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[annalisefm]

The worst non-apology I have seen and looks like they spent more time on the theme than on giving a proper apology. The ‘real world’ comment really rubs me the wrong way as it’s a dismissal of people’s feelings because it’s online I-

[annalisefm]

are you going to show your face cowards or are you going to pretend like nothings happened, you haven’t hurt peoples feelings and start a cycle again? @thevillagerp ??

[lee-minhoo-deactivated20210901]

Minho was sitting on a bench under a silver maple, with paper sheets all around him. He was trying to write something new so bad, but he didn’t have any inspiration. His life wasn’t exactly boring, but kinda senseless. He watched romantic movies, going to the theater, but nothing.. Now he was writing a sad song, after watching a movie, but it felt flat to him- like the usual pop songs, he wanted something different… Suddenly, all the papers with the lyrics flew away by the wind at someone behind him…“Oh no my stupid lyrics!"he shouted, almost like he cared, but for a fact he didn’t even tried to catch them, they were bad anyway.

[annalisefm]

      it had been very difficult for annalise to concentrate on work as she was spiralling but it was even harder to do it in her own ‘home’ despite the several unoccupied rooms - why anyone would need five bedrooms was beyond her. with her hot-spot on, the woman was focusing on clearing out some nice and easy emails so that she could bill for the hours spent and get some work movement going again. annalise had plenty of work to be doing but hadn’t been strict with herself and had put it off for far too long. the last thing the woman was expecting was to be whacked in theface by a sheet of paper. managing to pick one up, she held it towards the other. “i believe this is yours.”

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finnxharrington​:

——

Of course Finn knew exactly who she was, but anything other a name and a barebones recount of the evening at the bar was all he got from Malachi. He didn’t know that they had even seen each other again, although Finn guessed it wasn’t really any of business. “We haven’t,” Finn opened the beer bottle in his hand with an opener before he placed it down to shake her extended hand. “Finn” he introduced himself, shaking her hand before leaning against the island bench. “How did you get roped into coming tonight?” 

        it was more a formal introduction than anything else as it appeared their circle was becoming more interlinked since she had become involved with malachi. she did like him but it was still early days and she had no intention of messing up his life with her presence. the questions carried on coming her way and caused annalise to shift on her feet. “he invited me and i said yes. that’s usually how it works.” the woman was indeed being stand-offish with the other. annalise should have expected to be ‘quizzed’ by malachi’s friends but she never thought it would come so early.

[annalisefm]

truth + are you happy?

"if we're being honest, no."

[annalisefm]

TRUTH + what's your favorite thing about malachi?

"he's charming but not in the arrogant sense. the awkward silences and the fact he's a writer is very interesting. it doesn't necessarily intrigue me but everything about him feels honest. i don't think he's lying about anything. that kid of makes me feel bad because i didn't tell him that i was married before sleeping with him. i used to commend myself for being honest but lately i don't feel that way at all. malachi is a good man, i like him but that doesn't mean i'm right or good for him. i’ve already not come clean about a lot of things in the fear he’ll reject me, deem i can’t handle his life and walk away. i know i need to be honest but the more secrets i keep, the harder it is to come clean. it’s ridiculous for me to say because i have spent half a month throwing myself at my soon-to-be ex husband. i’m desperate but it’s not worth wrecking malachi bloom’s life as a result of it.”

@malachibloom

[annalisefm]

truth + if you only had one day left to live, how would you choose to spend your time and who would you spend it with?

"it would be a visit to ella, the visit i've avoided. i'd tell my ex i loved him and ring malachi to tell him he made me feel alive for a brief minute. then i'd tell armande that i love her so, so, so much. i don't know what else i can say."

@armandestmartin

[annalisefm]

Truth serum - would you rather be powerful or loved

"love, that's all i want."

[brittsmemes]

TRUTH SERUM TIME ! 

SEND  ‘ TRUTH ‘  +  A  QUESTION  AND  MY  MUSE  HAS  TO  ANSWER.  NO  LYING  ALLOWED.

