im drunk, quite drunk, so expect nonsense.
im in my bed, with a feeling in my chest of pain that i can't get rid off. its similar to the pain i felt when the the person i felt i was falling in love with told me that they were dating someone else. however theres is something different about it.
Friends of mine call me naive or innocent, and to some extent, i will agree i am, so is everyone. I'm to the point you can say a lie 10 times, i can find out is a lie and convince me of it again. i dont think it makes me dumb, i just dont think theres a reason for it not to be true.
that doest make me an idiot. i know theres people out there that do bad things and people that you should be careful of. i completely know that, and that is the reason why i take care of mysellf and i am careful when it comes to getting drink from someone or similar stuff.
however, in terms of behaviour, i dont think theres such thing as being ‘bad’ or ‘evil’. i just think you behave as you do for a series of circumstances, and that can make you behave in a way that (in my opinion) might no be the nicest. that doesn't make you bad or anything, you just dont realise. and i understand that. however, I've found different things lately.
i have realised there is people that (and i still can't tell if they do so in an intentional or unintentional way) they make people sad. they behave in a way that make an individual, and not a general sad. so I'm not speaking about someone who generally behave bad to everyone for a reason, but the person who behaves bat to a specific individual without one.
it confuses me so much. i dont understand why people would gain energy and feel better for the simple fact of making someone else feel sad. its not something that creates comfort, why is it happening.
tonight my night was fail after fail, but that was alright because at the end i get it from the point where in my mind i guess no one tried to intentionally make me feel the way i felt. however, to the end of the night, someone directly did so.
and i am here sitting down, trying to understand why. is it me? is it you? why would you do that if you dont have a need to. if you dont get anything out of it.
people try to tell me id learn from these things.
maybe I'm too much of an idiot, or too much of a peter pan, but i just dont, it makes me confused, but tomorrow, ill go out again, and it could happen again.
but you, you, the one who made me feel sad, say bye cause i want you out (and I'm afraid when they text me tomorrow ill reply with something good, cause I'm a cunt)
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