going for that vertical slice sort of thing) All the while someone was shouting in the background I DON'T WANNA BREAK UP and WHO'S GOING TO GET MY ACCORDION because apparently there was a custody battle happening for that?? But as it turned out the song was too much of a banger and people wouldn't let them quit and also he had like horrible arthritis in his hands that was preventing him from making the shit so they announced within the week that the band was actually back together and The Marionette Maker's Heart's Desire was like their new #1 hit

[crimsolyn]

I think the purest form of love is just wanting someone to notice life with you. "taste this. look at that. hear this song." again and again. until you can't imagine noticing life without them.