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all of my writing is actually just thinly-veiled fantasy about being seen at your worst and still being loved
returning anon who said connor sunk his claws into me and won't let me go
re: but i think it has to do with the fact that i want him to lowk do better than mack to prove the narratives being woven about him... & i tweak more about connor than mack lowkey
i'm glad you said it first cause i didn’t know how to word it & was scared it was gonna come off wrong if i tried to say it 😭. like do not get me wrong, i LOVE seeing mack do well and pull off crazy shit and break records. but when it comes to very specific things like the sharks v blackhawks games, i do find myself hoping for connor to do better than mack (even if just by a small margin). and not just bc social media will spend the next few hours calling him washed and a fraud if he doesn’t. but bc the only time people other than his own fans ever seem to give him his flowers is when he’s directly going up against mack. any other time it’s like,,,
connor pulls something off w the blackhawks = “okay but let’s talk about this completely unrelated thing that mack did and how much better he did it”
mack does something good = “OH connor could never”
and i genuinely don’t understand how things came to be like this bc the two of them have literally. Never spoken badly about each other. not publicly anyway. so when people dislike connor because of mack, or dislike mack because of connor (which I don’t acc see that often, but I have seen it here and there) it’s just so ??? for what ???
& i have so many other thoughts that i wouldn’t even begin to know how to put into words (the olympics ordeal, the way people compare their performances & what they’re able to pull off knowing that, team wise, they do not have anywhere near the same support system). moral of the story: WE need connor to prove the narratives wrong bc things cannot keep going on like this 💔
when I got into hockey it was because I needed something that would not stress me out like f1 does. now look at where we are smh. all cause of connor bedard
p.s. I just scrolled up to look at how much I typed and. I am so sorry for rambling in your inbox like this omg. usually I just come here to say a thing or two about celebedsy but. well 🙂↕️
HELLOOOO never feel bad forreal for yapping in my ask box thats like what i've always wanted. because its so fun to talk with people and stuff PLUS while i am a celebedsy peddler i like to have general discussions about them separately :nodnodnod:
had to cut the text because i too have lots to say!!!
As requested, a popstar!Connor drabble for @mitchigann. (And yes, I had fun using a Tik Tok comment generator to make the following image, never let it be said that I cut corners)! 😅
Celebedsy Drabbles on Ao3
"Now, baby, you're on my mind," Connor confesses to the camera, eyes crinkling at the corners as his smirk gentles into a smile, "every night, every day." Macklin swallows, helplessly mesmerised. Yeah, he might be fucked.
Hiii, I just wanted to say that I really love all the Celebedsy stories you’ve written, and I’m really looking forward to the omega!Connor story!Also, I hope you’re feeling better now.
Hello! Thank you for the kind message and I'm so glad you enjoyed them! I'm feeling much better now so slowly trying to churn out another proper celebedsy story in due time! :)
In the meantime, because I'm so excited to hear someone else is equally into the idea of omega!Connor, please have another snippet from the currently 23k omega!Connor story! 😅
thank you @sanctsacro for the ideas!!!
i will forever mourn what couldve been a celebedsy line up at milan 😢
Eeeeee, I continue to absolutely adore your art and am so excited that you're sharing it with us! 🤗
I was inspired by your post above and know you mentioned liking the idea of a puppy dog!Macklin so ended up writing a mini drabble (but apologies in advance, am partial to wolf!Macklin pretending to be a dog so ended up making Macklin a wolf in the drabble)! 🙈
Celebedsy Drabbles on Ao3
"Hello? What, oh shit- Macky?" Connor says when he opens his hotel room door and catches sight of Macklin's current, very non-human, form. Macklin gives a soft woof in affirmation and pushes past Connor's legs and into the room, appreciating that he's being impolite but unwilling to continue standing outside and increase the risk of being seen as a wolf by some random passerby in this very upscale Milanese hotel corridor. He can just imagine the news and posts that would follow if people discovered him like this.
Not sure why it's a new trend among fic readers to assume if the fic has not been posted within the week it's inappropriate to comment on it, like the fic has to be hot out of the oven to give feedback for.
I got a comment on a fic that is less than a year old and it was mostly an apology for being a comment on an "old fic" and how late they were in commenting.
Just comment on the fic. Doesn't matter how old it is.
Hi!!! I read a few of your fics and they're so cute!! The bake-off au sounds so unique, I'm excited to see how that will play out, but I just wanted to say I hope you feel better from your sickness soon <3
Thank you kindly! You're very sweet and I am feeling much better now and as work is also getting less busy, hopefully I'll have a bit more time to write! :)
In the meantime, because you mentioned it, please have a short snippet from the Bake Off AU! :D
Hiii i just wanted to say how much i loved your celebedsy fics and also the willcon ones i hope we can get more in the future🙈??
