[angerxlight]

what do i do with all this anger

[angerxlight]

hmmm…

[angerxlight]

what do i do with all this anger

[weltenwellen]

Alejandra Pizarnik, tr. by Yvette Siegert, from “Psychopathology Ward”, Extracting the Stone of Madness: Poems 1962 - 1972

[saintsebastiensbf]

Emily Dickinson, The Selected Poems of Emily Dickinson

[angerxlight]

im thinking to myself, what do i want from this life? main answer has been for the longest happiness, but thats asking for a lot, so at the least just be content. next is what will bring me more happiness or what will help with my unhappiness. next this is people make me so unhappy, or maybe the problem is i attract the wrong people and things/situations with them lead me to unhappiness. but does that mean i should just be alone? i have never been bothered by my own company and the “loneliness” at the end of the day i know my company is the best company. but idk im rambling and i cant clear my head at all. ill come back to this later

[mournfulroses]

Nikita Gill, from Your Heart is the Sea: Poems; "The Anguish," originally published in 2018

[kosmogrl]

[mournfulroses]

Anne Truitt, from a diary entry featured in Daybook: The Journal of an Artist

[weltenwellen]

Maya C. Popa, from “Spring”, Wound Is the Origin of Wonder

[weltenwellen]

Mary Oliver, “Don’t Hesitate”, Devotions

[dissosiation]

i wish she knew how often shes in my dreams. i also wish she would leave me alone but alas

[heavensghost]

words from merry Christmas, please don’t call by bleachers!

[angerxlight]

after cutting off everyone i thought this was it. there isnt anything or anyone else that can hurt me now, but now here I am hurting again for letting someone new in and back to this hurting. is this the human existence? everyone hurting you or is it just me attracting those who hurt me?

this is what i dont get.

[artandchocolate]

“Letters from Medea”- Salma Deera

[papayajuan2019]

emotional neglect didnt even affect me that much. it was the being born inherently without value that did most of the work

[angerxlight]

in the end the thing i want the most and nothing more is just to see my kitty again, I wish I could just live a life of just them and me. I wish I couldve been better for them. Nothing would compare to them. The absolute sadness I feel for not having her anymore tares me.

[relativefic]

I don't want to be me anymore, lord, help me be better

1 Fydoror Dostoevsky "the insulted and humiliated" // 2 Rainer Maria Rilke Rilke's book of hours:love poems to God // 3 Ethel Cain strangers // 4 Jihyun Yun some are always hungry // 5 icon for hire happy hurts // 6 Alice Notley from in the pine: poems; "in the pines" // 7 Edward Hopper interior, model reading (1925) // 8 Julien Baker Guthrie // 9 Clementine Von Radics dream girl "sweet the sound" // 10 Bao Phi Thousand star hotel "vocabulary" // 11 unknown // 12 Phoebe Bridgers funeral // 13 Yves Olade belovéd // 14 unknown // 15 Julien Baker everybody does // 16 Anne Sexton a self-portrait in letters // 17 pat the bunny I'm not a good person // 18 unknown // 19 Julien Baker sour breath

[relativefic]

study in self hatred

Searows house song // Jody Chan sick (via @geryone ) // Iain S. Thomas i wrote this for you // Lucy Dacus My mother & i // Kaven Akbar “calling a wolf a wolf” // unknown // Fernando Pessoa a little larger than the entire universe // Julien baker vanishing point // Lisa Marie Basile i put the coffin out to sea // boygenius souvenir