I am sooo ready for Christmas. Not for the actual day itself, but because my family and I are going to Korea the next day!
Yeyyyyy. #excited and so happy. I’m really besides myself.
I’m really hoping to end this pretty much bad year with a BANG and GOOD VIBES to welcome the NEW YEARRR. #positivity
Coz i am So ready to be twenty.
Yep. Going to be twenty on January. Then i’m on my next step on my life plan. —>
Ready to be a student againnn. (my next step)
Gonna be a student again by the end of Feb, and pretty much going to live by myself in another country. (China by the way)
Got to step up next year and figure out what the heck am I going to do in the future. HAHA.
Few weeks past, i witnessed a so called raid by the joint forces of four organizations in this lovely country of the Philippines.
Should raids be conducted while the people consisting the team sidesteals merchandise that are supposed to be “confiscated”? These officials were so haughty and all mighty but all of them act like common thieves.
Is this how they show and abuse their power? They say they’ll confiscate those illegal merchandise and deem whether they are harmful. If they are not deemed harmful, then they’ll be donated. DONATED? where? They’re own pockets?
I won’t be surprised at all if the families of these officials get for christmas are the ones they Have Supposedly Confiscated.
Such is the harsh reality of the world we live in today.
My past bum life, and my not-so-bum life right now.
Since graduating last October 11 and even before that, I've been living like a bum. Eat, sleep, internet, and the cycle repeats.
UNTIL LAST WEEK.
My dad forced me to go to his office, knowingly he doesn't have much to do for me. His company is just starting up! and it's all decision decisions. It's not like he's going to let me to make decisions on his precious project.
I'M a bitch I know.
It's just that my dad, is very very judgemental, not to mention racist. and he expects a lot but nothing that surpassess his "own grateness". He's one of those people who hates to admit his mistakes and all that. you know.
BUT HERE WE ARE.
On times that my father is here, he gives me these ridiculous, meaningless tasks. that I don't see what's the use for.
THANK GOD FOR THE INTERNET.
So here I am, tumblring my woes away.
I'M TOO MUCH OF A LAZY BUM TO FIND A JOB
i'm counting down the days till February, and till then I just need to keep this up for a few months. The other plan is to find an internship (which has no pay and real work) which I am not totally inclined to do right now. It'll be sooo much better if they were to offer compensation. sigh.
I never hated the Firewall of China so much until now. Experiencing it now made me realize how much I hate the damn restriction. As you can deduce, I'm currently in China, for a tour. I tagged along with my mom and her friends. Yeah. I know. Third wheeler. HAhaha. I can't access twitter, nor facebook. And instagram has crappy connection. But suprisingly, spotify works...? Hooray. Lol. That's it. Till next time luvlies. X
Hello luvlies. Here's what's goin on in my life right now.
The suspense was killing me.
Seriously. Our professors really makes us wait for our grades noh? All that waiting was killing me inside. and I was having mini panic attacks last night, expecting the worse (that I failed one that one class and I can't graduate, THE HORROR!) But thankfully, our professor ended our torture and posted our grades.
It was "satisfactory"
I was not totally happy nor sad with my grade. I know I did not exert my 100 percent for this class but I enjoyed it. At least it's done na. I don't have anything to worry about. I can happily say that:"HEY! I'M GRADUATING THIS OCTOBER."
sooo....October?
but it's still September, I know. I TOTALLY HAVE NOTHING TO DO. I really don't want to be one of those loser kids who stays at home really. buttt, I don't have work yet (cause I'm going to China in the winter ~February next year) SOOO, Yeah. I don't know what to do....
VACATION MODE
I'm enjoying my "vacation" as much as I can, cause it won't be long till my parents open their eyes and demand me to go to the store and help out. soo crossing my fingers.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE
I have a trip next week to China, just to tour and have fun. although I'm with my mother and her friends. (oh dear.) but it's better than staying at home and laze around.
Just like any other human being, I'm also plagued by procrastination. I'm supposed to post a "facts about me" post, but here i am posting a different kind of post. HEH.
