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[ancient-melodies]

Months pass

Your lovers come and go

Like the seasons

Each one a small chapter

And I am the bookmark

Waiting at the end

For we always pick up right

Where we left off

[ancient-melodies]

I’m in love with you

Not in the way that I want to be with you

But it’s like this weird, unforgettable feeling of wanting you to at least want me to some degree

I can’t even describe why I love you so much you haven’t even been good to me I feel like you even used me for sex more than once

And maybe that’s why I can’t forget you or why I’m so fucking attracted to you still. I need your approval so badly that I put it on a pedestal when you don’t even deserve it

You don’t deserve my infatuation, my time, or my energy, because I know you’re not giving me any of that in return

[ancient-melodies]

Last time we had sex it wasn’t supposed to happen I had just broken down in front of him for the first time I didn’t really cry or anything I was just completely honest about how fucked up my life was and they listened sweetly and supportively

He asked if he could stay since it was so late and he didn’t want to drive all the way back home and I said of course but I only had one bed so we laid together talking and laughing and I felt better.... he said no offense but I gotta take my shirt off to sleep and I said of course that’s fine

I can’t remember exactly how it happened I think he held me and I got closer and we got closer and it happened naturally and he finished in like minutes no joke which made me smile a lot

I hate how I think about you so much, I don’t even know why I do, when I think about sex I think about sex with you. When I see you I’m so content and we sit in silence a lot but it’s nice not awkward and I’m usually thinking of what I can do to get you to open up to me. I still haven’t figured it out

[passlonplt]

[jiminfilter]

– You have the control, and…they like you.

Sharp Objects: “Cherry”

[ancient-melodies]

Blame it on the drugs but it’s not the drugs it’s my insanity!

My brain feels like mush

[ancient-melodies]

I don’t know why I can’t be friends with girls I guess I don’t think anyone will like me if I don’t have my looks as a backup like boys still want me around even if I’m not funny because I’m pretty and they probably imagine fucking me and I’m letting them have it because it makes me feel alive

[spi-ltmilk]

https://instagram.com/p/BZ61RrZAxWv/

[melisica]

Claudia Amuedo

[ancient-melodies]

How can I hurt myself without physical evidence?

[ancient-melodies]

From a past life !

[ancient-melodies]

Trying to ring the thoughts out of you

Like a damp towel

I said hurt me but I meant with your hands

Around my neck

Not with your silence

But both of those pains

Make me want you more

[ancient-melodies]

I remember seeing you sitting on the bench and your hair was long and blonde covering your face as you looked down at your phone or whatever and I looked at you until you got up

You were tall and a lil shy but so am I and I never thought we’d spend the night together but now I can’t stop hoping it’ll happen again

I didn’t know I needed you or your friend but you’ve given me comfort and laughter and I’m so thankful that our paths have crossed in such a way

I love you always no matter what

[ancient-melodies]

I wanna relive last night and I want every second to be sketched into my mind always

He asked first (great sign)

I said something like, “but I’m worried about you. Are you sure you’re okay? I want to but I’m your friend first”

Unfortunately I don’t remember what happened next. My memory skips to feeling his skin and him on top of me, rough kisses, at first I thought “okay way too rough of a kiss” then he put his hand around my neck (I think?) and he grabbed me hard and I adored it

Clothes off feeling him and it was, ideal

I say we can’t have sex and he says that’s ok

TW rated R content ~

I climbed down and sucked his dick and he had the sweetest sounding moans. He pulled me up and laid me down and shoved his dick in my mouth until he came

Also probably the least offensive cum I’ve swallowed?? Like as easy as water lmao maybe bc I was drunk

Woke up to him close by. The way he holds me, the way he feels, how gracefully he woke up and touched me

I never thought this would happen but I’ve been dreaming of it, awake and asleep, and now I wait and wonder if it’ll ever happen again

[ancient-melodies]

I remember being drunk af his body moving all over me it was so dope I was thinking “baww I can’t believe this is happening tomorrow me won’t be able to believe it either”

[ancient-melodies]

You say you’re ending it

After months of telling me it’s great

I say is it someone new?

And then you

Panic

You think I can’t see it

Then you say oh no

A loss for words

While a billion are exchanged

Between us

[ancient-melodies]

Boys and Girls

A thick, heavy weight

Legs spread wide

I’m trying to hide

The fact that I’m about to cry

Each noise a new lie

And I can’t back out now

I felt trapped under the cage

Of his shoulder blades

And he pounds and he pounds

Into me

Body so wide I can’t even see

Anything but the sweat on his back

And I think about the fact

That this is all they want

And if I don’t give in

I’m just taunting

Him and he’ll say I’m a tease

But holy shit please just leave

“I’ll see you later”

But I saw a girl instead

We laid drunk in my bed

Kissing

Not missing

A beat

Her hands were soft and tiny

As I led them across

My body

And I’ll think of the security

And the purity

Of her kiss

And I’ll miss

It always