[rubaayi]

do you wish you were seeing somebody

a therapist 

[finnxharrington-deactivated2021]

@annalisefm​

The housewarming was coming along nicely, although Finn had spent the majority of his time trying to avoid the people who may not be so ecstatic to see him there. Feeling as though he’d probably just about done his due diligence here, having spoken to the people that did like him, had a few drinks and gave his gift to the happy couple. Just about to get some fresh air out on the balcony, he spotted his friend Mal enter the party with a woman. The same woman Finn realized from the bar with Mal a few weeks ago. Swallowed up in conversation immediately, Finn watched as the woman he knew as Annalise excused herself and made her way to the make-shift bar near the kitchen island to fix herself a drink. “Don’t tell me Mal has left you to fend for yourself in a room of strangers,” Finn smiled as he reached to grab himself a beer from the stocked bar fridge.

[annalisefm]

    it had been a while since annalise had been to one of these kind of events but at least it was down to earth. so many of the gatherings she had attended in the past were for those of high society and whilst she could entertain them, she never felt comfortable. it was strange being with someone else, a date, if it could be called one. despite not knowing him for vey long, annalise really liked malachi. he was kind, considerate, a little quiet but he always seemed to say the right things to her and that was a change. she poured out some wine and looked back at the other. “i’m sure he’ll be back shortly.” it was difficult not to make a comment about how she could fend for herself but if she was being honest, that wasn’t entirely true. one of her unhealthy habits was that she leaned on people a little too much and mal was slowly becoming part of that group. “i don’t believe we’ve been formally introduced. I’m annalise.” the woman offered out her hand.

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malachibloom​:

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he knows that look, the hint of surprise that graces peoples features when he voices his career. watching the strong arch of annalise’s brow hike, the corner of his lips began to turn, spilling out a gentle bout of laughter as he glances back down to the floor. “no need to apologise.” there never was with him, “i get that a lot.” he can almost feel her gaze drifting up and down his frame, imprinting on his skin, as if the woman had reach out to touch him with her own hands. it raises the hairs on the back of his neck. catching her gaze as it rises, malachi finds enough confidence within him in effort to hold onto it. in a moment of reprieve from the build up of stress between his shoulder blades, malachi inspects her in return. noting how elegantly her hair rested on her shoulders, weightless, framing her features the journalist had to fight not to stare out. there was beauty, then there were those who were truly transfixing. eva was one of them, he remembered first catching a glimpse of her in the middle of a class, staring until she walked over and demanding conversation if he was going to gape at her like that. they had become fast friends by the end of the class. 

“are we ??” is that a smirk that he sports ?? subtly shifting forward in his seat, in an astonishing act of courage. “i spend my days with the written word… i guess it’s only natural it’d be easy for to be lost for words. especially when presented with pretty women who kiss you at bars.” who was this man, making sly jokes ?? surely it wasn’t malachi. of course, the devious tough doesn’t last long, discerning a flush of redness building up in his cheeks. 

unable to help himself but mirror her smile, dark orbs linger on the lips that had moments ago graced his. wishing he had of been able to savour the moment when caught in his state of shock, would he be lucky enough to repay the favour ?? the journalist runs his hand over his beard, before reaching out for his beer. anything to occupy his hands, hyper-fixating on seeming relaxed, disguising the nerves itching at the ends of his fingertips. “a translator ??” his features peak, suddenly the beer already half way towards his mouth doesn’t seem so interesting anymore. “how many languages do you speak ??” he understood yiddish, and a fair amount of hebrew thanks to his mother, however to malachi it didn’t seem that interesting much of an interesting skill to note in conversation.

