hello hello! this is a sideblog, kind of just for fun but I also wanted a space where endos will (hopefully) never interact! because the name speaks for itself
owned by @silkenclawss
we use he/it collectively, might tag who's fronting and what pronouns to use? I don't know yet. got inspired by anti willo miku and anti willo hiccup and (who I just remembered) anti willo deku(and others but those are the main three!)
we are obviously not a professional so do not expect me to know everything, if I make a mistake PLEASE correct me! will probably reblog / like a lot of posts, so sorry if I spam like (though this is a sideblog so I think it'll show my main liking) 😓
keep things sfw and civil
⠀⠀💯⠀⠀we are a minor! keep that in mind:)
obviously no endos lol (or radqueers, proshippers, trash or creeps)
⠀⠀💯⠀⠀dont rush me to answer, I'm a busy guy
if you're gonna be a dick, I'll just block you or ignore asks! I block freely
⠀⠀💢⠀⠀feel free to (respectfully) educate me on anything I don't seem to understand! I really appreciate it
hiya! are you okay with source twins interacting? i (as in the introject speaking) just made an anti willo blog for myself without realizing one already existed, and didn't wanna ruffle any quills or step on any toes lol. take care out there regardless!
Honestly, how endos treat singlets is very interesting to me, it seems to fall into a category of either "little baby who can't get involved in syscourse because you're not a system silly" (neither are you, cough cough), or "awhh, come on you know you (wanna be) are a system, just admit it"
Like they either completely deny singlets are capable of like, acknowledging anything to do with CDDs and syscourse (I guess), specifically if that singlet is anti endo because of course they won't say anything about the pro endo ones
Or
They try to either convince the singlet to "become plural", or if they struggle with like anything ever (or hell, if they act like a regular fucking human being who changes how they act depending on who they're around), they try tell them they already ARE plural, even if said singlet has said they're not
It's like. Both are disgusting, and incredibly weird, and I'm just . Can you guys leave people the fuck alone? Like seriously, no one is safe from y'all, I swear; not CDD systems, not singlets, not anyone who is questioning, fucking hell probably not even that 40y/o teacher who knows nothing about DID or anything of the sort, y'all are dangerous and predatory and need to leave people the fuck alone for once, jesus.
what it's like to be in a psych ward/mental hospital/whatever you wanna call it + residentials (from my experience)
this is coming from someone whos been to the psych ward 7 or 8 times and has been to two different locations (so i know quite a bit)
also warning,this is a VERYYY long post
tw/cw: brief mention of sh/suicidal ideations and this is all about psych wards
first, I will start with the differebce between a residential and a psych ward (from what I know)
psych ward : short term and for active sh/suicidal ideations/actions. usually a week or less, staff want you out as soon as possible so they dont really care about anything else. you will not do schoolwork, instead you will typically have groups throughout the day where you learn about different mental health aspects, play games or draw/do something creative. you will have phone times (not with your own phone) and be able to call anyone on your call list (if they are above the age of 18 and your guardian approves).
residential : from what I know (I haven't been yet but I will be going at some point, they are currently filling out paperwork) a long term psych ward basically. typically stays are 6-9 months (depending on the place) and usually it's like a college campus, you have more freedoms, you can go outside (if you earn it), you do schoolwork and go on field trips
everything I know about psych wards :
admission: it typically takes awhile to get admitted,so you will be sitting in the ER for awhile. they will search you multiple times (I would not risk trying to sneak anything in), and you will have to change into scrubs (they do have metal detectors btw, they will wand you down in the ER and at the hospital). they will also check your body for marks (typically, you are in a robe and they look at your legs, arms and shoulder, won't look past that)
hygiene: they typically provide you with hygiene products but none of it is good, it's almost always from donations and is not good for type 2,3 or 4 hair types (or anyone hair really). you will probably not be able to shave while there
roommates: they will (hopefully) only put you with someone in your age range and same gender. so if you are like me, and have an id that says you're a guy, they won't put you with any females or biological females
food: depends on the place, from my experience, it's pretty good. we got a wide variety of food options each day and got snacks inbetween (as you should)
hobbies: if you ask for a sketch book (more of a notebook) , they will likely give you one or at the very least paper and crayons. you usually areant allowed to have markers in your room
staff: they will check your room/on you every 12-15 minutes (depending on the place but this is usually the timeframe)
clothes: I would bring clothes with you to the ER if you have time / know you are getting admitted. it will take awhile for them to get the clothes to you because they have to search and clean then. your guardian can also bring you clothes
visitation: typically you will have an hour long visitation with your guardian(s), time varies per place. it can be virtual or in person, there will be someone in the room (asking questions, giving suggestions, etc)
entertainment: usually they will let you have books, you can bring your own or borrow some. you probably can't take them to groups though
my notes + advice: with facilities like this, at least from the two Ive been to, they really do not care about whats going on at home. I have seen first hand my friends homelife be disregarded because they just want you put as soon as possible. on rare occasions they will call cps or just tell you to. and from my experience, psych wards do NOT help me, they recycle the same paper work/lessons so if you've been before, you likely already know what they are going to say. it may help for some people but I know a lot of people it does not help, it's usually just a place for parents to send their poorly behaved kids so they dont have to deal with them. their really isn't anything from there I actually thought helped me. I'll also say, PLEASSEEE do not trust someone there to be a potential romantic partner. you cannot fall in love with someone in a week (there is a difference between love and a crush) and they will likely not be a good fit, but thats just from my own experience
reminder, that this is all from my experience and things I've noticed/been through. it may vary greatly on where you're going, I personally had a decent experience at the main one I've been to, but the second location was atrocious so it really just depends.
