Things I See And Love

[amylouisedarlington]

More beautiful dresses that I've seen on the @missguided app, this time with a gothic theme (we all know that's my favourite) if I had unlimited funds and a fab physique I'd buy them all and wear them all the time! #gothic #gothicstyle #missguided #gorgeousdresses #fitforfashion #fitfordresses #mustgetfit #mustloseweight #beautiful #deadlyredrose #richmondredrose

[amylouisedarlington]

Absolutely loving the Missguided app, love that they always have offers on (although I missed the famous 50% off everything sale as I was broke that day) I really need to get a well paid job soon. I was getting some serious 90's vibes/ clueless/ "way back when" spice girls style from some of the lush dresses on the app @missguided #missguided #gorgeousdresses #90sfashion #90sstyle #mustgetfit #mustloseweight #fitfordresses #fitforfashion #spicegirls #spicegirlsstyle #clueless #cluelessstyle

[amylouisedarlington]

My Glossybox arrived today and I love it!!!!

[amylouisedarlington]

I literally love these, the red one is literally one of the best dresses I've ever seen!!! @dresslink More fitspiration that's for sure #fitnessinspiration #fitforfashion #fitfordresses #gorgeousdresses #gatsby #1920style #stylethroughtheages #mustloseweight #mustgetfit #thegreatgatsby

[amylouisedarlington]

So heavy I can't believe it, I'm literally heavier than a lot of biggest loser contestants. 288.2lbs so if I really want to get down to 118lbs I need to lose 170.2lbs such a long way to go, but I'm starting to work on it now, I want to lose 10lbs by next week

[amylouisedarlington]

Feelings

I got really upset today, I feel like I'm being left out and ignored by a certain group of people who I consider some of my best friends, I don't mind being left out per say but it's the being ignored that bothers me, but hey, I'm on this new grateful and forgiving streak so I really do have to learn from things and move on, but I feel like I'm too much of a good person to dwell. I am who I am, I have big problems with social anxiety which affect me keeping friends sometimes as I can be awkward in social situations, but I'm working on that! I'm deciding to be more honest and open about it for the first time in my life. The thing is I have always been the friend that anyone can call/ message if they truly need me, but some of those people literally don't know anything about me, because while I listened, they never listened back

[amylouisedarlington]

Start all over again

So I'm the second heaviest I've ever been, I'm so unhappy about my weight, but I'm feeling so lost. I'm finding it so hard to get and stay motivated, eve though I so desperately want the slim fit healthy body of my dreams. These last couple of months have been me trying to get a new administration or Receptionist job which I know I can do, but I keep getting turned down for a lack of experience, even though I have so much management and customer service experience, I'm running out of money so I'm seeking hospitality work, which wasn't what I wanted to do again, but it is fun and it keeps me fit, also depending on where I'll end up, I will get a good healthy meal every day. I'm trying to not put too much pressure on myself but it is super hard, I just want to keep my positive attitude for now and hopefully the motivation will soon make a reappearance.

[amylouisedarlington]

Let's get fit

I have to lose 28 pounds in 6 weeks, better get to healthy eating and training.

[amylouisedarlington]

Chilling in my kitchen