nikolaii

nikolaii, they / any. barely active

[angelkolaii]

do u like the ideal game? if u do thats so epic we need more fans </3

yes I do !!!

[solarstimz]

Self indulgent Sator moodboard!

[angelkolaii]

oh yeah I draw

[bombnails]

with everything going on in regards to the group of trans women who were recently attacked, it's not enough to post "black trans lives matter" and leave it at that. if you truly believe that, you need to be ensuring their survival by donating to and supporting black trans women directly.

Amari’s Transition Fund organized by Amari Ferguson

I’m Amari! I’m 22 years old and I’m a black trans woman. I’m also a 3D artist and I’ve been mak… Amari Ferguson needs your support for Amari

Help Free a Black Trans Sex Worker From Prison organized by Carman Spoto

Tsunami is an Afrolatinx transgender woman currently incarcerated in Wash… Carman Spoto needs your support for Help Free a Black Trans Sex

Secure Housing for Trans Femme organized by Javier Banks

I'm a Black, non-binary femme ballet dancer and yoga instructor. Already struggling in the… Javier Banks needs your support for Secure Housi

Jasiri's transition funds organized by Alex Jackson

Jasiri, a 16 y/o transgender girl, is looking to get out of an unaccepting household, where she… Alex Jackson needs your support for Jasiri'

Black trans women involved in hit & run organized by Raven Valentine

Hello everyone my name is Samathaa I’m a 25yr black trans women. I recently j… Raven Valentine needs your support for Black trans women invo

Housing for Lady O

Beloved NYC abolitionist, freedom fighter, and tireless comrade in the struggle for Black trans liberation, Lady O, is fundraising for long-

Help with teeth extraction and veneer fix organized by Devin Burnett

I was a survivor of a hate crime. Got hit in the face with a baseball bats in … Devin Burnett needs your support for Help with teeth extract

Help Black Trans Woman Escape Abuse organized by Rebecca J Nelson

We are raising funds to help a Black trans woman escape her abuser. Her abuser h… Rebecca J Nelson needs your support for Help Black Trans

Bbychakra’s Art Fund organized by Christian Mckoy

It feels strange writing this. I try not to ask for help because we’re all struggling right now b… Christian Mckoy needs your support for Bb

Help Sai Start their New Life organized by Sai Land

hi!! i'm sai, a 20 year old black trans person who just recently moved out of a toxic environme… Sai Land needs your support for Help Sai St

black trans women please feel free to add your links below as well!

[bombnails]

Please keep sharing and donating if you can, only 2 out of 10 funds have reached their goals as of September 21, 2020!

[mrsswick]

[uglysapphics]

let fat girls be princesses. let fat girls be goddesses draped in translucent gowns. let fat girls wear pastels and miniskirts and high-waisted shorts and crop tops. let fat girls wear leather boots and spike up their hair or shave it off completely. let fat girls be fat girls in their own way without any unnecessary limitations.

[rslashrats]

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[angelkolaii]

[jinxz-deactivated20210223]

i dont think tme people get, or ever will get, how deeply affecting the experience of transmisogyny is. will elaborate later.

[jinxz-deactivated20210223]

okay I drank more coffee and I’m ready to get into this.

so transmisogyny is the intersection of transphobia and misogyny, which should be obvious but some people don’t like to listen. its another layer of oppression past the transphobia that transmascs have. every transfemme I’ve talked to and befriended has had some experience with feeling predatory for having feelings for someone (generally affects trans wlw more) or infantilized themselves and acted very gentle and passive in order to not feel as though they’re predatory. (I’m still working through the first one and used to deal with the latter)

we’re taught to be afraid of our own bodies, especially our genitals. it’s as if we’re monsters for being women born with penises, as if that in itself makes us gross. there’s a reason that all the transphobic bathroom arguments come down to a “man dressed as a woman” preying on women. this goes a million times as far for black trans women, who have the added intersection of blackness. that paints them as even more masculine and aggressive despite how far that is from the truth.