Hello! Awww, thank you kindly for the lovely message, made me smile on the way to work today! And you absolutely will as I am still very obsessed with these silly hockey boys. 🤗
Unfortunately, between being sick and work being busy, writing has taken a bit of a backseat. Admittedly, it doesn't help that I keep wanting to write different things every time (omega!Macklin,omega!Connor, superhero AU, Winners Room AU, Bake off AU, etc.). 🙈
Will keep doing little drabbles on a weekly basis if I'm inspired enough and will try and get a proper story out when it's less busy at work!
Helloo
I read “Wish I’d Find A Lover (That Could Hold Me)” and absolutely loved it.
Was wondering If I could make fanart of it? It’s alright if not, I just wanted to ask permission beforehand.
If I can, I’d send it to you via messages when finished!
Thanks for writing!
Hello! I hope you know your kind message made my day! So glad to hear you enjoyed the story, always lovely to know I'm not just writing for myself! 🤗
Oh! You're very sweet to ask and the answer is absolutely yes, more than happy for you to share via messages once you're done (going to be looking so forward to it now) but also happy for you to post it if you wanted to share more widely, I know there are a few of us celebedsy fans who would so love to see more content/posts about them! 😍
Heyo fellow writer here! Just finished your latest work on ao3 and its so beautiful that i thought the work is from the heavens /j, anyways i was hoping for...Angst maybeee??? Im also trying to work on Angst with no happy ending(i love doomed fics) lmao, maybe you can do angst celebedsy or maybe angst willcon(new ship unlocked), so yeah keep up the good work hoping to see more of your fics :)!!
Hello, thank you for the kind words and oh no haha! I'm so sorry haha, I'm not sure I'm the best person for angsty stories (I like happy endings and fluff too much)!
But I was very inspired by the idea of willcon (which you are right, is a new pairing for me) so have still made an attempt! Please have a light angst willcon + celebedsy drabble and am very much looking forward to your angsty celebedsy stories (though I may need to ready myself if there isn't a happy ending)! 🙈
Celebedsy Drabbles on Ao3
"You know," Macklin says casually as he drops onto the locker room bench beside Will, "Con still talks about you." Will looks over sharply, hoping his face doesn't betray how hard his heart has suddenly started pounding at just the mention of Connor's name. Fuck. So much for getting over him. "Ah, yeah, does he?" Will manages to say weakly and bites back the urge to ask what Connor says about him.
helloo i just wanted to say i love your writing so much. Im so insane for celebedsy but its such a niche pairing so your fics are honestly a blessing, all of them!
this is not really a request, more so just some thoughts.. i quite like the idea of obsessive macklin. Macklin who has had this fixation on connor ever since they played together as boys.
But he hides it very well. Under his ‘princely’ and innocent image lies that sinisterly obsessive side, which probably only will knows about.
Mack plays off his lingering touches, focused stares, and heated words as something friendly (to the outside and to connor is who oblivious), but really, almost uncontrollable desire surges underneath all that. But he’s patient, he can play the long game until he can get what is his.
sorry for the yapping idk if any of it made sense but yeah!!
Aww you're very sweet, thank you for the kind message, it's honestly so lovely to know there are others out there who are just as silly about these two as I am! :)
Ohhh, I am all about this haha, not sure if you've already read the story Unseen on Ao3 but it explores that exact scenario (aka what I like to call 'golden retriever sunshine boy'!Macklin is just a convenient facade for media because it's easier to market / maintain as a personal brand) and I would recommend it! The same author also wrote a follow up, with possessive!Macklin and I have a lot of feelings about that too. 🙈
But I definitely like the idea of a Macklin that is overtly touchy feely but plays it off as just them being buds, and offer the idea of a Macklin who is smart enough to find excuses for them to interact (e.g. suggests they practice together during the summer "because it'd be chill to be able to train with another NHLer bud", suggests they catch up when they play each other "because you're handling the pressure of being a franchise saviour and an A, soon to be C, with such grace dude, and would love some tips") and really it's all just engineered ways for Macklin to be able to brush a hand against the back of Connor's back until Connor no longer tenses at his casual touches. 🤭
Please don't apologise, I love hearing these headcanons so my inbox will always be open (would in fact be curious what you think of the suggested story if you end up reading it and are happy to share your thoughts)! 🤗
please i'm begging i've been waiting for so long, please please please finish Don't You Want me (Like I Want You, Baby?) your writing is so so good and i want to read the ending so bad !!!!!
