it happens the first time she watches a sitcom with him.
- theyâre both curled up on the couch, flipping through channels, and she lands on a rerun of some classic comedy.
- the first few lines of dialogue play out, then laughter. itâs canned. overused. that fake, mechanical chuckle that punctuates every joke, whether itâs funny or not.
- jason freezes. jaw locks. his fingers curl into his palms, nails digging into skin.
- he stares at the screen but isnât watching. heâs somewhere else.
- when the next joke hits and the laugh track rolls again, he snaps âturn it off.â his voice is rough, low.
she blinks, startled by the sudden sharpness in his tone. but she doesnât question itâjust grabs the remote and shuts the TV off immediately.
- he exhales through his nose, rubbing a hand down his face like heâs trying to shake off something thick and suffocating.
- she reaches for his handâhe doesnât pull away, but he doesnât relax either. âjay,â she murmurs, squeezing gently. âtalk to me.â
- heâs quiet for a long moment. then, without looking at her, he mutters, âi hate laugh tracks.â
- her brows furrow. âi mean, yeah, theyâre kinda obnoxious, butââ
- âno,â he cuts in, shaking his head. âitâs not that. Itâs... the way they sound.â
- realization hits her too late. jokers laughter. sharp, unrelenting, everywhere. the last thing jason heard before everything went black. before his body broke and the world let him die.
- and laugh tracks? theyâre not the same, but they echo it. constant, mindless, inhuman. they never stop. they never sound real.
jason finally looks at her. âit just feels like itâs still there.â his voice is hoarse, thick with something he doesnât name.
she doesnât say sorry. doesnât try to tell him itâs okay, because she knows itâs not.
instead, she laces their fingers together, grounding him in the present. âi wonât play them anymore,â she promises, simple and sure. âsitcoms are shit anyway.â
jason exhales slowly. and when he squeezes her hand back, itâs the smallest thing but it means everything.
she doesnât bring it up again, but she notices things.
- the way he flips the channel immediately if a sitcom comes on.
- how his fingers twitch at the wrong kind of laughter, thatâs too forced, too hollow.
so she makes small changes.
- puts on movies with soft laughter. show him real, warm, human joy.
- plays music instead of TV when theyâre winding down at night.
- makes sure that whenever he hears laughter now, itâs hers. full of love not malice.
one night, when he catches her laughing at something dumb he saidâher head thrown back, eyes shining, the kind of laugh that shakes her whole bodyâjason just stares.
because this laugh? itâs not cruel. itâs not endless or empty.
itâs his favorite sound in the world.