94: "I won't lose you too." For the angst/fluff prompt thing?
94. “I won’t lose you too”
WARNINGS: past toxic/abusive relationships
“You’re being crazy!” Patton shouted, the tears cascading down his cheeks, “I’m not letting anyone take advantage of me.”
Janus turned on him, “that’s such bullshit Patton!” He snarled, “He was going to take advantage of you until I stepped in.”
Patton flinched back and Janus wanted to punch himself. “I’m not letting people take advantage me!” his voice cracked, “That can’t happen to me again! It’s not happening again!”
Janus knew he shouldn’t go in for the kill. Patton was breaking right in front of him. Janus knew that above all the one thing Patton was afraid of was being pulled into was another toxic relationship. Over the course of the year Janus had tried to help, by paying close attention to Patton and making sure he knew what a healthy partner looked like. This situation should be handled with caution and care. But Janus just wanted to scream and shout. Patton was denying the truth of the situation and that was dangerous. Janus was tired and sleep deprived and nothing made him angrier than Patton in danger.
“No you are! You are in a toxic relationship Patton and you’re too blinded by your fear to realizing your letting yourself fall into the same trap again!” Janus shouted and Patton just shook even harder. He had a dead look in his eyes. The same look he had in his eyes when they first met.
“Really? Well maybe you’re the one taking advantage of me! Ever think of that Janus?” Patton screamed back and oh, he knew where to hit Janus so it hurt.
Janus’ biggest fear was becoming one of the people who made Patton flinch whenever someone raised their voice. He was afraid one day he’d be one of toxic people he hated so much.
Janus was pissed and afraid and worried, and yeah, it was better Janus left for the sake of both of them. Before Janus said something he would regret.
Janus deflated, and avoided Patton’s gaze. Patton’s chest was heaving up and down and he had a manic look in his eyes.
“Patton I think it’s better if I crashed at Logan’s tonight ok?” Janus said softly.
Patton broke. He crashed and burned. His legs buckled beneath him. His chest still and he was making choking noises.
“Please don’t go,” Patton whimpered, “Please Jay, I won’t lose you too.”
(I’d say I’m sorry for the angst but I’d be lying)
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