Tiny

SW:169 CW:157 GW1:150 GW2: 143 GW3: 131 GW4: 129GW5: 115 UGW:98 5'2 BMI:28 Goal BMI:17.7

[ana-recksick]

I can’t stand being sober. I have to stay high or drunk to keep the pain away.

[ana-recksick]

Always chasing a high that I can never feel, never have access to. What am I missing in my life? Why am I so suicidal? When will it end? I wish I was addicted to drugs. I wish I was able to smoke crack and feel a certain bliss (or numbness) because the pain I feel on a daily basis from the moment I wake up in the morning is so exhausting. I just want it to end.

[ana-recksick]

The reality is if I reported being raped no one would have my back. No one would support me. That’s why I’m so suicidal. No one cares about me. But it’s a hard pill to swallow when I see how much everyone cares about her.

[ana-recksick]

When your mom looks at you a little bit longer than usual and asks what’s wrong because she knows somethings wrong but wtf am I supposed to say

[ana-recksick]

I slept for like three hours last night. I don’t know how I’m supposed to work tonight.

[ana-recksick]

I’m not scared of killing my self. I’m scared of failing while trying to kill myself

[ana-recksick]

[ana-recksick]

I binged.....

[ana-recksick]

You’re not in the mood wtf does that mean? Not in the mood to have a conversation with me? Fuck you so.

[ojibwa]

[ana-recksick]

Fuck the anxiety is really kicking in

[ana-recksick]

I really before tried to tell myself that I create my own reality and that I choose to be happy. But like I woke up happy and it’s exactly 30 seconds after eating breakfast and having coffee and my flashbacks are spiraling again. The only way I can control my emotions is if I don’t eat.

I did enjoy that breakfast. Because it’s going to be the only meal I have today (one slice of brown bread and butter 130cals)

Also I overestimate my calories every single day so that’s probably not right

[skellette]

[fernanda-90-blog]

Shit, i want this so much, is fucking perfect.

[die-yet-ing-blog]

Anti binge

Remember how you look naked Remember how your thighs touch Remember how you look at others Remember how your stomach looks Remember how unhappy you are Remember how we are always here Remember how your friends look Remember how you envy them Remember how ashamed you are Remember how long it took Remember how you felt last time Remember how it’s not worth it Remember how you tell your lies Remember how you want to change Remember how your body looks Remember how people see fat Imagine YOU when its done

Remember how far you have come!

[2souls1me-deactivated20251214]

DEFINITELY something that needed to come to me today

[teeny-tiny-pixie]

[ana-recksick]