the search for god in the midwest

love’s such an old fashioned word || emo ohio loser rant blog

[amer1canfag]

howdy pardner.

im a queer teen chronicling my experience growing up in america in a religious family. if you’re in the same boat, send me your stories.

i vibe heavy with: midwest emo, religious symbolism, liminal spaces, Supernatural (destiel truther), weirdcore, YouTube horror, true crime, dog symbolism, Car Seat Headrest, gay cowboys

some blog manners:

all photos are taken by me unless otherwise stated. my pfp is from Pinterest.

i reserve the right to ignore any personal questions I don’t feel comfortable answering.

if you’re MAGA, racist, sexist, ableist, homophobic, or transphobic, you’ll be blocked immediately. please stay kind.

[inacatastrophicmind]

[amer1canfag]

they need to kiss immediately

[alenseress]

"I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from Perdition"

or whatever gay people say

[amer1canfag]

HOLY PEAAAAAAK

[amer1canfag]

nothing is sacred anymore

[amer1canfag]

sorry im not ready to be loved yet gimme a second to fix everything awful and irredeemable about me and then I’ll earn it

[thej0ry]

What would you do if you were scrolling through recommended tumblr posts and one was from someone you don't know and it was just a picture of your dad captioned "fucking hate this guy" and it had hundreds of notes

[amer1canfag]

bold of u to assume i’m not op. the notes are also me too

[lonelyboyjan2006]

It is a terrifying thing to fall into the hands of the living God.

Collab with "lonelyboyjan2006" @dec2007 @onefive2

[amer1canfag]

im just so tired of doing stuff. like I don’t want to die or anything but I’m so sick and tired of having to like get up in the morning and put on clothes and do the dishes and text people back and go outside and schedule for school and learn to drive and like everything all the damn time im so tiredddddd

[thebugvolt]

If you hurt my brother there is a 100% chance I will come to your house and kill you.

[amer1canfag]

dean winchester core

[castieldelamancha]

give me dean and cas getting old together, dean being shocked he has lived long enough to see more and more lines appearing on his face when he looks in the mirror and even more shocked at the ones appearing on cas' skin because they mean cas really chose him, he chose a life, a human life, with dean, like dean really is worth leaving everything behind for and there is nothing dean can do but kiss every new line that appears as cas smiles at him

[ceruleanheaven]

all that and i havent killed myself yet i must really love this stupid fucking life

[amer1canfag]

i wish you loved me how i love you

[junesirius]

literally in the middle of nowhere, with all the space around them,

they just have to walk so close as to brush shoulders

# boyfriends

# touch starved

In fact, everything in this sequence is just way too adorable and domestic, I can watch it all day, every day

# old married couple

[too-short-for-a-stormtrooper]

'Cause love's such an old-fashioned word...

Here, have a bite-sized Destiel edit this fine rainy morning <3

(Song: "Under Pressure" - Queen and David Bowie)

[amer1canfag]

im actually in tears right now

[amer1canfag]

was looking at pictures of dogs and almost started crying because I’m starting to realize just how bad I crave that kind of unconditional love that truly only animals and children are capable of

[strawlessandbraless]

Dean calls Cas buddy for the first time 2 minutes after meeting him

1 minute after stabbing him

30 seconds after learning he’s an angel

And the angel bit his lip about it 👄

[amer1canfag]

the way he looks at him i can’t fucking deal with thisssss

[drulalovescas]

you're laughing??? supernatural gave cas the brokeback mountain truck and dean the brokeback mountain jacket and you're laughing??????

Im not laughing. I'm crying actually