I try to not be bitter about it. I really do. But loving someone makes you powerless. There's no way to unlove someone who never broke your heart. I can't hate you. I can't wish for you to live an unhappy life. But I can be bitter about it. I can hope you dream of my eyes. I can hope that when you go to bed, all you can think of is the promises you made but couldn't keep. I hope when you are shopping and they play a song I loved, you are reminded of the exact moment I played it for you. I hope you are never able to wear the shirts I got for you, but you are never able to throw them away either. I hope you are always haunted by all the things I gave up for you. I loved you beyond reason, beyond logic. I loved you without any conditions. And I fell so hard that I can never look for love again. I hope the thought jolts you awake at night.
~ S // Love or death









