just another face in the crowd

nothing spectacular, but pieces of me are sprinkled here

[letting-go-is-freedom]

I hate being in that mood where nothing’s really wrong but nothing feels right either

[alyssalhyn]

‪You've been pushed and pulled so many times you don't know which way to go. But darling you don't have to go any way but to your heart. ‬ -Tales of the Heart by Alyssa Lhyn Welch

[alyssalhyn]

There’s a universe inside of me. Things forming and growing. Flourishing and thriving. But there’s also things dying and decaying. It’s beautiful. And sometimes Sometimes it hurts to be me.

-Apologies I’ve Never Said by Alyssa Lhyn Welch

[wordsnquotes]

Isn’t it strange that we talk least about the things we think about most?

Charles Lindbergh (via wordsnquotes)

[alyssalhyn]

I don't think I want to be here anymore.

[alyssalhyn]

But I keep on going. Just as I always have.

[alyssalhyn]

Nobody knows my true feelings. I hide them too well.

[alyssalhyn]

I act like I'm okay but I never really am.

[alyssalhyn]

How do you fix the kind of sad that's settled deep into your soul?

[alyssalhyn]

I am sad on the inside.

[alyssalhyn]

You'll never know...

There are so many ends to that beginning. You'll never know...how much I care. You'll never know...that I love you. You'll never know...how much I hurt. You'll never know...me.

[alyssalhyn]

Lies can be told with a few well placed truths.

[alyssalhyn]

Things I've never said aloud.

I’m dying on the inside but no one will ever know.

I want to die. But I’m not strong enough to.

I pray that God will take me away.

I’m struggling.

I pray for a tragedy to finally get people to notice me. I am sick.

I feel worthless.

I’m not worthy of this life and I will fail.

You’re pretty. And you’re skinny. No you’re not. You’re ugly. And you’re fat.

I’m pitiful. Don’t pity yourself, Alyssa. People are struggling worse than you ever have.

I deserve this.

Everyone leaves.

I feel like an outsider.

I am not happy.

I want to be happy but I don’t know how.

I’ve become everything I hate.

I hate myself.

I’ll never be loved the way to want to be.

If it weren’t for my family I don’t think I’d be here.

Is this what depression feels like? Maybe I’m depressed.

You just want attention, Alyssa.

But maybe one day this will all change and I’ll do something good, be something good, finally be happy. This small hope keeps me breathing. Maybe I’m a glutton for punishment for it or maybe I’m curious or maybe I do it for my family or maybe I do it for my future self. Whatever the case I’m still here, still struggling through it all.

[wnq-writers]

She was reckless in her love, for she loved everything and everyone. But sometimes, that love wasn’t returned, and she hurt far more than she ever let on.

tumultuous-soul (via wnq-writers)

She loved until she felt dead inside.

-Alyssa Lhyn Welch

[alyssalhyn]

-She Holds The World In Her Hands Series, Excerpts One-Three

Christmas note edition. Sorry for the bad handwriting.

[alyssalhyn]

I don't want to spend my life waiting for love to find me. I want to go out into the world and fall in love with what it is and who I am.

[alyssalhyn]

I notice so much about other people, yet no one notices a damn about thing about me.