tw talk of 3đ not support of it.
so I struggled with @ń4 for around 4-5 years around 9-10 to 14. It was truly one of the most horrible things I had ever experienced and my teeth have decayed slightly from it. My liver was swollen I was passing out all the time my two lowest w3ight$ were really really low at the time my point is i was really sick and dying so I know what it is like and I believe I can speak about it since I was diagnosed and sent to a facility for it. I am now recovered and I am so so so grateful for that. I promise you if you "@ň@ @ñg3ls" get to your gw you will not live very long. I know this because I was very close to the end and it was scary. Your body isnt ment to be bones you arent supposed to see your chest bones and you shouldn't be able to count your ribs. Im not saying binge but im also not saying to starve. We are people and our bodies are all we've got to truly rely on. At the begging of my recovery and at the end of my 3d I was sick, alone, dying and being used. I beg of you please get help for your ed. life is better when you can walk life is better when you can do normal activities without your head spinning life is better when the world isnt always cold and life is better when it isn't a competition. If you struggle with an 3d I am happy to listen and try and help (though I am not professional.) And here's a few lines to call if you need help.
Call 988 if you are in crisis I have called two times once for myself they didnt send anyone for me they just listened and gave advice even though I had harmed myself. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. The second one was for someone else. Same result.
this is a link to a ton of hotliness especially for 3d's and some other things
https://www.eatingdisorderhope.com/treatment-for-eating-disorders/eating-disorder-hotlines
it should take you to a page like this.
I know not everyone can get help or wants help but if you can and want to or need to please give recovery a chance. Its a long long process and the 3d may always linger but at the end of the tunnel you get to live. Your 3d isn't ever satisfied it wont stop. at first its 6 pounds to lose you lose it then its just 6 more and you spiral down that loophole until you either 1.get help or 2.you die. Please live your life. You won't get to live this exact life ever again and maybe right now is bad maybe right now for you is a kind of hell most people cannot imagine. Maybe you could use that hell to help someone live in heaven. Maybe you will get a beautiful life after the hell is over but you will never know unless you stop surviving and start living.
