A log from a discord that explains what's been going on with me the last few months...
Alynna (Anu Danaan) 🧚♀ 🦊 👑 の Menagerie — Today at 00:29:36
I think I need to speak.
and don't worry this has nothing to do with Kuzunoha, she continues to be what she is.
So something has been going on with me the last few .. months. A few months back I went to this thing called ShifterCon.
there I learned about selkies. After I assessed the information I learned about them, I felt "selkie" fit me more than the merfox form I usually used when it was time to interact with the water spirits.
Doing that connected me to more things than I thought.
For a few years the Fae in my backyard have been calling me Anu.
I didn't know why and I kind of ran with that because, well, they aren't using my name, this is good, right?
Well after the selkie thing, something broke open with my identity and spirits were notably doing the Anu thing more often.
Well about a week ago, Cernunnos comes around..
Alynna (Anu Danaan) 🧚♀ 🦊 👑 の Menagerie — Today at 00:37:13
I'm familiar with his presence, he's been a long time patron of the coven that used to be here.
We start talking about the circle and how i've like claimed it and how I have left an open welcome for the fae and feed the animals back there and care for it… and don't let the energy that 13 years was drawn, go.
Well talking turned to flirting.
And flirting went to…
I think you know where this is going.
And like once he is done.. satisfying us… he's like "You know Alynna is derived from the name Anu, right? And I'm like, nope, but I can see it, I guess?"
And he's like "you know why the Fae call you that? Nope, not really, its their nickname for me…"
Then he's like, "And you know what they expect from you, calling you that?" And now i'm like, "Umm, what?"
"They expect you to wake up."
That was the end of that conversation… but its been a few days. I had purchased an Xerneas plushie because Xerneas is based directly on Cernunnos and I wanted a representation of him in my bed if we're going to be partnered…
Alynna (Anu Danaan) 🧚♀ 🦊 👑 の Menagerie — Today at 00:44:19
And while I was unwrapping and then prepping and eventually consecrating my plush of Him… he is like "you are going to feel me more and more over time, as we attune to each other. You're not going to need this.."
And I am like, "I still want a plush of you here, to hold and cuddle at night," This is something that makes him blush and he's all like, "well when you do that, I will be there." But then he like, changes the subject to, "But you will experience me, as you experience Nature."
And I'm wondering what this is supposed to mean, and he expounds on this saying, "Because you are an incarna, Anu. You came from Nature to experience Nature."
And while I'm processing all this surreal shit … and processing what he said means, I am like, "Why did I have to become mortal to do this? Why couldn't I have done this as my actual Fae self?" And He says, "because you cannot experience Nature when you are Nature. Because you're experiencing yourself."
Akira (🦊,🐺2,🐱,🐲+) — Today at 01:04:44
oh? Well, congrats! Normally that sort of thing would be in channeling_channel, I think? but honestly that much progress so quick is worth celebrating ^^
Alynna (Anu Danaan) 🧚♀ 🦊 👑 の Menagerie — Today at 01:06:17
I wouldn't say it was "quick"
in fact i'd say it took 48 years for my mind to crack open on being Anu (or Danu if you want to use that form) and its literally because the realization that i've been a selkie before and its important to learn that all lives you live are important was a key to me being ready to be me.
I am Alynna, incarna of Anu Danaan and I come from Nature to experience Nature.
I will continue to experience the form of any creature or animal or being that perks my faerie… curiousity… because it is my purpose and desire. To know what it is like, to be them.
But I will still main Fae Fox. Because this feels the most like Me.
Alynna (Anu Danaan) 🧚♀ 🦊 👑 の Menagerie — Today at 01:14:51
I am Fae enough to become them, but just mortal enough to be them.