     “it’s always the quiet ones that are more interesting.” this time it was a smile that encompassed the woman’s features. it had been her experience yet she had never been interested. annalise had ended up with an arrogant, older male, and that was clear to everyone who knew her that wasn’t what suited her. the attentiveness had lacked where she needed it the most and he had forced her to take sole responsibility for being a parent and indeed the loss of their child because he couldn’t express himself correctly. his daughter had died too, he has a right to feel this way, it was a frequent yet toxic stance she had on the unpleasantries that were exchanged.

     for a moment, she forgot all about that as she was charmed. annalise laughed at his joke, one because it was funny and two, because her bizarre action was referenced. to most, the woman reeked of desperation. it was an attempt to stop herself from sabotaging herself further by not sleeping with him. it was false of her to present herself in such a way that wasn’t a true reflection but in this moment, she needed another focus. she had to laugh at his observation about her. while she hadn’t meant to come on so strongly, it was still an odd way of getting acquainted with someone. perhaps she wanted to feel something with someone different. it wasn’t a healthy distraction and would fix nothing long term but it did take her mind off everything. “i find it hard to believe that pretty women don’t kiss you at bars constantly.”

          “a translator and interpreter.” the woman chuckled. “i want to say...five, but please don’t quote me on that.” with each word, annalise found herself leaning in closer towards him. “yes, i used to do a lot of travelling. saw a lot of places and met all different kinds of people.” it was like that was now in the long distant past. annalise had tried once again after ella’s death but it ended in a meltdown; she wasn’t ready for it, not when her sense of self was so shaky.

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athcnaharris​:​

she had an off day from teaching yoga that she decided to pick up a double shift at the diner and she forgot just how slow it was between lunch and dinner and she hated it and started to regret even offering to pick up the shift. after wiping down the counter for what seemed like the hundredth time she heard the bell chime at the door as someone entered calling out a soft “hello!” before looking over her shoulder to see the figure moving toward the quiet little section that she had claimed hers the moment she got in. sharing a look with one of the cooks when she noticed the saddened expression on the woman that had come in before they motioned for her to go check on her. she had always been one of the ones who got sent to if she could help in any way. 

picking up a menu and utensils she let out a breath slowly taking her time even walking past the woman’s table before circling back when she had realized she was in fact crying. she was just about to speak before she she heard the other’s request nodding a bit setting the menu and napkin rolled utensils down on the table, “uh yeah of course.. i will be right back with that.” she said softly clearing her throat just as she turned to go and grab exactly what the woman wanted. she shared a look with another waitress before she shrugged filling up a cup with coffee and setting it on a saucer before moving back to the table grabbing a small dish of creamers just in case as she passed them. once back at the table she placed the cup down slowly clearing her throat, “um was there anything else you needed?” she questioned before she reached over for more napkins before she placed them down on the table just in case, “i can also get you some water… if you need to help calm down?”

           it was only her mistake that she kept going back to him despite the multitude of warnings she had been given. the realisation that she had been wrong had upset her, everything that had happened had upset her and she felt like she had nowhere to go. the isolated feeling was not one she liked and when she blamed herself, it felt worse. right now, she would have rather ball her eyes out in a random diner in the city, she didn’t even know where she was, was better than being at home. she would continue to tell herself that for her own sake. in times like this she would have called armande but they were fighting and the other woman would only disapprove of her actions further. the other had been right and she was unable to fact that when she felt this way.

              annalise felt sorry for the server that had come up to her. she kept her voice quiet, almost at a whisper because projecting would only cause the flood gates to completely open. she would sit quietly until the other returned, holding her head in her hands and feeling nauseous about what she had done. annalise hadn’t done anything so wrong but the adverse reaction to the most recent events that had transpired was proof something was gravely wrong. looking up at the young woman, she shook her head. this time when she spoke, it was barely a whisper. ‘i don’t want to be any trouble.’ she mouthed, no sound came out. annalise held her eyes in her hands before pushing them up to her forehead, her shoulders rising as she tried to take a deep breath. “water’s a good idea.”

