Fighting My Fears One Day At A Time

Writer. Tv watcher. Hopeless romantic. Disney lover. Alpha male lover. Avid reader.

[amandarayyy]

I’m sorry….so Henry decides to fucking stay and be in his son’s life and then gets fucking murdered!!!!!!! I’m crying. I hate the writers right now. Like fuck you dude.

[amandarayyy]

To all the other oldest daughters/first borns out there ca you tell me how you’re surviving? Like I’m at the point where I want to cut everyone off, stop paying for everything, stop taking care of everyone and just leave to see how they survive. But because I’m the oldest/first born there’s that stupid fucking thing inside me that screams at me “nope. Can’t do that. Even if you’re extremely unhappy you still have to take care of everyone and do what they say and not take care of yourself or do what you want.” Whys it always about everyone else? How/when did you figure out how to turn that shit off and be brave enough to walk away?

[audreyrosepromise28]

Sometimes I'll feel really overwhelmed because emotions are so hard and then I remember that my whole life I was taught to fix others problems and the second anyone was upset it was my responsibility I was never taught how to actually emotionally regulate or like sit with my own emotions I was never told that those emotions are okay I was always told that everyone else is emotions were my responsibility but I wasn't supposed to have any

[dawnpoured]

[amandarayyy]

Guys! I got to season 2 episode 17 of the flash so far and Barry getting the video of Eddie saying goodbye to iris melts my heart. But I’m so confused bc he wasn’t supposed to change things to change the future but now they know he’s from the future and he already changed a few things so now I’m like gahhhhhh

[amandarayyy]

Guys I got to season 2 of the flash and I’m really annoyed with how season 1 ended and the first episode of season 2. Like why did they think that was a good storyline?

[amandarayyy]

Why does the flash have me crying!!! Joe and Barry always have the sweetest moments but s1 ep23 has me sobbing right now.

[amandarayyy]

The amount of shows I’ve restarted and still haven’t finished is embarrassing hahaha so here’s me writing it down to try to hold myself accountable so I can actually finish them.

1. The following (got up to season 3 but haven’t finished)

2. Supernatural (still on season 1)

3. Legacies ( I think I got halfway through season 3 and then wanted to rewatch the originals when the mentioned someone’s name but then decided to rewatch vd from the beginning)

4. The vampire diaries (got up to halfway through season 3 are we seeing a pattern here?)

5. Charmed (the original of course!!!! Season 1)

6. The flash (almost done with season 1)

7. Agents of shield (season 2)

I think that’s all of them so far….if anyone has any other shows that are similar gimme some ideas! A lot of shows I used to watch I had stopped and never found out how they ended thus the rewatches. Others (like charmed for example) I just love so much I like to rewatch every few years to catch things I’ve missed in the past.

I plan on adding:

Arrow

What I like about you

Friends

[amandarayyy]

Not me watching season 18 episode 8 and fucking balling at Tara’s “dream” and her saying “I don’t want this. I don’t want to die by myself” Maam I’m already in pain from my fibromyalgia flare up and then you have to do this to me?!?!?’! Like why?!

[amandarayyy]

Amazon.com

Today I was told to be proud of my accomplishments and boost myself up every now and again. So here I am doing just that. I wrote some books!!!! If you love romance and wanna give them a read I’d be so grateful ❤️

[amandarayyy]

But like…what if I just started posting everything my mother says to me or texts me….would other people recognize the shit she puts me through or call me out for not “sticking up for myself” hmmmm

[hollowboobtheory]

this is gonna sound really bitchy but some people really need to learn to realize when someone isn't talking to them. if you don't like beans then the lady posting a bean soup recipe isn't fucking talking to you. if you dont like reading then the people who post about the books they're reading aren't fucking talking to you.

I wanna start saying "not you, rabbit ears" bc that's what my dad always said growing up but idk if the tone will come across.

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

+Bonus

[wetheurban]

How lucky we are to experience boring, ordinary, uneventful days. Somewhere in the world, that kind of safety is unimaginable.

[amandarayyy]

I’ve gotten more love, affection, words of affirmation, praise and just overall kindness from people on the internet than I have from my family my entire life and some of y’all are MEAN so what do you think that says? Hmmm

[morphogenetic]

(wanting to make a post about something but it reveals too much about your personal life) i have had a negative experience

[lustloveandliars-deactivated202]

You deserve love now. Not once you lose weight. Not once you accomplish that thing. Not once you move. Not once you get on medication. Not once you start therapy. Not once you get that job. Not once you're more like them. Now. You don't have to earn the right to be loved. You deserve it right now, and always have.