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A little update..

So, i have no plans of reading Colleen Hoover because streets saying shes problematic and i kind of get why, base on twitter posts i read. But, i just want to get what the hype is all about. I know im kind of late to the party, shes been popular for some time now. Oh, i already read Verity and as a fan of the thriller genre, i like it a lot! I finished it in less than a week. And its the first book i read after maybe more than a year already? (Sorry, i discovered ffs.lol) but, sad to say im a little disappointed with how it ended. I have something in mind, maybe a more shocking plot twist? Well, back to It Ends With Us, and this quote. I already shed a tear. Lol. It hits close to home, in a way. Lets get this started.

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When i hear this, i cant not sing.

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I dont have a depressing post, no more of that in here! I have so many things to say, but im too lazy right now so in the mean time heres my happiness. His smile is my smile. Cringe, but who cares 😛

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Gosh, i forgot im still here. Lol. I enjoyed twitter too much i guess, but because of the chaos in there people are moving in here. We’ll see. I miss this account by the way, i feel more comfortable in writing long ass posts. Oh, and 1108 in less than 2 hours!! 💛💜

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I am allowed to hate the person who hurt me. I despise him with all of my heart. Why cant people respect that? I mean, i am sure that i dont want to get back with him ever, but why do people act like I haven’t moved on? Bitch, i know how i feel. Its just frustrating that they always find a way to connect what I’m doing with that person. Omg, leave me alone. Its just, acting like they know what i feel more than me, is so annoying. I can’t find any words to describe that. If there’s anything i wish that has anything to do with him, is that he keeps me out of his mouth. He won’t talk about me with anyone ever. That’s it. He is the biggest asshole, who doesn’t deserve happiness. He will truly get what he rightfully deserves, both of them. Now, im mad that I’m again writing an essay about him. Ugh

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I’ll wait ✨

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Eew. I am so dramaatic. And NO FUCKING WAY. i will not wait. Lol

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Ok, I admit. I miss you today. Right now. Because there’s something that I’d really like to tell you. It’s a funny story actually, but it has somethhing to do with us breaking up. It’s kind of heartbreaking but if we talk about it like we used to be, its really funny. Hahahh Ok. But, Im obsessed with bangtan right now. Hahah like, im kind of thankful, really, that we broke up. Because if not, then I wouldn’t have known them. Gaaah. If there’s one thing that id do if i could return to the past. It would be before they are popular, i would stan then right then. Hahah i know, this so not me. I didnt expect this also, that I would like them. But, god. Its like a feeling of being in love.for real.

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Wait, was i drunk when i wrote this? Lol. But this is for real though. If u look at my posts, before this, its all about being heartbroken and sad! So, i haven’t updated for too long. U know why? Because i am happy. I write when im sad and depress. It’s a way for me to cope with whatever i am going through. Now, i found happiness again. And this time its different. I know its not like having a boyfriend or a fiancée. But, God, i love how i feel. I didn’t even know that this is possible. The old me is prob lol-ing at me right now. Well, u bitch. Lol. You’ve missed a lot (bangtan stuff) because you’re too busy with your asshole of a boyfriend. He’s not worth it!! If only i could turn back time, it would be on 061313. But, well, as they say, you’ll find them at the right time. For me, it was the most perfect time. I love them, esp 🐥😊, a lot. Im really in this shit forever. h^^py

[anadelrey13]

Believe me, you’ll forget you’re heartbroken.

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Okay, long time no post. I’ve been busy. Thanks 💜7. Ive never felt heartbroken eversince I got to know them. Which i never thought was possible. But, now. Ahh. It just made me cringe to think about why I did what I did during those first few weeks or months after that breakup. Gaah. Anyways, I come here to supposedly write a very sad note. But i still cant bring my self to start, i dont know how to, and if i can. Its for someone who, in a way, even though i never met in person, really changed my life. His message was the turning point. I still remember how i felt that day. He’s gone. Life is so unfair. I really feel for sorry for him. He is always in my thoughts. I hope his last days here were at least better, ahh. I really dont know how to express my thought yet. He deserves something good, atleast. In his last days, we never really talked or had a communication. We were not close. But, somehow, i really felt bad for him. He deserved better. Life was really unfair to him. I need to gather my thoughts to write a note, at least. Till then.

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Ok, I admit. I miss you today. Right now. Because there’s something that I’d really like to tell you. It’s a funny story actually, but it has somethhing to do with us breaking up. It’s kind of heartbreaking but if we talk about it like we used to be, its really funny. Hahahh Ok. But, Im obsessed with bangtan right now. Hahah like, im kind of thankful, really, that we broke up. Because if not, then I wouldn’t have known them. Gaaah. If there’s one thing that id do if i could return to the past. It would be before they are popular, i would stan then right then. Hahah i know, this so not me. I didnt expect this also, that I would like them. But, god. Its like a feeling of being in love.for real.

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Well, I’m not miserable. But, no way I’m gonna be friends with him after what he did. Will never forget him, but will not also forgive him.

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Yes. And he is heartless. Why did I even bothered to think that he will still at least think about what will hurt me? Of course, he doesn’t care. Selfish, self-absorbed. Why did he become like that? We’ve been together 9 years. I don’t think that I’ll ever forgive him. If it’s just me, fine. But he also disrespected my family, who treated him like a part of us. That is the thing that angered me the most. He’s rude, disrespectful, heartless, narcissist, selfish. I can now say that I really wasted so much of my time being with him. He will get whatever he deserves.

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