desperately need an unbiased person to tell me that its fine to want/not want a certain thing but also if i said yes to it it would help them but its more complicated than just helping them because it also would affect pretty much every aspect of my life and AHHHHHH
i just want everything to work out and that’s unfortunately not how life works
this is when having a therapist would be helpful but that costs money and id have to tell certain people if i did right now so hopefully someday but that day is not today















