This year has been one of the hardest years of my life. Emotionally & physically. Asking myself hard questions like who do I want to be? What do I need to do to be happy? What do I need to expel from my life that’s draining me? Who are the people who actually care about me? Realizing that I need to make changes to be truly be myself, unweighted, & continue growing. I’ve learned more about myself this past year then I have in my entire life. I’ve never been so honest with myself, so open to new thoughts/ideas, more willing then ever to grow, move forward & get to know my true self. Someone once mentioned to me that a lot of people live there entire lives asleep. I didn’t necessarily get what that meant at first. I’ve spent an entire year asking myself & the universe what DID that mean. I’ve learned a lot of people do a same cycle everyday, push them selves into society’s cookie cutter mold, push there dreams so far away that to them it will ONLY be a dream nothing more. Most of the time, they are so unhappy but do nothing to help themselves. But to be awake, to keep your eyes wide open; You have to be willing to try new things, new ideas, try something for someone else, you might like it. Break the mold, be more, want more for yourself as a person. Who cares if your a 30 year old gal who loves pink, dresses in ruffles, reads shojo manga, and dreams of being a mangaka/public figure/fashionista/YouTuber & more! I’m being me. I shouldn’t be expected to dress “normal”. Keep dreaming, dreams could change, they can come true, and most certainly inspire your entire life. That’s what this year has been for me, exploring & sorting out those needed changes to get one step closer to finding more of myself, life journey, & my dreams. A lot of life’s challenges had definitely fell into my lap this year. Which made it difficult. But they say that the universe doesn’t give you more then you can handle. Perhaps it’s preparing me. Maybe I went through all this to experience true happiness and if I survive there will be that rainbow at the end of this chapter. Reach for the sky, stars, & universe! 🌎🌙🌿 #angelicpara #universe #spirituality #awake #tryyourbest #thisisme https://www.instagram.com/p/BrwmJ-Gjylz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1oyxf44w1dvr7