☮ ☯ ☪ @amepourrie - Tumblr Blog

I don't think I can do this anymore. I can't cope with this life and this body. It's time to go. I'm sorry. I love you all. I'll miss you so much.

Update on my life: I'm currently living in Woking, London, I'll be going back to Amsterdam in 2 days as an au pair. I've got the cutest little family to stay with, 3 beautiful little girls and this really down to earth mother. I'm so excited.

Saying goodbye my grandma on Wednesday has got to of been the hardest things that I have ever had to do. Heaven has gained an angel, I promised her I’d fight my demons and live my life with minimal tears. I’m leaving Tumblr. I’m not going to delete my blog or anything but I’m not going to be active anymore after today.

I am officially an au pair and I will be moving to the Netherlands, first stop Amsterdam! I am so excited, nothing is holding me back.

Thank you to everyone who has ever messaged me and supported me and loved me. I can’t even put into words how grateful I truly am. I love you all.

I can’t live my whole life on this website, if I want to get better then I am the one who has to fix that. Nobody else. I am so done with relying on other people to fix my problems for me, its not fair on them. My Grandma wouldn’t want that either. I’m so heartbroken and lost without my best friend by my side, losing her was and still is so painful, physically and mentally. That is why I’m doing this, for her.

Once again, thank you all. Smile always!

- Isla :)