#anonymous vent

[the-anonymous-vent-blog]

i suspect i have anxiety and probably need therapy but i lowkey don't have time to worry about that rn

My guy. Worrying about it now will give you so much time later to not worry.

[peculiar-shardscape]

VENT. afpr’s hr talk gives off bad tones. I had to reassure myself how grateful we are getting af3 and how af is not equivalent to p3d0 and how rover tried to step up for the community but I feel on edge even when they are “joking” 1/2

Ah, I never really bothered to check the hr-talk, moreso because I had no interest in it whatsoever. I don’t ever talk in afpr since 90% of the members have shown an unknown severe dislike of my existence, so I simply am not active there

But don’t worry, you’re good to vent here, as long as it’s nothing too personal. I understand how you feel. I tend to lurk silently in the server along with other servers just to see what’s going on and so I understand how it’s worrying you.

This blog has dealt with anonymous hate over the whole p3d0 situation and it got so stupid the anon called me a p3d0 apologist even after confirming numerous times I do not support e1 nor any of his actions, and the fact Rover’s taken over the series now. It’s sickening how others are about this stuff, which is why I don’t enjoy getting into it.

The thing about the games is, E1 was the LEAD of the projects, but not the 100% creator of it. There were a lot of other devs in the team who are just as innocent as the most of us are, and so when people say the creators of af and pr are bad, it makes me feel bad for those who were involved but had done nothing wrong. E1 did a lot of horrible shit and he deserves no sympathy from any of us, but even if he’s the LEAD of the team, it doesn’t mean everyone else involved is as bad as he is. Hell, some devs actually got fucking manipulated by him and it’s not their fault for getting involved.

Some people need to realise that just because the lead was a huge dickhead, it doesn’t mean everyone else involved were as bad as he was. Sir Rover was a former dev for him and he was actually great from what I’ve heard. One of my friends were even of association with E1 himself, but it never meant they were bad in any way at all, and thats the same for the community. Just because we like a game run by an asshole, it doesn’t mean we support him. He’s terminated now. I wish everyone would understand he’s no longer this community’s problems and move on

And lastly, I simply hope AFPR improves someday. I’ve been in the server since near early 2020, and let me tell you, it has never changed. A lot of members of the server a fucking horrible and tend to love breaking rules, so I hope I get to live to find out whether they fix themselves or not. Honestly, afpr tumblr is so much safer and kinder than the discord server.

I’m sorry for whatever you dealt with looking through the server, anon. I hope you feel better eventually

[anonymous-vent]

I've been coming to terms with realizing I suffered neglect and MDSA as a child. it's like I knocked down a giant house of cards. things are starting to make sense in the worst way. today I learned babies who are neglected will rock themselves because no one else will. and then they do it into adulthood. that's fucking heartbreaking and I've done it my entire life without knowing why. she broke me so completely and I still miss her. idk if anyone sees how messed up I am. I feel almost infantile.

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[smiles-advice]

i miss her. i miss her a lot. we spent every second together, made so many cute and silly memories. i miss my love, and i shouldn’t be venting so much. i just don’t know how i spent a year and some months in love, thinking she was the one, we spoke about a future, getting married, moving in together. i miss the i love yous and late night calls. now she doesn’t even message me if i’ve been gone for a bit. i’m the last person in her mind. why did she have to break it off. i gave her all i could.

It sucks when people you used to be so close to turn into someone you don’t know. It’s so awful and I’m so sorry. Things will be better. Maybe the two of you just weren’t right. You’ll be okay my lovely, and soon you won’t miss her as much.

[the-anonymous-vent-blog]

i'm not suicidal but omg college has genuinely made me contemplate death more often than i ever have in my entire life 😭

For real dude ;-;

[anonymous-vent]

im tired im tired im tired im tired. I want to scream or cry or die or sleep and never wake up again. why do I have to be here? why why why

[smiles-advice]

I'm the draw anon and I know you're right, practice makes perfect. It just so unmotivating, because I've always wanted to make art my career, plus it's the one thing I can say I'm decent at. I can't talk to people IRL, I can't handle noises, or anything and me getting closer to having to support myself financially. I don't practice any of those things, other than my anatomy, I'm sorry for venting, it's just been so stressful lately

hiya again sweetheart,

it’s alright love, you can vent all you want.

if art is your passion, then keep going. keep trying. i bet you’re better than you think. you’re used to how your art looks, so you don’t know how great it looks from an outside perspective.

lots of love to you 💛

[anonymous-vent]

Sometimes I feel like my friends only talk to me because they feel obligated to. I honestly feel like they dont care about me. Perhapse I'm better off alone.