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everything is totally okay i just need to get hit by a car

LETS ALL DO SUBSTANCES AND CRY WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Drinking is so fun. She’s beautiful ain’t she.

#these aren’t my fav #but they r my fav beer #usually I prefer vodka seltzers and soju #or just plain shots of vodka

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nature documentary but the narration is just weird enough to make you question it

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“Some fish can walk out of water, so remember that next time.”

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“You might think you’re safe, but horses are omnivores”

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please watch the round planet on netflix it’s exactly like that

Okay. Everything is better now lalalala. I’m normal again. He does love me.

#happy happy happy

#WE ARE IN SO MUCH PAIN #AND NOBODY GAF!!!!!!!!!#ESPECIALLY THE ONE FUCKING PERSON WE WANTED TO GAF!!!!!!#WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Just remember m******! You always always ALWAYS overestimate your importance in someone’s life!

Just because your world revolves around someone doesn’t mean theirs will!

That’s normal!

That’s okay!

You are the one who’s wrong here!

You are the one who played with fire! And nobody will give a shit now that you got burned!

#there’s only so much heartache I can fucking take before I just end it all!#maybe i’m just not worth it anymore #probably!#maybe I can try and make myself worth it?#maybe if I was prettier? sexier? maybe I’d be worth it?#maybe????#there’s nothing I like about myself

I just wish I was your favorite person!!! I wish I was valuable!!! I wish I was something you wanted to hold onto and didn’t want to let go, not this burden. This pathetic stray dog that you wish you had never taken in! I’m just a pathetic fucking needy creature that hangs on your every word for a crumb of affection and attention! I just want to feel loved! And you do make me feel loved! You do it so well! So why do you decide to just cast me aside when it’s convenient???? I’m just nothing to you? A take it or leave it friend? Is sex the only thing you want from me????? You’re one of the only people that’s ever made me feel worth it as a person and I’m just optional for you????? You are the oxygen I breathe and I’m just. Annoying??? I’m just there????

#I’m so miserable sometimes #I’ll be better later #when he decides it’s worth it to give a shit about me again #maybe I’m just not worth it anymore #he has better options #I’m nobody.

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Funshine but 😱😱😱😱😱😱evil fucked up 😭😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱 #scary #not4kids

If you couldn’t tell this is based off of King Funshine from journey to joke a lot

#OP THIS IS THE PEAK OF ALL TIME #IVE BEEN TRUTHING THIS FOR SO LOOOOONG im so happy

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Something about moving somewhere you were so excited for and all the changes that would come with it… just to realize you are the main problem.

#I’m much happier here #but I’ve also had to confront the unfortunate reality #that wherever I go won’t magically change me and make me better #I will always be there #and I need to confront what I don’t like about myself instead of doomscrolling it away

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do you have a cat and if so what silly name do you call them?

YESSSSS I DO!!!!!! his name is rascal and i have a whole long list of silly names to call him but my number ones are honey bunny and big baby boy :))

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He passed away last year… I miss my sweet baby. Rascal my little baby boy, you will always mean the most to me. I love you. I wish I could have kept you with me longer, but I know you are happy and free of pain now, please take care of stink for us. You will always be my soul cat. I still can’t believe you’re gone. CKD is so fucking evil in cats man. I genuinely can’t understand why such beautiful, wonderful creatures have this happen. I wish I could have saved you. I love you rascal.

#we had to put him down and it was expected #imagine my shock and horror when like two weeks later we discover our barely 3 year old cat got fatty liver disease and stopped eating #we couldn’t afford to put a tube in her stomach #and force feeding her wasn’t working #she went downhill so fast #she was barely 3 years old #I miss you stinker #we both do #it was so fucking hard man #it was so cruel #I hope they are watching out for each other #I hope rascal welcomed her #I hope they are happy with how we are taking care of their friends tuna and noodle #I miss them both so so dearly #but especially rascal #I miss you baby #so much

YOUR ALIVE??!!

I feel like I’m seeing a ghost

But hiii!! Hope you’ve been well

HEHE HIIIII YEAH I AM ALIVE!!!! Trying to use tumblr again. I feel almost as though I’ve been in a fog the past couple years but I’m trying to get better and sort of become a person again. My brains become a rotted mess of what it used to be… I want to make art again! I want to be joyful and happy again! I want to find joy in being online again instead of being miserable!

Thank u for the lovely msg, I am so happy to hear from you :)

Trvth in the tags ^w^

#the more specific answer is I’ve been deeply depressed/isolated myself in my own lil circle #my art skills regressed rlly badly so I’ve been scared to even make anything let alone share it #I’ve also. sort of realized because of my bpd I fixated on my favorite person #and have kinda staked my whole personhood and world revolving around one guy in my life #who I still love so much #but it’s not healthy for anyone the way I’ve been #if that makes any sense?#and he loves me! but it’s not healthy to stake your entire self worth on one individual #I’m trying to surgically remove myself to become an individual again instead of a dog #I’ve basically been a dog the past couple yrs lmao #it lowkey sucks not recommended #it’s been a rlly tough couple years truly.#but I wanna post again!#I’m excited I have a computer now #anyways I’ll stop yapping #ty for the ask <3 #ask #💖💖💖

Trying to quit smoking when u have ocd adhd autism bpd >>>>> climbing Mount Everest. I’m a hero. I deserve a pat on the head.

#I want a Marlboro smooth short so BADLY #BUT THE ECONOMY IS IN SHAMBLES #AND I CANT AFFORD 12 DOLLARS A PACK #IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO MAKE IT LAST A WEEK #FUUUUUUUCK

I almost relapsed this week for the first time since I was still in high school I believe? But my thighs remain clean and the bruises on my body are only from fun sexytimes. I am loved and appreciated and irreplaceable. I don’t need to cut myself to feel alive at all!!!!!!

Does anyone know how to start being a person again after years of being a non-entity.

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