ANYWAYS.
I've just finish reading a real novel (i mean real, as in made from paper and not an ebook.), and it has been quite some time since i've done that.
I've just finish reading Katie MacAlister's It's All Greek to Me. It's a very FUN, LIGHT and HILARIOUS READ. Totally recommended! Hahaha. PERFECT for a fun day to unwind and relax with a good book.
As you can see above, the cover is H-O-T! I had a double take when I saw it yesterday at the book store.
Yesterday?
Yep. Just got it yesterday. This Local Bookstore here (National Book Store Harrison) had a warehouse sale and I just cant resist book sales. SUE ME. Hahaha.
This was originally 315pesos (roughly 7 dollars or so) and I only had to pay 37.5 pesos (roughly 85 cents!) for it! WHAT A STEALLL. I spent a total of 215 pesos (5 dollars) for 6 books. hello. what a bargain. they were all romance novels by the way. Hahaha.
Control?
NAH. That doesn't exist in my vocabulary. HAHA. I keep on buying books even though I still have a TON OF BOOKs i haven't read in my bookshelves. MEH. not to mention, my bookshelves's so full that I don't have any place to put my other NEW books in. :<
I should be studying...
I have finals tomorrow but I haven't studied a lick. weeee. well. I've reach the end of this post.
Sometimes you just feel empty, lonely, insignificant. And it doesn’t matter what you do, no it doesn’t matter how many laps you run, musicals you join, classes you skip or how many pairs of shoes you buy - you still feel like crap. Sometimes i just feel like taking off, selling everything I own and running away to somewhere so distant, running away into the unknown.
It's been a while since I've sat down and wrote a honest to God blog post on tumblr. All I do nowadays are reblogging.(on my other tumblr)
WHY NOW, you ask?
It's the 22nd. and it's my university's last week of classes, then Finals week will start by next week (26th). and this means that I'm nearing the end of my College Life AS WE SPEAK. Yes. I'm graduating. (Hopefully, If i do well on my last paper, and last exam next week) and Yes. I'm just nineteen.
WOW. 19 and graduating? COOL.
NOT. Really. I now know why this country that I'm living in is insisting on changing the high school system, (instead of 4 years high school, there's gonna be 3 years junior high, 3 years of senior high, cause we don't have a middle school here.) Kids really need time to MATURE. I feel like I should've gone to college at this age. I really don't feel I'm ready for the "real" world just yet.
I'm sorry for all the ranting.
Mind you, this blog is not gonna be all about my ranting, Oh boo hoo, my life sucks and all that. I think I can say i've matured enough. (lol. big words for a nineteen year old) to know that the world does not revolve around me. and yeah life sucks, but there are others who has it worse than you. But there would still be occasional rantings that I just need somewhere to vent on. and it would be on this tumblr. (i'm only human)
What is the purpose of this blog then?
This is a place to put all my thoughts, my ideas, my musings, so to speak. As I'm going to graduate (Hopefully.) I'm going to start another chapter in my life, and I missed writing on journals, and I want to express myself in a bigger, more exposed platform (hence why i chose tumblr.)
I'm not saying I'm going to be a heck of a good blogger and what not.
But I just want to spread and express my thoughts out there, and maybe just maybe, there'll be one of those kindred souls that would relate and who knows, we might be friends. I'm just starting, and i still don't know how to express my thoughts really in a blog, and i would like to apologize in advance if my posts gets long, boring and annoying.
One more thing.
After I graduate, I'm kinda planning on going to CHINA. (where practically every site is blocked) to study for one sem, then we'll see how it goes. ANYWAYS, tumblr (last i've checked) is not blocked, so HOORAY. I'm training myself right now to blog, so that when i go to China, Tumblr (and instagram) will be my sole connection to my friends and all that. so yeaaaahh.
Thank you for reading through my looooong post till the end. Hope I didn't sound arrogant/annoying or pompous. Hahaha. Will soon post a "WHO THE HECK AM I"post soooon. <3