Ah!! I'm so pleased to hear that there are still people interested in the pining!Sid story, I was slowly working through the next chapter but it's unfortunately taken a bit of a backseat to the celebedsy plot bunnies!
That said, I'm so happy to hear that someone is still looking forward to another chapter and promise I will go back and complete the next chapter of the pining!Sid story once I complete the current celebedsy plot bunny! You have my word! :)
omega mack taking alpha connor's chain to play with him a little after the blackhawks lose to the sharks and connor tweaks because taking the chain is akin to claiming/display of dominance. and you know hes not really like super conservative, and he wears his chain for fun and not out of the semantics of neck accessories and designation, but like mack is rubbing it in his face and its getting on his nerves
like mack wears it all the time after they beat the blackhawks right? and connor is without it for months and he retaliates by taking it back the moment they beat the sharks and mack fucking imprinted his scent on the chain, further messing with connor and he wages mindgames with mack that eventually ripen into courting
Hello, um, I honestly am a bit embarrassed by how much I reblog your posts/write drabbles inspired by them. I hope you're not weirded out and that you continue to share your headcanons/ideas with us! 🙈
In the meantime, please see a continuation of the previous omega!Macklin and alpha!Connor drabble!
Celebedsy Drabbles on Ao3
"I know what I want," he finally confesses out loud, but softly because acknowledging he wants Connor is still scary, "he's the one who isn't interested in me." He feels it when Will laughs and readies himself to punch Will in the dick this time, because fuck him for laughing at Macklin's pain. "You're an idiot," Will says fondly, pulling Macklin away so he can't continue to hide his face, "Bedsy took a penalty last time we played the Hawks because you made me scent you right before the game and he high sticked me right in the fucking face the first chance he got. Honestly, you're the only one who doesn't seem to realise how into you he is."
Wish I'd Find A Lover (That Could Hold Me) on Ao3
"What?" Will cuts in, looking offended, "I can do sweet, Beds, tell me bud, are you a rink snack? Because you look like a treat." Connor laughs. "No no," Frank says, "Bedsy, are we practicing drills? Because my heart keeps racing." Macklin wants to tell them to shut up because it's not a joke, not to Macklin, only, Connor is bright-eyed and grinning and- It's so stupid but he looks so gorgeous and content and Macklin can't bear to do anything that might make Connor stop looking like that.
(Macklin is popular and captain of the hockey team, but neither of these seem to impress Connor much, which is a shame, because Macklin would quite like to take Connor to the prom)
hi reader anon here, i just read your celebedsy fanfics in ao3 and they are so *chefs kiss*, also both of them are now Alternate Captains👀👀👀👀 maybe you should do Celebedsy High School AU😉 like hear me out PopularBoy!Connor x QuietBoy!Macklin🙈🙈, so yeah thats my idea for your next Celebedsy fanfics🙂↕️🙂↕️ keep going with these Celebedsy fanfics they are so perfect
Hello! Oh my goodness, so fun fact, I saw this in my inbox yesterday on the way to work and was immediately inspired so decided to write you a short drabble...only it's now almost 6k+ so I guess it's no longer going to be a drabble.
Will try and finish it over the next few days but in the meantime, thank you for inspiring me and have a short excerpt!
(Warning, this is basically me having fun at Macklin's expense! 🙈)
hey i need u to know i’ve reread ur celebedsy surprise heat drabble like 15 times since you posted it would u ever consider writing a longer fic abt it i actually cannot stop thinking about it
Hello! Thank you for sending in a message, it's a rather niche pairing so it does feel a bit like I'm writing for myself and sending it off into the void. So thank you for expressing interest to see more. :)
I likely will write more, because I am now very very fond of the idea of a reluctant omega!Macklin going out of his way to try and impress alpha!Connor, and then being absolutely furious with himself for trying because surely it should be the other way around? And alpha!Connor being terribly confused because he knows the whole rivalry narrative is made up and he's fairly sure Macklin and Will are a thing so he was keeping his interest to himself but why is Macklin testing his resolve like this???
That said, I am still hoping to finish the existing ABO celebedsy story first so it might be awhile before I turn my attention back to this drabble!
abo celebedsy where unforch mack is an omega and unforch bedsy is an alpha and the nhl is hype about weaving a rivalry between them and it works and now they have to deal with a flash heat 🌹
Happy Friday!
I caved...your ideas are too compelling haha, hope it's ok that I keep writing little drabbles for them!
I will finish the other ABO!celebedsy story but may end up putting some of these drabbles on Ao3 as a mini collection haha. 🙈