I really want someone to love me fiercely, I'm scared yes and I love being alone but not lonely which is why I really just want someone to love me. Someone who would make me feel loved. I've been lonely for a long time and I just want to be loved . I sound desperate because a part of me is desperate.
Every single week I cycle through a different coffee shop in my town and ask the barista to make me their favorite drink in a medium. I have an entire spiel:
“All milk is fine, caffeinated and not caffinated i’m game, hot and iced both work, it can be coffee or tea or anything.”
It has yet to fail me. Every time I have tried a new drink I never would have thought to try and every one I’ve had has been amazing. The true delight I’ve seen in baristas faces pondering on what to make me and the joy they have when I like the drink always makes my day and I hope it makes theirs too. It’s the little things of kindness that can make someone’s day and I feel that it helps the world be kinder. Highly recommend doing this yourselves.
Additional update: I wrote a good review/feedback for the coffee shop and corporate really liked my review, so now everyone in the coffee shop knows my name, knows I gave the review because my order is unique, and I was given a free breakfast sandwich in appreciation.
#oh and they start making a mystery drink for me every time I walk in the door now and the baristas will argue on who gets to make the drink
#when the manager I've never seen before went 'are you (full first and last name)' and thanked me for the review I was so happy #THEY PINNED IT ON A BOARD BEHIND THEM SO I SEE IT EVERY TIME I ORDER COFFEE NOW #AAAAAAA
#they're all so sweet I'm debating on giving some of my fav baristas my number so I can ask for their dietary restrictions to make them soup
Seeing people reblog this post with tags along the lines of “humanity is good” makes me so happy man. My singular goal in life is if I manage to have a conversation with a person and they walk away at least a bit happier than before, I’ve succeeded in my life’s mission. My impact on the world might not be huge but to those around me and the few that I interact with, spreading that little bit of joy can mean do much to others and watching that joy impact others is truly amazing.
idea: scene with two characters eagerly stripping each other clearly about to bone, but they keep getting interrupted by finding carefully concealed weapons in each other’s clothing, so they keep just unholstering, revealing and unstrapping increasingly ludicrous amounts of hidden guns and knives as the clothes come off, and it’s lowkey killing the mood a little
Alternatively: it's not killing the mood at all but it's totally making both of them giggle like they're twelve and possibly get lowkey competitive in a subconscious way about who has the most to drop.
The more that I think of it the more I'm seeing the incredible intimacy of letting someone know where you keep your backup knife.
Like my god, the trust involved in letting someone undress you and learn your secrets instead of popping into the bathroom to change where they can't see and hiding all your weapons under the sink
It’s not that there’s already a bunch of weapons hidden underneath the sink that makes it awkward so much as that there’s so many weapons hidden underneath the sink that they fall out of the cabinet with the unmistakable sound of a knife-alanche, and then the other person comes in like “I can explain!” and you’re just dead-ass standing there with your own armload of weapons like “I can also explain.”
'A heart cannot truly hate that which makes it whole' is a quote so profound you would think it came from an ancient love poem but no, it's from 2008, BBC Merlin.
Anon asked me for a rec list and I've been meaning to put it together for a long-ass time so...buckle up friends this is a long one. I had to break it into two parts because Tumblr apparently has a character limit.
FOUNDATIONAL TEXTS
These are the fics that got me hooked on the pairing. I would not be in the fandom or writing fic if not for these...
Baby, I've been running - freakydeakymoonmagic
God of Nothing - machiavelli
all your stars - lordmarvoloriddle
The Foul/The Great - merrivale
contrapasso - saidcain
Ink - EclipseWing
Too old to be this young - Nadia_Castillo WIP
The Fire, Burning - freakydeakymoonmagic
Kaleidoscope - RenderedReversed
In Your Soul is Sealed a Pleasure - mosiva
CONTINUED ->
CLASSICS
Fandom classics that either cooked my brain (positive) or are comfort fics.