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jackscn-rhodes​:

      “that’s not what i asked, but okay,” he mused, turning away from her and leaning forward into the bar. his arms folded over one another, and he leaned forward into his elbows, squinting at one of the bottles behind the counter as he focused his short attention on the bottles there and attempted to read the label. “i get it. trying to be all mysterious and the like.” if she was going to read him, he was going to read her back - albeit he was being playful, teasing her, rather than making astute observations. whatever her reasons were for keeping her motives to herself, he wasn’t going to press. he himself tended to be relatively reserved when it came to sharing information about himself. boundaries were important, whether he was flirting with her or not.

her next words were met with a moment of silence, and he tilted his head to look back at her, now. his gaze narrowed, and he found himself curiously studying her features. it was a strange game she was playing at, he decided to himself, drawing his hand up to rest against the side of his face. he genuinely couldn’t tell if she was annoyed by his smug compliments, or was inviting him to continue. touching his tongue to his lower lip, he turned his attention back towards his drink, raising it to finish off what was left. “you’re good at that, you know. the playing hard to get thing.” he hummed, cocking an eyebrow - inviting her to challenge him. “you almost had me fooled.” 

     “i’m not trying to be mysterious.” the woman was quick to go on the defensive, even though jackson was right. she didn’t want a divorce and had the hope that her husband would come around and preserve what was left of their family was an idea annalise didn’t want to let go of. he didn’t want her but she kept on trying and each time it didn’t work, she lost a little more of herself. it wasn’t so bad in the beginning because she had him. that quickly changed when he wanted to file for a divorce and with very little friends of her own, the woman felt alienated. she had been at the right place at the right time to meet him and they got on so well that she followed him back to new york city. they had moved far too quickly but it had still lead to ten years together.

    considering she carried on throwing herself at a man that didn’t want her, annalise aldridge was not one that played hard to get. jackson reminded her of him in more ways than one  and that interrupted her now new usual thought pattern which was the flirt, kiss and see if she got anything in return. when matched with someone that reminded her of him, she couldn’t do it yet if her husband walked in right now, she wouldn’t hesitate but to wrap her arms around him. annalise couldn’t let go. “i’m not trying hard to get, i’m sorry. i-, you just remind me of someone that i love very much.” that must have been the most honest thing she had said since he had sat down. annalise had never been someone to lie but recently, she couldn’t help herself. one lie would come after another and they were very inconvincing so she wouldn’t get away with it; she hated that she felt like she had to lie to everyone. annalise was still lying to herself. “it’s...yeah, it’s complicated. i’m complicated.”

[brittsmemes]

TRUTH SERUM TIME ! 

SEND  ‘ TRUTH ‘  +  A  QUESTION  AND  MY  MUSE  HAS  TO  ANSWER.  NO  LYING  ALLOWED.

[annalisefm]

5, 25, 31, 69 💀

05: What is your relationship status?

"i'm still married pending my signature on divorce papers.”

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

i miss my daughter a lot. i can’t describe how much. i should have been there for her more, i should have been on time. there was a period when i could just shrug it off as if nothing had happened, still attend work events with people complimenting how well i was dealing with it all. i tried so hard to keep it at bay but when my husband said he wanted a divorce, it sruck me that i was losing everything. i miss our family. i miss my husband a lot and my best friend really hates that i do. i want him back but i don’t think it’s going to happen with how he’s treated me recently.”

31: Does somebody love you?

“i thought my husband loved me but after he practically threw me out after we had sex the other day, i don’t think i was right. a part of me still hopes he does because he’s the closest thing to family i have over here. although we’ve fallen out recently, i do believe that armande loves me, in a platonic sense. i’m not sure what i’ll do if she doesn’t.” @armandestmartin

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

“yes, i do.”

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22, 33, 44

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

“i-i had a child, a daughter. her name was ella. my husband and i did try for another as we didn’t want her to be an only child but the result of that was disappointing. ella died and it’s only just started to really hit me recently and it hurts, a lot. i would have another if i had the opportunity to but my age would concern me - i don’t know how i’d feel about being nearly sixty when they finish high school. i’m aware it all sounds a bit ridiculous taking into account the state my life is right now but i loved that litte girl so, so much and miss being her mother.”

33: Do you have trust issues? 

“when it comes to new people yes, especially now. however, with those people who i feel most drawn to, i think i trust far too easily. the main issue is that i don’t trust myself anymore, not like i used to, and that terrifies me.”

44 (there is no 40 numbers on the meme, woops)54: Is cheating ever okay?

“no.”