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I was doing just fine until, just by chance, I saw you doing better and suddenly I was back to the bottom; crying over you remembering you never loved me

a girl who thought she was in love

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And the saddest part is as I sit here and cry till my throat burns worse than any alcohol, you are probably laying beside her holding her close as if all the things you ever said to me were lies

Your OTHER girl that wasn’t good enough (via antique-flowerchild)

the-homie-sexual

They said the pain goes away, but all these years later my chest still hurts, my heart is still racing with fear, and I don’t even know where the sadness derives from anymore. How weird is it that I can pin point all the things that keep me smiling and happy, but I couldn’t tell you where the pain that grips me in the dark of the night comes from. I’d get up and turn on the light to see the boogeyman trying to strangle me, but I’m scared I’d see myself looking back.

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knightlyhoods-deactivated202404

listen……. ‘my love’ is literally the strongest and greatest pet name in existence. there is literally nothin better than somone callin you that….. especially when things are soft and quiet and they look at you with utter adoration and whisper “what’s the matter, my love??” or “i hope everything is okay with you, my love” like oh my god?? let me marry you already

vajeentambourine

Your mixed feelings about your parents are valid.

Shout out to people like me who have parents who are loving but are black holes of emotional labor… It took me a long time to realize that it’s okay to have mixed feelings about your parents, about your relationship with them.

Sometimes parents can love you but be somewhat toxic to you and your growth, and that’s a very hard realization to come to if you, like me, grew up extremely close to them.

Sometimes parents can love you genuinely but lack emotional maturity, forcing you to perform disproportionate amounts of emotional labor. Some parents manifest symptoms of their mental illness in ways that are toxic to your mental illness.

Some parents, like mine, try so hard to be good parents but fall back on habits of emotional manipulation because they haven’t processed their own traumas and are modeling behavior they grew up with. That doesn’t make their behavior acceptable, and it’s okay to feel exhausted and hurt when they betray you. You don’t have to forgive every mistake.

I want you to know that it’s okay to protect yourself, to need some space apart from them. The love you have for your parents is still valid, and you are making the right decision.

Placing a safe emotional distance between myself and my parents has been one of the most difficult, heartbreaking processes I’ve ever gone through… it hurts to try to curb the strength of your own natural empathy around people you love. It feels disingenuous to your heart’s natural state.

But I promise you, you are not hard-hearted or ungrateful, and you are not abandoning them. You are making a decision about your own emotional, mental, and spiritual health.

I know what it’s like in that confusing grey area of love mixed with guilt and anxiety, of exhaustion and quasi-manipulation and unreciprocated emotional labor, and I promise you, you are not alone.

Your mixed feelings about your parents are valid.

antique-flowerchild

I liked it better when he hated me instead of ignoring me. Because at least then he couldn’t stop thinking about me. Now its like he wouldn’t even remember my name.

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And the saddest part is as I sit here and cry till my throat burns worse than any alcohol, you are probably laying beside her holding her close as if all the things you ever said to me were lies

Your OTHER girl that wasn’t good enough (via antique-flowerchild)

I got over you today, that i know for sure i felt a sense of closure even something that can resemble happiness but then i saw that you were hanging out with her the cutest couple since yesterday so carefree and oblivious to the enemy soldier in your backyard and god gave me a plaything and to cope i played his precious heartstrings my silly putty... perhaps some people never learn... and as the sun sets with the stains of unwanted kisses on my cheeks dilluted by tears i think to myself at least i got over you today, that i know for sure