the intricate brocade of this happiness, by waxing__crescent (rated t, hollanov, 10k)
But Ilya shakes his head, absolutely mute. There’s no universe, no universe where he can talk about this. He moved to America to forget.
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the intricate brocade of this happiness, by waxing__crescent (rated t, hollanov, 10k)
But Ilya shakes his head, absolutely mute. There’s no universe, no universe where he can talk about this. He moved to America to forget.
You With the Crack Running Through You by Kim Addonizio
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when it wasn't meant to be 🤣🤣 but the potential of possibility still plagues you 🤔
11/04/25 (📷 verstappencom)
my shanebug just shed his exoskeleton so he's really soft and vulnerable right now
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12 HR fic recs
unfair advantage | 1.6K | Ilya leans forward in his chair, deliberately, to put his mouth right next to the microphone. “Oh wow,” Ilya says brightly. His Russian accent is thicker than usual. “Drapeau must be trying so hard to seduce me. But I am sorry, I am already taken. A one man man, I am.” | Great characterisation, perfect Ilya voice. And this fic contains the best Ilya-chirps-Scott-Hunter line ever.
we could get better mileage by @twinkwolf | 6.9K | "Have you ever gotten someone pregnant?" | This fic discusses abortion and there's a pretty graphic description, FYI. If you can stomach this, it's such a fantastic story. A great exploration of Shane and his feelings towards the idea of parenthood. And a lovely portrayal of Shane and Jackie's friendship, which is something I'm a sucker for. It also features some smoking hot sex scene and also a really believable, grown-up version of Ilya and Shane. Highly recommended.
A Friend of the Family by @twicesonnet| 11.9K | Two months after Jackie lets the backyard fire pit fall over and just stands there letting it burn, Hayden has a boys trip. Arrangements are made. Enter: Svetlana Vetrova, daughter of the famous Soviet goaltender, and Ilya Rosanov’s best friend.| This is the best Jackie character study I've seen so far. Jackie here is a real person, much more than the magical being who does emotional labour for Hayden in most stories. And I love how open-ended this is.
I know that I feel it, but I don't know the name | 12K | David Hollander gets in a car accident while Shane and Yuna are travelling. Ilya, newly traded to Ottawa, is the only one available. He handles it pretty well. Until he doesn't.| David is in an accident. Ilya in this one almost broke me. It gave me all the feels.
Image Management by @409-conflict and ritualist| 9K | During his rookie year, Shane goes to a Halloween party at a Montreal gay bar to confirm some suspicions about himself. Unfortunately, it’s 2010, so the official photographer uploads a few hundred photos to the bar’s Facebook page.| Great use of socmed. And I just love how 409_conflict writes Yuna. Also, this is possibly the only time I've ever felt something resembling a positive feeling towards Grigori Rozanov? The power of transformative works!
tender by @barkerandlovelace| 18.3K | Ilya had dismissed the feeling out of hand, except he has now just spent half an hour in the bicycle shop considering the difference between 190 gsm and 250 gsm merino wool and which would best keep Shane warm while wicking sweat during his morning commutes. This is yet another thing Ilya has never done before. The only person whose sweat he has ever contemplated the wicking of has been himself.| Amazing full AU. AMAZING. Ilya is still a hockey player. Shane has a government job. They meet after Ilya retires. The perfect mix of fluffy/funny/tender with stellar characterisation.Imo, it's on a par with the AUs by magmeticwave and Vera Dragon, I can't think of any higher praise than this.
think twice (and come back for a third time) | 70k | Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost. A stranger, and the love of his life.| Canon divergence. Ilya and Shane breakup and never get back together. Very angsty. Well-written, good characterisation. Lovely Yuna/Ilya.
big things happen every time we meet BY @trippedlaces| 14.5k | Halfway through Shane and Ilya’s first season playing together in Ottawa, an online sports betting company figures out how to make itself the main character when it comes to social media’s new favorite topic.| Extremely funny, good use of socmed. Great characterisation too, especially Shane, who comes off as suitably hockey-obsessed. :D
too busy making my own waves by @themardia| 4.4K | In Hayden’s defense, JJ’s new habit of dropping chirps that sound like they’ve come straight out of Shakespeare just seems like another round of JJ being his usual weird, over the top self. And hey, if he wants to call the opposing team a bunch of “malicious gnomes” or “mud-licking wretches”, he can have at it. (After Scott Hunter coming out last season, everyone's making some adjustments.)| A much kinder look at JJ than canon, and it totally works. Love him and Hayden trying to be better human beings because they love Shane.
