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Super good ass.

My pt, when asked how his vision and hearing are

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Medical management...I don't know why I put this in here. We're gonna skip this, it's not important.

Surgery attending during didactics today

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Is the line in yet? The intern did it? BITCHIN'. Nice job.

My attending, after I PLACED A CENTRAL LINE AHH

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First week

DONE. Some days were awful. Like when I didn’t have time to see 3 out of 7 of my pts before rounds. Or when I had to hold back tears for the entirety of morning rounds. I have never felt so stupid in my entire life...like did I miss something in medical school?? Bc all my other co-interns seem like they have their shit together. The medical students are so much smarter than me and THANK GOD for them OMG. My brain feels so empty. There’s not much room for anything else bc panic takes up 99.9% of it. 

But there were moments that were great, albeit few and far between, and that’s what’s keeping me going.

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It only gets harder from here.

PD’s parting words to our intern class before our first real day of work (!!!!) on Monday

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They stole my soul, so I stole their scrubs.

On taking scrubs from the hospital

[gallagh3r]

Drinks were a lot like books, really: it didn’t matter where you were, the contents of a vodka and tonic were always more or less the same, and you could count on them to take you away to somewhere better or at least make your present arrangements seem more manageable

Lev Grossman - The Magician’s Land (via gallagh3r)

[thesewordstogether]

She was too tired to feel anything more, she wanted a book to do to her what books did: take away the world, slide it aside for a little bit, and let her please, please just be somewhere and somebody else.

Lev Grossman, The Magician’s Land (via thesewordstogether)

[fillory-clinton]

A magician is strong because he feels pain. He feels the difference between what the world is and what he would make of it. Or what did you think that stuff in your chest was? A magician is strong because he hurts more than others. His wound is his strength. Most people carry that pain around inside them their whole lives, until they kill the pain by other means, or until it kills them. But you, my friends, you found another way: a way to use the pain. To burn it as fuel, for light and warmth. You have learned to break the world that has tried to break you.

Lev Grossman, The Magicians (via fillory-clinton)

[coral]

[F]or just one second, look at your life and see how perfect it is. Stop looking for the next secret door that is going to lead you to your real life. Stop waiting. This is it: there’s nothing else. It’s here, and you’d better decide to enjoy it or you’re going to be miserable wherever you go, for the rest of your life, forever.

Lev Grossman, The Magicians (via feellng)

[booksquoteslove]

It didn’t matter where you were, if you were in a room full of books you were at least half way home.

Lev Grossman, The Magician’s Land (via booksquoteslove)

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OMG you’re gonna have so much TV to catch up on when you get back from your trip.

the med school wife on my big life problems

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Can you help me? You look smart. You smell like a hospital too.

Stranger in public library approaching me for help

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DONEEEEE

With interviews FINALLY!! 20 interviews makes for a longass season. Time to dry clean my suit and never wear it again

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70 clinic pts today and i literally wanted to slit my wrists and die BUT today was my last day of rotations as a med student!!!!

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Today:

ALL MY DREAMS CAME TRUE AND EVERYTHING I’VE BEEN WORKING TOWARD FOR THE LAST 8 YEARS WAS REWARDED

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t-minus 12 hours from match and i’ve become completely numb and dissociated