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N. | they/them | 29 y/o straight As: aroace, agender, autism, asthma, anxiety

[alwaysmadeatmidnights]

Since this blog has always been and will always be a multifandom chaos, here's the reminder that no matter which of my obsessions I'm hyperfixating on, they will be tagged.

If you don't want to see certain posts, you can just block the tags #fandom: 1d for One Direction related content, #fandom: ts for Taylor Swift content and #fanfic or #whump for anything related to medwhump fics. In theory, also #fandom: dw exists for Doctor Who, but right now, all you will see is either 1D, Taylor Swift or medical drama tv show related.

[notlayingroses]

in my opinion, the question isn't "Is RPF ethical?" but rather "Are you engaging with RPF ethically?" and even more importantly, "Are you being stupid about it?"

I personally hate any kind morality thought policing. I'm not Catholic or religious and I do not feel guilty over my thoughts. You are not an inherently evil person because you saw two athletes in an interview and went "Hmmm...... what if...." The Feds are not going to come banging down your door because you wrote about one band member dicking down the other and sent it to your friend.

Wondering about other people's lives is very human. Being nosy about their personal lives is very normal. People have been writing fiction about other people's lives since the dawn of time. Some people even manage to write New York Times Bestselling Books that are "historical fiction" or "alternate reality." It does not make you inherently bad to be curious about the details of someone's personal life. That's being human. Being nosy is kind of fun.

The problem, however, comes with the ways in which people engage with it, and involve the real people in this. Harassing an musician's real girlfriend because it doesn't fit into the RPF ship. Showing up at real sporting events holding signs about how certain teammates should kiss. Trying to get actors to sign art of them fucking their coworker. Flooding social media with comments using the celebrity's full name and speculation. There's a line, there's a fourth wall, and there's fandom etiquette.

I hate the question of "Is RPF ethical" because it feels like morality thought policing. Post your fics on locked accounts, censor someone's name when you tweet about it, blow up your groupchat with hundreds of "DID YOU SEE THE WAY THEY LOOKED AT EACH OTHER??" texts. It's not inherently evil to wonder what other people are doing when they're out of the spotlight. Kill the cop in your mind.

But just have some basic decency and do not involve the real people. Don't cross the line without caring how it affects them. This is basic fandom 101 and lately we have been flying too close to the damn sun! Everyone get more normal about RPF so major news outlets and magazines stop posting articles about "Is RPF ethical?" and blowing up our spot!

[dennisabbot-robinavitch]

My hbo knows what it’s doing

[alwaysmadeatmidnights]

never turn your back

by me (alwaysmadeatmidnights)

Who knew that such a mundane activity as John helping Deb get supplies from the storage room could end up in an ethical dilemma for the ER doctors?

OR: John has severe back pain, but one cannot simply give drugs to a recovering addict, even (or especially) if he asks for them.

Written for @badthingshappenbingo. Prompt: Cramping.

Words: 1,418, Chapters: 1/1, Language: Englisch

Series: Bad Things Happen Bingo (Midnights Edition)

Fandom: ER (TV 1994)

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Gen

Relationship: -

Characters: John Carter, Jing-Mei Chen, Abby Lockhart

Additional Tags: Past Drug Use, Past Drug Addiction, Recovery, Hurt John Carter, Back Pain

Read on AO3 here.

[benjeklaar]

anyways i hope this whole fiasco made y’all understand the importance of a reblog. please don’t just forget about how much gifmakers/artists/writers/etc appreciate your reblog again when this has all cooled down.

[floralprintharry]

..you were never on your own.

[vendetta-saxon]

Does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes or whatever One Direction said

[talyn-gray]

me, a fool: I'll watch one more episode of ER before I go to bed

the episode of ER: EVERYONE HAS BEEN SHOT, LUKA CANNOT BREATHE, SAM HAS BEEN KIDNAPPED YOU'RE ALL GONNA DIE

[backonmybullsht]

Adorable moments between Noah Wyle and Eriq La Salle

Best bromance on and off screen 💖👯‍♂️

TikTok

[braverytattoos]

Harry the diva

[noahwhyle]

NOAH WYLE as DR. JOHN CARTER in ER (1994-2009) | SEASON 9 (2002-2003)

#for science #can he bite my lip next?

[xosiren]

Harry Styles Joins Brittany Broski's Royal Court

[alaraxia]

I get my media recommendations the old fashioned way: by watching someone I follow on here go on an unhinged reblog spree of media related content until I eventually decide to go "alright, what's all this then"

[alwaysmadeatmidnights]

inherited echo

by me (alwaysmadeatmidnights)

In school, everyone knew Nick Cooper had asthma. Unfortunately, every school, from elementary to medical, had bullies. So when Coop finally transfers to Chicago in the second year of his residency, he decides nobody should know this time, and tries to hide his medical condition. Unsurprisingly, this is a bad idea, especially in an ER full of asthma triggers. But much to Coop's surprise, there's an unlikely ally to him at County General.

OR: Coop struggles with internalised ableism.

Written for @badthingshappenbingo. Prompt: Internalised Prejudice.

Words: 4,166, Chapters: 1/1, Language: Englisch

Series: Bad Things Happen Bingo (Midnights Edition)

Fandom: ER (TV 1994)

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Gen

Relationship: -

Characters: Nick Cooper (ER TV 1994), Archie Morris, Robert Romano, Abby Lockhart, Neela Rasgotra, Susan Lewis (ER TV 1994), Kerry Weaver, Greg Pratt

Additional Tags: Asthma, Severe Asthma Attack, Bullying, Internalised Ableism, Internalised Prejudice, Flashbacks

Read on AO3 here.

[userautumn]

some of you are not cis and the thing is that you don't even have to do anything about it. you can just be like "damn that's crazy" and move on with your life. you don't have to change your name. you don't have to change your pronouns. you don't have to choose which flavor of not-cis you are. you don't have to change your wardrobe. you don't have to come out or cut your hair or reinvent yourself. you can just be like "huh neato!" and let that be that. you don't owe anyone a performance of your queerness. not even other queer people. ok that's all thank you and goodbye

[fairycosmos]

girl help i'm turning 30 in a few days and i've done fuck all with my life

fuck all is a classic 30 year old thing to do. youre right on track

[multi-fandom-lunatic]

chat reminder to just write whatever the fuck you want. write that overused trope. write that obscure shit that no one will have heard of. just. do it. your writing is yours stop depriving it of that.

[sadboybrigade]

honestly in the era of AI slop it is more important than ever for you to write or draw that incredibly niche/strange/unpalatable thing you want to make. the world needs the unique weirdness of people more than ever