Fox at heart

+ Jessie + My Foxhole court blog +

[benevolenterrancy]

their friendship means so much to me

[viiiiiliiiii]

let’s not forget that Matt was one of Neil’s main sources of support when the responsibility for the team fell on him. so when Neil felt like he just needed to switch his mind off, he’d go to Matt’s room. Matt would always invite him in, suggesting they watch a movie or just talk about their day, while Neil simply listened, lying beside him with his forehead resting against Matt’s shoulder, until he eventually drifted into a short nap.

[vy0nep]

ugh, i'm so jelly! but they're hella CUTIEEEE T^T

[little2nerdy]

kevin “throuples just kind of happen to me” day

[logeeka23]

[fireheartwraith]

Kevin and Andrew going to see Jean and finding out Neil had also been there:

[hypnostouched]

Overwhelmed thinking about Kevin Day again

He can acknowledge objectively that what he went through was abuse and trauma but he refused to feel it, refuses to acknowledge it on an emotional level, refuses to dwell on the pain. Keeps moving forward because thats all he knows, because exy is all he has, because he almost lost it once and now he clings to it with all that he has

He had to leave Jean behind, was eaten alive by guilt about it, and the only time he reached out to him was to lean on him emotionally. He lets Andrew and Neil redirect and calm him with affection that mixes with violence. He's a deeply selfish man who can only seek comfort when he's at the absolute bottom. He's desperate for so much he won't ask for

Kevin who gave Jean to the perfect team to help heal him as a person instead of as a player, but who is still shocked when he finds out Jean can cook and enjoys it. Kevin who gave himself to another violent, volitile team (consider how often Jean believes the Trojans will hurt him, and now consider how often Kevin does get hurt by the foxes), who makes such a point of being unlikeable. Driving away the connections that he doesnt know how to make. Kevin who's real smiles are rare enough to note.

Im so scared for him moving forward, for the day he cant outrun his own trauma, for the day everything breaks on his back

[benevolenterrancy]

@shakeskp life is hard when you're bff is over six feet tall and takes up more than his share of the couch 😞

[benevolenterrancy]

@jtl-fics the big ol' blue eyes are lethal

[herondaleoffspring]

matt: has anyone ever in any point of your life told you they love you?

neil: does family count?

matt: yes

neil: then no

[showmeyourfoxhole]

Cat and Laila buying this for Jean.

[chicach3rryc0la]

I'm obsessed with them

[hopefulrunaways]

So, uuuuh, my friend got me to read this series and fucked me over

[llstarcasterll]

Can I get a little noise for a Dan and Matt supremacy 🎉

[clementinecloudz]

Mm. RIP Neil Josten you would have LOVED aware mode on modern day headphones.

[queer-book-character-tournament]

Queer Book Character Tournament Semi Finals

Adam Parrish- The Raven Cycle

Neil Josten- All for the Game

Voting ended onMay 16

Character, book, and author names under the cut

Adam Parrish- The Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater 

Neil Josten- All for the Game by Nora Sakavic

[jordiipordii]

Jean before he met Nathaniel: I want my promised partner. Every day I lose a little more hope but I will still retain a small part just in case he ever comes, even though I doubt he will

Jean after meeting Neil and spending exactly 3.10 secs w him, seeing how he ragebaits and runs his mouth and is a true and proper menace to society: I’d like to make a return.

[moviesbooksandfandoms]

I just KNOW when Wymack finds out Andrew and Neil WEREN'T together before Andrew got sent away, he's going to have a crisis

Just like "man, I thought that weird intense thing they had going on was them hooking-up, and honestly, the fact that they weren't together when Neil stuck Andrew's hands up his shirt as a goodbye is even weirder"