The Blue Castle Book Club: Chapters 41 & 42
"Then she thought of him inescapably. She ached for him. She wanted his arms around her—his face against hers—his whispers in her ear. She recalled all his friendly looks and quips and jests—his little compliments—his caresses."
Girl... this is the man who you're still 100% convinced does not love you and is solely motivated by pity? I'm losing my mind, and I think Valancy has already lost hers a while ago. Such a shame that Cissy had to die – I think Valancy could really use a bestie to tell her that she's being insane.
Valancy wants to remember everything, but she has forgotten something already: Barney's eyes were violet when we last gazed into them, but in Valancy's recollection, they're dark blue. Not to mention how they started out brown and will soon go black!
I think the likeliest explanation is that during his outdoor wanderings, Barney has encountered a fairy that has enchanted his eyes with a magical mood ring spell. Black is anger, but which moods might the other colours signify..?
"Redfern had not said anything of the kind, but Uncle Benjamin thought he was that sort of a fellow. Valancy knew he was. She understood that she might as well go down first as last."
Does this mean... is Uncle Benjamin, of all people, the Cupid that gives our lovers the final push they need to reach their happily ever after? Amor works in mysterious ways!
Three short points about Barney's backstory:
Valancy has regained her health, but in general, this book has not been kind to young women: Cissy's mom, Cissy herself, and Barney's mom have all died decades before their time.
The story of Barney's one friend feels more painful to me than his failed romance with Ethel Traverse. The fact he doesn't even say his name makes it feel like it still hurts him to remember. "Said a good idea was worth more to him than a friend, any time." Ouch. And for a college magazine?? Man. If you're going to betray a friend, at least make it count and squeeze a regular column in a large newspaper or something else actually worthwhile out of it!!
This book clearly exists on its own timeline where certain historical events did not take place... but maybe, in the realm of fanfiction and speculation, a scenario could exist where Barney actually disappeared into Yukon for years to evade the WWI draft.
"It’s always been a hard thing for me to tell things, Valancy—anything that went deep. And most things went deep with me."
I do believe that some of us get a bigger spoonful of the "knows how and when to put their feelings into words" kinda incredient poured into our baking mix than others while we're being made, but that's only the beginning of it – you need practice, too. With his history of bullying and false friends, it's no wonder telling things doesn't come easily to Barney. Wonder if, before Valancy, he has ever had a chance to truly open his heart to someone without it backfiring on him somehow?
Once he gets going, though, he's not too bad at it. Maybe writing all that so-purple-it-approaches-ultraviolet nature prose has taught him a thing or two about putting things into words... I'd say it's mainly the "go into the forest to buffer for an entire day" part that that he needs to work with, going forward.
And then Valancy just keeps insisting she can't believe he cares for her?? These two!! They're truly perfect for each other: one finds it hard to tell things, while the other has an even harder time understanding what she's being told. It's wild.
"Girl, you’re in the very core of my heart."
This is such a beautiful way of putting it, and I love the callback to their promise to never lie to each other – even though, momentarily, even that is not enough for Valancy! But all's well that ends well. Love wins!
Wonder who Uncle Benjamin was going to leave his fortune before deciding that actually, Valancy deserves it all?