OhDearest

she/her + bi angel - forever a daughter of Cain - just gonna be posting my random thoughts abt movies, music, fashion and daily life

[saudadebunny]

[alwaysmoonriver]

I have so many of these

[alwaysmoonriver]

Among the latest things I’ve been distressed over, today a boy ik at school was wearing a Lamine Yamal jersey and I wanted so badly to say I liked it but also I feel like that boy would think I’m a poser or that I only watched the World Cup bc the players were attractive or something 😭

[alwaysmoonriver]

Also I finally got bikini tan lines when I was in Alabama last week but they’ve faded again except for like the middle of my chest 😭

[alwaysmoonriver]

I’ve just started using bronzer and I already know damn well imma develop bronzer blindness

[alwaysmoonriver]

Why is my favorite girl’s name also the name of a Colleen Hoover novel 🤮🤮🤮 get me out of this hellllll

[alwaysmoonriver]

My deep connection to Rose by Ole 60 says more about me than I’d like

[alwaysmoonriver]

I think tumblr has fundamentally forgotten Halsey and it makes me sad - I wish I had tumblr back when everyone was obsessed w Halsey - hmu if u like Halsey pls I can’t find anyone else who does out in the wild anymore

[headedmothercain]

bitches be like "i'm fine" and then play waco, texas by ethel cain (the bitches ain't fine in fact call the therapist)

[alwaysmoonriver]

Oh lord this is so me - song’s too damn relatable w my ex - dw y’all I am in therapy tho

[kermit4president-of-the-swamp]

Are you angry? Do you hate me?

[alwaysmoonriver]

Reaching 25 reblogs has made my day y’all - not even kidding I’m on my period so I’m like a mess - it’s rlly the small things - hehe reblog me more pls - I need the morale boost

[alwaysmoonriver]

Was it casual when I told you about my grandfather cheating on my grandmother after they’d been together since they were teens (bc he got tired of her and hadn’t dated anyone else) and you said you’d count yourself very lucky to spend your whole life w me?

[tearstaineddangel]

in a world full of lana del rays be an ethel cain

[alwaysmoonriver]

I feel like we should all be talking more about the juxtaposition in “I’m gonna die all alone next to you” from Head in the Wall by Ethel Cain - it emotionally wrecks me every time I hear it - the absolute artistry oml

[hereliesethelcain]

You know, as much as we talk about Ethel being an unreliable narrator, I think she has a degree of self awareness that most people miss. In Nettles, she laments to Willoughby that “you’ll go fight a war, I’ll go missing”. She obviously has some sort of subconscious knowledge about the unfortunate truth of the circumstances she and Willoughby are in. And in Sun Bleached Flies she says, “I always knew no one was coming to save me”. Family Tree Intro, which is sort of an intro to the Ethel Cain lore entirely, is solely about Ethel’s awareness of the dire nature of her existence. I think that Ethel is aware of what is happening to her because she grew up seeing rural America destroying lives all around her - that’s the entirety of American Teenager. And in that same song, she reassures herself that she’s “all good out here”, while also admitting that she grew up believing in goodness and hope even though everybody in Shady Grove was living out tragedy (like the loveless life of Holly, for example, or the “neighbor’s brother” who died at war, or even Willoughby who is abused by his father).

Ethel isn’t naive, she’s incredibly mature and smart. Most people in her community are numb to the motions of life and go through all the hurt, but Ethel knows that if she doesn’t escape middle America, she’s going to be stuck there living out the same life as her peers. And that’s the tragedy of the Ethel Cain story. A girl who knew she needed to get out, but she was doomed from birth.

[alwaysmoonriver]

The way I crave ramen so much while on my period needs to studied

[alwaysmoonriver]

Y’all I need some obscure love songs recommendations! I’m thinking like slower alternative or country or southern rock or folky for the genres I like - the thing is they need to be actual good vibes pure love songs like not the sad ones I keep finding 😭

[royaldoll444]

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