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[anonymous-vent]

Im homeless. My family doesn’t want me anymore, and as of now I’m living with my bf until I can find a place of my own. I love my bf and I think he loves me too. He’s the most supportive person in my life and he’s like family to me. But something that makes me feel the most dread is the fact he told me if I can’t sleep with him, he’ll leave me. I can’t have sex, my body physically can’t handle it. I think it’s from trauma. The fact that the one person in my life who made me feel what a real family is like for the first time doesn’t want me because of my body, is slowly killing me. I pray to God that I’ll have this figured out and heal. If you’re reading this, please pray for me as well.

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[anonymous-vent]

i'm a mess

i'm selfish and sad

i'm supposed to be more happy for them but it's so hard

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[anonymous-vent]

I wish my parents were a little more understanding. All of our little "fights" (them talking down to me) stem from things that aren't really my god damn fault. I just wanted to eat, and I was supposed to be making my brother milk. I just cant get motivation to be hygienic, and im disgusting. I just wanted to shower, and I'm wasting our money. I just wanted to draw, and I should be doing something productive. I just wanted to have fun, and I'm talking things too far. I'm too loud, too annoying. Too much. And I try to be more palatable, but when I'm too relaxed it slips out. I just wanna be quiet forever and never bother anyone again

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[anonymous-vent]

I was outed around nearly a year ago now and I still can't come to terms with it. I began self harming after it happened and I couldn't stop so I self harmed every day after I came home from school. I even started bringing a blade to school because I was so addicted to it. Recently I was sa'd by my autistic classmate and my feelings were put down and people blamed it on the fact I am gay and that I deserved it. I don't know what to do anymore. It feels like its all my fault and I don't know what to do. I'm scared to go to school and honestly scared to keep on living.

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[anonymous-vent]

My mom has always told me, whenever I get too irritated or mad, that I sound like my father. I have a “control problem.” I’m neurodivergent and I have misophonia. I have both my mom and my dad’s anger and I hate that I do. I cant control how I naturally react and I hate it. My father was really abusive, mentally, emotionally, and physically. It hurts so much when she tells me I sound like him, or I act like him. I don’t know who to talk to, because I rant to my friends in the moment, then I feel shitty about ranting to them. It’s very often that I believe I am the shittiest person and the toxic friend. I can’t ask my friends for reassurance because that’s just annoying and they can always lie.

My mom always made sure that I know she loves me, but shit just fucking hurts. I hold myself in the same regard as my father, and I hate him.

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[anonymous-vent]

I recently finished school and now I just feel kinda useless? Like for the past couple of years I have been working towards a goal, working towards leaving my school and now I have nothing. People said this would be the longest summer holiday of my life but I hate it I hate it. Sometimes I would give anything to be back in school attending my stupid lessons because back then everything had a point. Now there's just nothing.

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[anonymous-vent]

i miss my bf so much, and my system friends ;-;

and i've been having realllyyyyy bad days physically, so not having them around is even harder ;-;

idk what all they're going through, i can't know until any of them who care about me enough is back ;~;

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[anonymous-vent]

i miss my boyfriend so much

it's been over a month since we last had time together

he's part of a system and if he's been out sibce then, it hasn't been long enough for us-time :((

i miss him so much, there is so much i want to say and do with him

ik he could be back literally any time, on any day, it's tough not knowing when he'll be back though ;^;

fortunately, another alter who is familiar with me was there recently and he updated me a bit and talked with me and was here for a couple of days but he left and the thing is, he's rarely out/out long enough to 'say hey' and hE was here before my bf was back and other friends, it was bittersweet if that's a suitable word

i miss them

i miss Him

seconds , minutes and hours without them always suck and when it turns into days, weeks, months without word from them it reallyyyy fucking sucks and hurts. but they've always come back eventually so i know i'll/they'll/we'll be okay :'>

ahhhhhh

i'm never upset with them or the others of their system during absenses, i understand, i do get upset lots bc of the situations though, having to wait, never being able to be 100% sure they will be able to come back, tuff stuff

have i mentioned i miss them? fuuuuudge

:((((((((((

fortunately i have screenshots n such :)))))))))))))))

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[anonymous-vent]

How can you so earnestly try convince me, try state it as a fact that you care about me when you've never once made an attempt to show that?

How can you confidently say that I'm choosing to believe you don't care about me when I'm the one who always has to reach out first, to make plans, to check up on how you're doing?

You can't point the finger at me just because I've now decided to take action in removing people who don't give a shit about me from my life.

