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Ranting to the internet

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

This is my ranting blog for warning, just a place to put my thoughts in hopes that maybe someone can relate and find comfort in not being alone

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

I want to walk, walk as far and for as long as I can, I want to go places, I want leave this city I want to be in nature, to see and experience things myself

That’s what I mean when I say I want to walk until I can’t anymore

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

I feel a big disconnect between who I am and who I feel I am, a lot of it I think is my appearance, it’s not that I think I’m ugly I just don’t feel or see me the way I am now

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

I have this habit of making my thoughts seem profound in my own head, like if I where to write them down and they where to be read it would mean something and connect with people, it gives it reason, and I need it to have reason otherwise, what’s the point

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

It’s strange not understanding romantic love, I see my friend describe how their partner taught them that love can be unconditional, and I truly am so happy that they found that, but there’s that feeling of ‘did I not do that?’

Perhaps there is a difference between romantic and platonic love that I will simply never fully understand

I worry my love might be lesser, even though I pour all of me into it, simply because it isn’t romantic.

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

I love my dad, however today he said “You’re gonna have to force yourself not to be so picky eating” I already feel so guilty all the time, I’m not doing it on purpose, I don’t want to be difficult.

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

I don’t know what to do, there’s so little food in the house food and even less I can stomach, I don’t have the money to keep covering food costs for my family. I’ve been so hungry :(

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

My alternate tumblr (here) and instagram accounts are doing gods work in holding up my metal health

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

There is so much guilt around food for me, and I can’t really do anything until the main source of the guilt goes away

Shout out to my sister though she does what she can to help

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

This has been one depressing birthday

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

Airplane food has it out for anyone with arfid, genuinely almost threw up 👍👍

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

I’m on vacation so the horrors have subsided for now

Being in a different country makes me realize how crap public transport in back home

[tetitasdelimon]

top 5 horror movies

-having a job

-not having a job

-applying for jobs

-the job market

-the concept of working my whole life

[bashcrandicoot]

“I don’t know what my goals are, no. Thanks for asking.”

[bashcrandicoot]

50k on this. If anything i’d like everyone reblogging this to know ive read the same sentiment over and over again. I read pretty much every reblogs tags and it both saddens me and fills me with this strange sort of comfort. So you are not alone! Neither am I

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A zine about tinder if it was good

Thanks for liking this one tho everybody

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

I severely struggle with knowing what I want to eat as well as arfid restricting my food

My family is mostly understanding that I just can’t bring myself to eat a lot of food, but god do they get upset and frustrated with me when I don’t know what I want to eat,

I feel so guilty about it, I’m not trying to be difficult I just don’t know

It sent me into a very bad meltdown today cause of all of this

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

Worst part about having appointments where I need to be put together is I know it’ll look bad and rude if I wear my baseball cap but MAN that is my eye contact shield and my comfort item

[anonymous-more-like-androgynous]

I’ll be doing fine and then remember my best friend of 13 years is moving away

We we’re inseparable as kids and now I’m basically never going to see him :(((((