What Souls Are Made Of - Emeralds_and_Lilies
The Untouchable - TreacleTeacups
Retreat - Lomonaaeren
I Can't Carry This Anymore - lemonchase
A Dangerous Game - Cybrid
Dripping Fingers - May_May_0_0
draw me after you (let us run) - ToAStranger WIP
No Glory - ObsidianPen WIP
Holly & Yew - LovelyLotus WIP
(Going forward, the recs will be split into three categories: fics that set my brain on fire (adrenaline rush), my comfort fics (dopamine rush). WIPS that make my life worth living will be included in part 2. )
BRAIN FIRE PART ONE: LONGFICS
Ills of Murder - EclipseWing
tempor · al | ary - asterismal (asterisms)
Proposal Series - delightfull
the pleasure, the privilege - asterismal (asterisms)
Those Made of Lightning and Blood - A_Single_Cactus
the snake, the soul and the lovers - jjaegerbomb
vita mutatur, non tollitur - UnbotheredGoose
But I Can Break You - NeuroWriter14
Memories of a Killer - ChemFreak - Harry Potter
Entwined - purplewitch156
BRAIN FIRE PART TWO: SHORT FICS/ONE SHOTS
Undoing - wynnebat
Treason - Alissia
For Voldemort and Valour - Acnara
Valiance - kyrilu
The Tattoo - crowthing
Bend - RudeHellion
Sola Fide - crowthing
the loneliest creature in the world - be11etrist
Hungarian Dances - eldritcher
nothing left to lose - eleven_eaves
Prison Blues - exarite
Pancakes - Divida
BRAIN FIRE PART THREE: CHECK THE TAGS LOL (DDNE AND/OR SPANK BANK)
Surrender - Kushimani
you're a parasitic, psycho, filthy creature (finger-bangin' my heart) - ToAStranger
Anabiosis - dutch (itsevanffs)
Lover's Cross - frankie01
And all my mother came into mine eyes - cannibalinc
Thirst - ObsidianPen
tautological - eleven_eaves
Violent Delights - Katsitting (Nekositting)
Tom's Dick and Harry - andromaxeoftroy
From the Cradle to the Grave - Alissia
Machine Men - CRUXIFIXION
Monster Fucker - Anonymous
A Single Love - Vee (Vera_DragonMuse)
Doubt it's going to change what we are inside - Soulseeker (Laserswordtraining)
Verboten Vows - A_Single_Cactus
As the French Do - exarite
the thing lay dead - pwplicity (duplicity)
awake from a dream into a nightmare - orphan_account
Infinite - duplicity
normal schoolboy stuff - Kleina
Dream to Keep You - Soulseeker (Laserswordtraining)
Уродство - ArveyMammy
COMFORT PART ONE: LONGFICS
aurora polaris - AGlassRoseNeverFades
consumption - Laeveteinn
An Epistolary Exchange - Ramabear (RyMagnatar)
Forever, preferably - JoWithTheFlow
Nobody Special - riddlereading
At the end of every road - sassysquatch
soulstice - marvohlo
Remember When We Ruined - mosiva
COMFORT PART TWO: SHORT FICS/ONE SHOTS/SPANK BANK
Thin Skin - Iselilja
uvidimsya zavtra - TreacleTeacups
Your legs give way, you hit the ground - TheOnceandFutureQueenofTarts
Hell Is Your Son and Other Stories - wynnebat
The Emperor and the Star - wynnebat
In Bed with the Enemy - Alissia
we who walk in shadows black - Evandar
Pureblood Omega Etiquette - temptresslove
A Matter of Perspective - lemonchase
HONORABLE MENTIONS:
The first harrymort fic I ever read (saved me from dr*rry hell):
Executor - Qliphoth
My favorite fic that I have written (corny self rec):
from what I've tasted or desire - ictyn
I've read a (frankly) absurd amount of harrymort fics, scouring the ship tag from top to bottom. There are a handful that have been deleted as well as a handful that I couldn't remember enough tags to find...I love this ship and all our amazing writers and fests and artists and I'm so happy to be here FDHLKAHFKHFA.
Part Two (WIPS THAT MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING) HEREEEE
A time anomaly forces Percy back to ancient Sparta to impersonate a certain Spartan Prince to keep a war in the history books... Unfortunately, he knew next to nothing about Hyacinthus or his tragic love story.
A.K.A: Percy pretends to be Hyacinthus and staying off Apollo's radar long enough to fix things is near impossible.
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