Hinamiâs scene in this chapter really showed me how sheâs such a precious gem, taking care of Akira when she was in coma despite harboring all these thoughts and sorrows by herself.Â
But the last time Banjou asked Hinami about Akira, she pretended to be okay and said that she didnât mind saving Akira since Akira was important to Kaneki. Hinami goes along with the mission to save Akira along with everyone else to support them in saving her. But all this while, Hinami is obviously not okay and she is obviously bothered by saving Akira because no matter how much sheâs that nice, sweet girl that brings smiles to everyone, she still has sorrows that sheâs carrying in silence. Hinami probably doesnât want to burden anyone into worrying about her so sheâs keeps this from most people.
And the only person (so far) that sheâs willing to show this vulnerable side to is Ayato.Â
Hinami made it a point to bring him far from the base to talk to him because she wanted it to be in private, between the two of them. And out of all places, Ishida decided on the 19th ward old Aogiri base, the place we first got to learn how close and important their relationship is. Weâre brought back to the place Ayatoâs rebellion against Tatara/Aogiri starts, where we learn about their first meeting, where the Cochlea raid saw its roots. Iâm betting this place is supposed to be some kind of Ayahina Mecca, but weâll see.Â
This scene shows so much about how deep their relationship is. She isnât close to Ayato just because he reminds her of Touka. Toukaâs around now so Hinami doesnât need a substitute for her anymore. Hinamiâs close to Ayato because he cares for her and always supports and protects her. Sheâs with everyone now. The Ayahina conversation could have happened with anyone now that Hinami is surrounded by the people she loves. But itâs not Kaneki, Touka, Banjou or Tsukiyama she lets to see her at her weakest. Itâs Ayato. Because even if Ayahina isnât romantic, it still is one of the purest, healthiest and most mutually supportive relationship in this series. She knows that Ayato has seen her breakdowns before and despite his ideas on weakness and strength, he has always supported and stood by her. And to me, I think that out of everyone, Ayatoâs her best source of comfort right now. Because when she was at the darkest point of her life, when she was all alone in Aogiri, she found a glimpse of light in him and itâs something sheâs still holding on to even now.
And just like the other time, he doesnât judge or complain about her being weak for getting emotional and crying. He just silently comforts her and stands by her. He lets her voice everything out and cry to her heartâs content because there is a chance she might go back to bearing everything in silence where they go back to the base. Not to mention, sheâs going to eventually have to face Akira. And I think Ayatoâs expression here is precious as well. I want it plastered all over my walls.Â
Ayahina brings out the best in each other. Their relationship is like a gem among all relationships in TG, because they bring out the best in each other and is based on mutual support and care. And the best thing is, this relationship came out of two badly damaged, yet very different, teenagers who met in a terrorist organization which prided itself on strength and murders.
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