I developed my eating disorder because i felt like my body was too big and masculine, that i would look more feminine if i were skinnier. thats obviously something cis women face, but its not the same for us. we’re told we have male bodies and that we need to make ourselves smaller to fit in with “real women”.

we’re excluded from women’s spaces for “not having the same experiences” or “invading” or whatever other transphobic reterric they want to use to allow trans men in but not us. we’re alienated from trans/LGBT spaces due to the heavy focus on transmasc and tme nonbinary people in discussions of transitioning. for every 20 resources on how to bind and its dangers i get on my dash, I see 1 or 2 on tucking and its dangers. for every 20 binder giveaways i see I’ve never seen a gaff giveaway. I bet some of you don’t even know what a gaff is. (its what we use to tuck)

the amount of times I’ve seen jokes about men in dresses, the amount of times i’ve heard words like femboy and tranny thrown around by tme people as if they’re not harming us by doing so sickens me. every time you make genderbent fan art, draw a guy looking embarassed in a dress, or make a femboy friday joke, you are contributing to the stigma that follows us wherever we go.

I’m probably gonna lose followers for this and get told in the notes “I would reblog this but your tone is so aggressive :/” but I DON’T CARE. WE USED OUR POLITE VOICES AND YOU DIDN’T LISTEN. BLACK TRANS WOMEN BUILT THIS COMMUNITY AND NOW THEY’RE DYING ON THE FUCKING STREETS. WE AS A GROUP, ARE BEING TURNED AWAY FROM HOMELESS SHELTERS AND BEING JOKED ABOUT ON THIS AWFUL WEBSITE. IT’S OUR BLOOD ON YOUR HANDS.

[level20lesbian]

Not to mention the fact that people barely understand anything about our transitions. I almost never see any kind of informative posts about what to expect from hormones/surgery/etc., and even the doctors that prescribe my meds hardly seem to know anything about them. The six page long informed consent document I had to sign to get my hormones listed like a hundred possible effects, all of which came with a “this may or may not happen we’re just kinda guessing” disclaimer, and I’ve STILL found TONS of things that no one EVER told me while they were busy stressing over and over that I’d probably be sterile after a while.

Did you know it’s not uncommon to lose a shoe size or two? Or to shrink a couple inches because your entire pelvis rotates after a while (which hurts like a motherfucker, I might add)? Or that it’s very possible that you’ll suffer some of the symptoms of PMS every month even though you can’t menstruate? Did you know your tastes in food might change because your sense of smell changes? Probably not, because barely anybody researches or published information on this stuff. And who even fucking knows what you can expect after surgery because hearsay reports vary wildly and there’s basically nothing out there.

It gets so much harder to stay healthy when it’s so hard to find information on how our bodies function.

[jinxz-deactivated20210223]

reblog this version actually

[transmasckurapika]

A terf posted this calling it "gaslighting" and "terrible" but I thought it was sweet so I'm reposting it from them.

[jabberwockypie]

People really do just throw around “gaslighting” to mean “making me consider how my actions impact other people” and “telling me things I don’t like hearing” and “calling me on behavior that harms other people”, huh?

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and go to hell

[angelkolaii]

<3 I agree

[billciipher]

Click on it twice. These are your two super powers.

[joyceanfartboner-deactivated202]

everyone else always seems to fucking get cool shit and i always get like “gel manipulation” and “using dust along w/ your fighting style”

[vrumblr]

Vampire immunity and pain embodiment.

[angelkolaii]

insanity inducing and devine demonic weaponry,,,

man no wonder im a lilling kinnie /hj

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[angelkolaii]

omg it's the oldest post

[gibberishquestion]

so here’s your key, there’s your room, your murder will be starting soon

[freegameplanet]

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[angelkolaii]

honestly I want to play this

[canonlgbtcharacters]

The canon LGBT+ character of the day is

Master Frown from Unikitty!, who is MLM!

[canonlgbtcharacters]

you heard it here from the unikitty! director herself! master frown and brock are in love!

[angelkolaii]

AS AN MF KINNIE THIS IS VERY SWAGGY

[hrtsuit]

i’m gonna be honest. i DONT like how you walk. i DONT like how you talk. i DONT like how your face disintegrates into chalk. you have an AWFUL wife. you have a MEANINGLESS job. she criticizes you for having NO CONFIDENCE

[transstuffandmore]

Please Reblog is Your Blog is Safe for Non-Binary People.

[clinicallyinsan-blog]

I non binaryyy *squeals*

[the-little-fairy-garden]

I’m not non-binary but i am an androgynous trans boy. also everyone is welcome on my blog, as long as they fit my DNI

[angelkolaii]

:D