#toxic traits

[ovilusphoninghome]

My toxic trait is thinking Dick Grayson is really cool then getting rlly upset that not everyone thinks Dick Grayson is rlly cool

[oohsosneaky]

So much of ASPD and psychopathy is not "fun".

I see much less of this than I thought I would in Tumblr ASPD spaces, but...

Physical boredom. It does not feel like you're bored mentally, it feels like your entire fucking being is boredom. It's understimulation to an extreme, and comes from lack of emotional substance in day-to-day life. Ever since I was a child, everything about interaction with the world was hooked onto the material and the physical.

Emotions that don't feel like they matter. We do feel emotions in spikes at points, but they fade very quick. This impairs emotional memory, too. Fucks up reflection. Good things feel like they last shorter. Oftentimes when a good thing ends, it feels like it sucks extra hard because it's so abrupt.

Inconsistency. The fact that emotional involvement is so fleeting often has us jumping into commitments because we feel like surely this time we're gonna engage long-term. And then it's gone. And we seem like liars, like we lied about how we care, or how much something interests us.

Irritation, so much irritation. When I'm "flatlining" it could very well be because of ambient anger. And when people approach me with anything, I just feel annoyed, further. I feel zero interest in them. I just want to do my thing and I'm irritated that I'm getting so little emotional feedback from literally anything I'm doing. This compounds irritation into a loop. And we stay in the loop of dissatisfaction. Of "eh". The understimulation + irritation feels like they should cancel out, but they do not.

Sleep problems. We're already understimulated so much, that going to sleep feels like we're committing to even less stimulation. So we stay up. Sometimes we're just not sleepy for seemingly a dozen hours past sleep time. Who knows what the fuck that is.

Trouble reacting to our own emotional/sensory cues. Sometimes this is the reason why we're not going to bed. We're tired but we ignore it for some reason. Some of us, including myself, will just hold piss for like 2 hours straight. Some of us ignore cold, hunger, pain, numbness in limbs that fell asleep from us sitting in the same position for hours.

Financial irresponsibility. We're not very risk-averse. We spend money on things that give us stimulation, some kind of distraction from the noisy void of engagement we live in. This causes us to blow through our savings quick. Not everyone, but me for sure.

Substance abuse. Over 80% of people with ASPD have substance abuse issues. I imagine it's stimulation-driven, and also an attempt to find external self-regulation. I heavily, heavily abused meth, heroin and ketamine intravenously prior to my psychosis. But mostly meth.

Externally intense. Internally boring.

[internet-goblin]

My toxic trait is being fully convinced that, provided the right tools and supplies, I could easily fix a tooth cavity, something I have not been trained to do nor ever researched it.

[f1nleystarz]

ALTERHUMANS I AM SUMMONING YOU

let's start a chain

everyone reblog with your alterhuman toxic trait

mine is that I forget that I'm not actually the size of a cat, which usually ends up with me stuck in a box

[unhealthyy]

need an older man who’s making me loose weight toxically sorry not sorry

[theambitiouswoman]

Types of relationships that look like love but are not:

Infatuation: This is an intense emotional or sexual attraction to someone that can give the illusion of love. However, infatuation is often based on idealized perceptions rather than a deep emotional connection.

Codependency: Codependent relationships involve one person excessively relying on another for emotional or physical needs. This dependency can mimic love, but it is rooted in the need for validation, control, or a sense of purpose.

Unrequited love: This refers to a situation where one person has romantic feelings for another, but those feelings are not reciprocated. It may involve one-sided affection, longing, or an obsession with someone who does not feel the same way.

Limerence: Limerence is an intense and obsessive form of attraction characterized by intrusive thoughts, longing for reciprocation, and an idealized image of the other person. It can feel like love, but it often lacks a genuine emotional connection.

Conditional love: In relationships based on conditional love, affection and care are only given when certain conditions or expectations are met. This type of relationship lacks unconditional acceptance and can be manipulative or controlling.

Trauma bond: A trauma bond forms when two individuals share intense emotional experiences, often negative or abusive. Despite the harmful dynamics, there may be a strong attachment due to the shared trauma, leading to a mistaken perception of love.

Transactional relationships: These relationships are based on mutual benefit or convenience rather than genuine emotional connection. Partners may stay together for financial security, social status, or other practical reasons, rather than genuine love and affection.

Manipulative relationships: Manipulative relationships involve one person exerting control and power over the other through emotional manipulation, coercion, or gaslighting. The manipulator may feign love and affection to gain control or exploit their partner's vulnerabilities.

Fantasy relationships: In fantasy relationships, one or both partners create an idealized version of the other person, often based on unrealistic expectations or fantasies. The relationship may lack a true emotional connection, as it is based on the person's fantasy rather than the reality of who their partner is.

One-sided relationships: These relationships are characterized by an imbalance of effort, care, or emotional investment. One person may consistently give more while the other takes without reciprocation. It can create an illusion of love, but it lacks equality and mutual respect.

Love addiction: Love addiction refers to a compulsive or obsessive pattern of seeking out relationships and being dependent on the euphoric feeling of being in love. It can lead to a cycle of unhealthy relationships, as the person seeks constant validation and excitement without addressing underlying emotional issues.

[jolien11]

My toxic trait is falling in the byler hole barely 3 months before the start of season 5, but falling so hard that it could potentially ruin the entire series for me if it doesn't happen.

[rosewoodlake]

My toxic trait is being rude just to see if you will stay