Check yourself before you bring the truths you don't want to face to my front door.

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[anonymous-vent]

You say its all my fault. You accuse me of not wanting to make changes myself. Have you ever considered that maybe I never had a choice in the first place?

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[anonymous-vent]

I think about you in every little thing I do. Every single action throughout my day is linked to thoughts about you somehow. Thats how much I love you.

But now that you no longer want me anymore, I don't know how to do anything without constantly being on the verge of tears. Even so much as listening to music or cleaning the house, I'm constantly nauseous because I can't help but think about you still.

Surprisingly, I don't find myself wishing we never met. But I just dont know how to constantly act like everything is normal when I'm sick with the thought of you.

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[anonymous-vent]

This time I'll build my walls so high nobody will ever be able to hurt me again.

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[anonymous-vent]

The pressure is just unbearable and crushing and I don't know how much more I can take.

Everything is just going wrong and I'm headed nowhere in life. I have nobody to call on nights like this anymore. I couldn't save the one person I could fully let down my walls around. I promised that I'd keep on going but I dont know how mich more of this I can take.

I've never had anyone there for me that I could really call my own. I had to let go of the one person I could still count on - they need to get better and I don't want to fight to save things because my state would only hold them back. I go isolated for months at a time because I'm so far away from everyone and it hurts so much. They tell me they miss me but nobody ever reaches out to check up.

I'm so so tired. I'm trying but I'm so tired. I honestly don't want to continue on but I'm too much of a coward to leave everything behind. I just don't want to continue on like this. I keep trying to hold on and find little reasons to keep fighting but even that's becoming hard. I feel so pathetic and I don't know what to do anymore. I just want everything to stop.

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[anonymous-vent]

I think it just hit me that I don't have any friends. I know people. I'm close to people. But I don't have an actual circle of friends that everyone else seems to have. Those people that are always around that everyone describes as their second family. I don't have that.

I used to, years ago. I had that circle, those people, that feeling of being close and knowing each other. But I moved back to my hometown and just like that they're gone. Sometimes here and there I'll get a text but those last minutes and they're gone again. I hear about how they're doing how they're all still together and having fun. And I'm not there and I wish I was. I could've been a part of that. And I'm not.

I hate being alone I miss them I miss being close I miss belonging somewhere

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[anonymous-vent]

He abused and manipulated me so much, made me feel so uncomfortable then talks about me as if I'm in the wrong. He put me down and moved on so easily with a new girl, obsessing on her. I just want to live my fucking life, but hes sent 3 letters so far and im just so scared. I want to be over them after all the trauma they've given me but I cant. I want him back. They talk about me as if I was filfth. AS IF THEY HADN'T MADE THIS RELATIONSHIP END LIKE THIS.

God I hate men.

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[anonymous-vent]

Im this close to committing 🤌my dad is a skinny bum who sits on his ass he doesn’t pay for shit and i wish he would jump off a bridge and eat grass

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[anonymous-vent]

I have a list.. sorry..

but my step-mom keeps talking to me about the idea of transferring to a new high school. because she thinks mine is too big for me. I don’t want to have to start over again. Even nothing is better then starting fresh. Again.

When I was 10 years old and didn’t have my own computer, I’d use my older brother’s computer to play roblox with happy and wing. However, I walked into my brothers room that day and he was jacking off. I quickly tried to leave but he told me to stay. He told me that if I rubbed his dick for him, he’d let me use his computer. He offered disposable gloves, paper towels, hell he even offered to rub my pussy . Said “it feels better if someone else does”. Even though I was 10 and stupid, I said no. I declined and ran off, afraid and confused and so many new emotions that NOBODY, let alone a 10 year old, should have to face. When I finally got the courage to tell my dad what had happened, he didn’t fucking believe me. It’s not like this was the first time my older brother had done something like this at that point- my dad knew he’s done that before. But he. Didnt. Believe. Me. I hate my dad. Words can not describe how complicated my emotions are towards my brother.

Another thing my dad did- when he saw the cuts on my wrist last summer, wanna know what he said? He said “that’s it, you’re done hanging out with (old friends name)” because she has depression too, and he was aware of this. She had severe depression and was going through a lot at home. He assumed I was just putting up an ‘act to be like my friends’ and ‘be with the trends’

Imagine having all of your ‘irrational fears’ confirmed from who you thought was your closest friend. I was told through an instagram chat, not even to my FACE, that I was annoying and clingy and how my anxiety and venting which they consented to hearing, triggered them.

I want to commit die.

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