The struggle with anxiety

I am 20 years old and I struggle with anxiety, depression, and a panic disorder. I love country and rock music:)

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[allylang8]

watching your family go through the same pain is pain in itself

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[allylang8]

Fear.

Fear binds me to the sheets

Blankets weigh heavily onto me

Refusing to release me

But I have things to do!

What if I panic?

What if I faint? 

What if I cry?

What if it’s too much?

What if I am not good enough?

What if I am irrational?

What if no one can help me?

What if I am crazy?

Fear binds me to the sheet

In which I will spend my day in defeat

Anxiety and fear are the best of friends

Will I leave my bed tomorrow? Depends.

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Empty

[allylang8]

anxiety and music!

A little bit of info.... I grew up listening to country and rock. My dad would listen to bands like Metallica, Avenged Sevenfold, Three Days Grace, etc.. and my mom + grandparents would listen to Dolly, Shania, The Oak Ridge Boys, Martina McBride, Tim McGraw, etc. When I hit around 12, I listened to bands like Black Veil Brides, Pierce the Veil, Sleeping with Sirens, Asking Alexandria, Falling in Reverse, Bring me the Horizon, etc. I was bullied so heavily for liking these bands that I just wanted to fit in. I threw away all of my band tees and by the time I was 15 I listened to only country music (I still love it) and dressed like every other basic teenage girl. When I went to college, my anxiety became horrific and I had to go live at home again. Within the past few months, I have rediscovered these bands and the love I have for rock music. It saved my life when I was a kid. I would not be here today if I did not have that outlet. Black Veil Brides is my favorite band, and I am so grateful for the friends and support I have gotten from the bvb army. So music is a go to when my anxiety gets bad. I feel like I am not alone when I listen to these bands that I grew up with!

[allylang8]

Anxiety

So I kinda made this to blog about what I experience in a day with my anxiety!:) 

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