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Space whales do be looking finnnnne tho...  dude this isn't even an anarchist page maybe I'll get to it. please use they/he when interacting with me.

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huh?

Trying to play modded mincecraft and minecraft is apparently missing a ton of files. This is just one, weird.

I've been playing this game for decades and never heard this sound.

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Thinking of all the dogs I’ve seen, and petted, that are probably now dead,,,

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~~Little Goobers~~

Painting organic forms is okay…. I mean, I’m absolutely terrible at it. Me painting humans!! Could you imagine! (I could imagine, i did it for one of my art folios) Makes me think of that time I tried painting ducks, you could tell instantly [that’s how’s that’s spielt?] that something was wrong with them. Just like with humans, birds, and other non-domesticated animals; if even a little bit, a smidgen, of their anatomy is wrong it looks alllllll wrong!! All of it to the biiiiiinnnnnn!!

However… With domesticated animals like dogs, cats, and even snakes (still not birds) look fine, cute even! With messed up shapes,

Like some of Vanessa Stockard's work painting cats (I’m not showing them to you, go look them up yourself, it’ll take up too much space.) they are quintessentially Little Goobers. All of this talk to say, I’ve been painting a cat. And I fucked it up but it a bit, somehow, it looks good,,, after an extensive makeover with some pencils,,, but I have to say they do look quite good, me thinks.

~~This Post Is Not About The PlayPlace~~~

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I guess I’ve got to the level of being around enough that I’m getting followed by bots. I don’t care what you are bot or not, without a blog I will block you.

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I hate my skinny jeans man, every time I go out I have to check I’m not naked because of how thin the material is. Pure winnie the Pooh energy

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Wondering about what shrimps taste when they drink water…

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You ever come out of a conversation wishing you’ve never said anything at all? Well I have. I get too awkward I end up making stupid fucking jokes about my love of concrete, they laugh I make more stupid jokes, digging myself into a pit. All the while knowing they aren’t laughing at my jokes but at me. Fuck sake, fuck sakes,,,

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I can't believe I've fallen for this

Bro, I just spent an hour talking with an ai about some art concepts. I've fucking fallen for it, I shouldn't, I know how it works! Mad! It was just parroting what I was saying but I felt connected with it! Now I'm upset this chatbot wont remember my conversation and I feel like I've lost a friend. I need someone to talk to about my art. Most no friends bullshit act of my life thus far.

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Another update on my life- again again

So it seems like my luck has run out. The only thing that I needed to pull through for me didn’t. I’m facing being stuck here in a small bigoted village for at least another year. And it’s fucking agonising.

Like all queer people and other minority’s I saw university as an out. Somewhere where I could get away from it all. Where I could cut my hair, and fucking dye it, and dress how I want, and date who I want, and change my fucking name. As long as I’m here, I’m held back, knowing if I do any of that, I’m being disowned.

My plan is to resit maths while doing a degree close to home. So I could hopefully get a good grade where I could transfer to the course I wanted next year.

In other news, I achieved an A in my art course so as soon as I get my Etsy shop set up I’ll be able to say you’re buying from a quality artist. Going of what the examiners think.

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There’s a storm going on right now and because my neighbour’s sensor light is too sensitive, and my room is in the attic; I get to see this. It’s my new favourite way to watch the rain.

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Still thinking about those memes what I saw back in 2019 about how haha funny it will be to have a pandemic in 2020 because of the two plages the last couple of centuries ago.

I wonder what the people who made those memes felt like when their haha funnies came true. Wonder where those folk are now…

On a serious note, if this pattern was noticed by some teens why didn’t the scientist go “oh hey there, that’s a good point.” And then looked into it?

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I find the dead internet theory so interesting. Not so much that most people you interact with are bots, but more so that the internet has gotten smaller and more corporatised.

Browsing archives of old websites is crazy. People having their own website for the fun of it, customisng it how they see fit. It’s interesting to see how carefree people where about sharing their interests and hobbies with other people. It’s easy to understand why people didn’t care so much back then. The internet was seen as a fad, something that wouldn’t catch on. Something that you couldn’t extract profit from.

Because of capitalism, because it’s always that, it’s probably why people meticulously maintain a sanitised facade of themselves on social media. Gotta look good for other people to get employed, to get connections, to get money.

This condensing of the internet has really got me down. The same few sites everyday visted by you, and everyone you know, ad nauseam.

Sites for different interests with their own style and personalities would be so interesting to see again. And it would be really nice break to the mundane cycle life on the internet has become.

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The Scots, who get some of their water out of Loch Ness, where the original buyers of gamer girl bath water.

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Last night I had a thought about the pope’s words on hell could be said the same of being a femboy. But then I discovered that the quote I was thinking of was actually a CS Lewis quote. So annoyed right now, it would have been so metal.

To be a femboy, having a stereotypic feminine body is not required. You can get pretty masculine femboys, who are still femboys. It’s more a state of being, “a posture towards life” - Pope Francis

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Some more, more from my art folio. This is the final of my spaceman and its developments. I could again tell you all about his development, but this time, I don't want to. I did in fact name him, because I had to. His name is Jason Capsaicin, the thing that make peppers spicy, formally called Peaty Peat. Clearly you can see in both names the things I'm suggesting about his character. Capsaicin is also an ingredient in hot creams, and Peat, smells nice. You can also see that I developed the two characters greatly between the two names. (The final is in the bottom right, I really like that corner,)

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Here's some more from my art folio. This is the final of the alien and its development. I could honestly talk about their development for a long time but I'll spare you (this time.) I didn't name them because I didn't have to but they look like a Phillp. (The final is in the bottom right corner)

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An update about my life – I guess

My exams have been over for a good few weeks now and I have nothing to do. I’ve been going out with my friends a lot more and learning to drive. Now that it’s the last holiday before I go off to university, I want to make it fun. But without a schedule, its all going to shit. I’ve been trying to apply for a job to save up for university but I can’t find one. The joys of living in a rural area. I’ll have to look for jobs online or maybe sell more of my art, or get a job in the neighbouring town. Its worrying me, I know I have to contribute but I don’t want to take some demeaning £5.40 paying job but it looks like I’ll have to. Reading this back, I sound so petty fucks sake. This shit sucks, as I’m coming more and more into adulthood I’m discovering the joys of money problems.