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ix/shy .. 19 .. vent blog

[angeliiki]

“ the inmate loves the prison guard . . . “

☿ angeliki , 19 , ix/shy

☿ intersex tneumasc bi

☿ diagnosed did , bipolar 1 , anxiety , suspect autism , npd traits

☿ lifestyle landmine , goth , metalhead

☿ vent blog

[introspective-wounds]

psychotic breakdown in ms paint (2025)

[digital text art]

[angeliiki]

Nothing makes sense anymore. Ic ant make sense of the news. I cant make sense of lectures. I cant understand the world right now im so confused this is so confusing.

[angeliiki]

i had a dream, it was you.

[angeliiki]

No. it’s not you. Im scared.

[sweetashe]

notice !! :)

[angeliiki]

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[hellscorazon-deactivated2025120]

I’m so tired it hurts

What do you mean my bipolar is forever?? What do you mean?? I’m only 19 this shouldn’t be happening to me

What do you mean I’ll still have episodes even though I’m medicated??

What do you mean every winter I’ll feel like I’m losing my mind?

It’s permanent?? It’s really permanent?? For life????? What the fuck do I do I’m scared

No seriously for the rest of my life? I’ll feel this for as long as I live? There’s no escape?? Wtf do I do how do I live

[angeliiki]

I know you don’t forgive me. I don’t either.

[angeliiki]

All i am is a machine. I am a machine made of biological systems made of flesh that is made of even smaller systems. I am divine piloting a machine made of meat. Aren’t my wires gorgeous?

[angeliiki]

It’s so quiet

Too quiet.

The news shares horrors.

Like the ones i remember forgot

But the law doesn’t know what happened to me

No one knows what happened to me

[rocknrollvoice]

[angeliiki]

I can never be loved

[amity-candylust]

[angeliiki]

[angeliiki]

Just sit with it. You know the core of your guilt isn’t true remorse. You don’t care. You only care about the consequences. Don’t play dumb. You know what you’re doing.

[angeliiki]

My guilt does not purify me.