if you have any more questions, comment or send an ask, I will try to answer in a timely manner :)
you are not alone and I believe in you. this post probably won't get a lot of traction, but if I can help even just one person, that really makes me happy
hi, the objective of this blog will change a BIT, it'll still be about endos (I will not go out my way to find people, just going to mention something stupid if it pops up on my feed) but also I think it would be helpful if I focused this more about my life experiences
what I mean is, I kinda want this to be mental health / health in general focused. I don't want others to feel alone or scared when it comes to the process of healing and getting better, so there WILL be triggering topics on this blog but they will always be under the cut and have a tw/cw
I have a few posts in mind actually so I'm going to make them right after this!
just know, you are not alone in this and I believe in you :)
Hey, what's with the anti endo stuff? Sorry if you get a million of these, I'm just very new to tumblr and don't get it. I have met people who aren't traumagenic and have been recognised as systems by their therapists also non traumagenic systems are mentioned in the dsm 5 it mentions that they can form for other reasons but that isn't DID. Idk I'm kinda new to this, so I haven't heard any arguments against it. I am a traumagenic system, and I just want people to have community in this harsh world. I hope you have a good day!
A few things to address
1. Idk what DSM you’re reading because it absolutely does not mention systems forming without trauma.
2. A therapist who specialises in dissociative disorders and/or CDDs will only entertain the idea of “non traumagenic plurality” because they are trying to determine why the client believes it possible
3. A therapist who does NOT specialist in those things is not qualified to give specialist advice. They may entertain it because they have no fucking clue what you’re doing or they believe it’s safer to entertain “non traumagenic plurality” beliefs for the time being until you can be referred to a proper specialist.
4. If you truly believe that someone can form something that behaves exactly like DID without going through the requirements to form DID please get off of my page!
According to the LATEST and UP TO DATE research on Complex Dissociative Disorders it is NOT POSSIBLE to form alters and therefore a system without chronic childhood trauma before ages 6-9. I really recommend you look at The Theory of Structural Dissociation!
DID, OSDD and PDID are (at their core) severe forms of (complex) post traumatic stress disorder. If someone can’t form (c)PTSD without trauma then why on EARTH do people think you can form a CDD without trauma.
I think it’s just a tad bit weird that endos and “ plural “ defenders like to say that Alters being a symptom of CDDs means that anyone can experience it without the disorder because it’s “ just a symptom and not the disorder in itself “
Because for one, there’s scientific evidence and research as to how alters develop, if there is no fractured states of the brain via extreme dissociation, you are not able to develop alters. yes, it’s a symptom. No, it’s not one that can magically appear out of nowhere. It’s not one you can will into existence. It’s not like things such as migraines where you can experience it without a direct cause/a mental health issue.
Two, it’s incredibly ableist to suggest that something these people struggle with is “ just a symptom that anyone can experience “ and then proceed to completely ignore and dismiss the trouble these people go through because you believe it’s not that serious and that it’s something everyone has on the fucking daily. It waters down a significant part of the disorder for your benefit of having fun and roleplaying in the worst way you can.
[ IMAGE TXT : Jake Doesn’t tolerate Ableism! Endos and similar begone! ]
First of all you guys aren't just stealing our terms you guys are making a fool of us by glorifying our disorder and symptoms
Second of all the entitlement of you to think systems have a community because of abelists. We have a community because we want solidarity and to feel less alone from this disorder
Our community was made by systems for systems until your asses came ib
The system community is for solidarity between us. Not for your role play. You guys mean jackshit to us. Have an even worse day you abelist fuck for trying to exclude disabled people out their communitues
i think that introjects should be allowed to keep their source private if they want to, whether its due it being problematic or not
theres a lot of systems out there that are very very uncomfy with the way introjects are treated in system spaces, so i think its okay if someone doesnt want to disclose whether their alters are introjects or not! thats not information that anyone else is required to know! and if it makes you feel a little bit better with your identity as an alter, then why not do what makes you happy?
this isnt to say that introjects can never talk about their source!! its a very nuanced topic and i think more people need to view it from the standpoint of just letting others do whats comfy for them, whether you would do the same or not
Not censoring username bc if they want to dish it they better be able to take it:
this is the DORKIEST thing ive ever seen lmao, the fake edginess is radiating from this dweeb. this is it guys. this is the pinnacle of radqueer activism. this is their great leaders, who will lead them to a glorious radqueer future somehow.
Can I just say how heart warming it is to see how many accounts in the anti willo movement (across all fandoms) are literally creating a network of crazily accessible resources and arguments against endogenics and their supporters.