Untouchable Face by @zenaidamacrouras1 | 76k | Shane was twelve when hockey scouts started showing up to his games. He was barely fifteen when a check went horribly wrong, fucked his knee to hell and gave him a grade III concussion. During rehab he found swimming, and he was seventeen when he went to the Olympics as an alternate for freestyle swim events. He’s 24 and working for his mom’s sports PR company when he meets Ilya Fucking Rozanov. May contain: Shane Hollander navigating what it means to be mostly normal when your whole childhood was about preparing you for greatness. Shane Hollander attempting to flirt. Possibly less than 100% accurate descriptions of what a sports PR agent does.| I'm extremely picky about AUs where Shane is not a hockey player but this one totally worked for me. Extremely cute.
the intricate brocade of this happiness by @always-waxing-crescent| 10K | But Ilya shakes his head, absolutely mute. There’s no universe, no universe where he can talk about this. He moved to America to forget. | A brutal look at Ilya's childhood and the new phase of his life after the Cottage. Yuna isn't immediately enamoured with him and I love this characterisation. Interesting exploration of his relationship with Alexei too.
the suicidal duckling | 9.7K | Ilya had thought it was dumb, when Galina suggested it. A code word for when his mental health was bad—he and Shane didn’t even have a code word for sex, and Ilya was regularly tying Shane to the bed and slapping his ass until it was as red as a tomato. “Is there a reason you’re calling me?” Shane asks now, voice echoey over the phone. “Or is this part of your strategy to win our argument?” Ilya swallows hard. “Constantinople,” he says.| I love it when fic show Ilya and Shane fighting, in a believable way. As someone who's been in a relationship with the same person for 20 years, sometimes I like some reality in my romantic escapism. I also like it when fic focuses on Ilya's depression. This story has both and they're both excellent!
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Heated Rivalry | 1.02
i just remembered alexei rubbing his nose the same way ilya does oh god oh my god. and this happened on my laptop screen.
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i was tagged by the brilliant and kind @tiredeg to share some of my reads of the year so far!!!! my favorite question to be asked you can always ask me about BOOKS!!!!!!!!
i have read 23 books this year so far--two books behind schedule for 50 LOL. i am in a "summer of classics" bookclub with 2 dear irl pals that has been packing my schedule up nicely, along with reading for my degree :] there have been some AMAZING reads!! please excuse how pretentious these picks are #snob. these are the top 3 so far
Beloved by Toni Morrison - i finished reading this TODAY and oh my fucking ..,,, god oh my fucking god. i had heard people say over and over that this will be one of the best books you've ever read. lo and behold this is one of the best books i've ever read. i have absolutely no idea where to start. the story is so searing, so stark, so powerful, it feels like a parable, or a biblical story. you learn about slavery, you read your history textbook, you read the numbers, but you can get no real grip on what life was like. this book is a sliver of a peek into that life. a life that feels so foreign, so hideous all you want to do is look away but morrison doesn't let you. she presents these events plainly, doesn't disguise their ugliness and their rancor, and she forces you to confront it. her language is unbelievable, she cuts to the heart of every scene. some of the paragraphs in here were the best paragraphs i have ever read in my life. the initial description of baby suggs in the clearing is i think is the most i've ever been affected by a book in my life. i was genuinely about to dry-heave, not from disgust (it wasn't a "sad" or "scary" moment) but just from ... emotion .. fuck. fuck just go read it!!
Passing by Nella Larsen - a 90 page wonder. i initially disliked this book!! my nose was upturned for the first quarter,,,,...... and the more i read, the more i thought, the more discussions we had in class, the more critical analysis i read, the more thinking i did for my own essay did i realize holy shit, this is one of the most rich, textured, difficult books i've ever read. the prose is, at times, clumsy. its unassuming. but the underlying idea creeps in and grips you. set in the american east coast during the "race riots" & one-drop rule of the 1920s. it follows these two Black women who can pass as white--one does occasionally, when convenient, and the other lives her entire life as a white woman. the stability of racial identity is pushed, stretched, complicated. the relationship between the two woman heaves back and forth, never easy to categorize, always fascinating. there is a scene that made me GASP! and the ending is suuuuper thematically interesting and also a bit cliche LOL. this novel is imperfect and powerful.
Persuasion by Jane Austen - everytime i think about this novel i heave a looooooooong sigh like a dog. ohhhh man. austen's prose is tight, lyrical, rhythmic, and full to the brim with character and vigor. anne is devastatingly funny and deeply, deeply compelling. the story is intimate and breathless. the romance searing. single lines would fling me out of my seat and slam me against the walls. tiny, fleeting moments between anne and wentworth were so tense, they probably forced me to develop new muscle tissue around my heart. though ostensibly a romance with a happy ending, the novel holds a mature and grounded tone that at times reads very serious. years of time are marked with loneliness and regret. hope, though subdued and leashed, sneaks through the cracks of these small moments and grows and grows, takes up space, until you can't ignore its beating blinding heart. such a treat of a novel! an amazing way to start my austen journey:)
overall my summer has been magical with reading!!!! next on the list is "the road" by cormac mccarthy, "trumpet" by jackie kay, "voyage in the dark" by jean rhys (already halfway through this one!!). for my book club, we're tackling lolita, east of eden (i'm rereading it-- should i hit grapes of wrath while i'm at it?), the secret history, kafka on the shore, and giovanni's room. i am taking perennial recs for books from non-western countries for my around-the-world challenge. and rec me a classic i shouldn't skip! #can't stop won't stop. okay i'm cutting myself off i could talk forever!!!! yay hehe
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shane toooootally the kind of guy to go “we werent rich we were comfortable 😐”
perhaps ser hollander and ser rozanov do not compete so fiercely in the tourney to vie for the princess’s affections but because they desire one another? nay i jest…….. lest?