Chahat

i dream of constellations while getting sucked into the black hole.

[anxietynwater]

Sneak Peek

I feel lost. Lost inside my head. I feel my presence but it doesn't matter. I hardly go a day without feeling it. I easily slip away into my own void that is filled w these thoughts that I'm trying to get away from. But they're pulling me. Pulling me like they crave me. Like they want me to stay. But reality is pulling me too. My existence in this very own universe is luring to flay me alive. And i don't understand what is more disturbing- to let my thoughts devour me up or let this reality gulp me down? I'm hanging and I'm dancing between the two and maybe that's why i dont really like dancing.

Will either of them win? Will either of them lose? Will they keep me hanging till eternity? Will they tear me apart? I don't know. I see reality and my thoughts, finding no difference. They're both scary and intimidating and we really don't want to stay in either of them but do we really have a choice?

My thoughts seduce me to make love to them every night but I'm afraid. I'm afraid to fall for them as my thoughts are no less than a venom. I see reality screaming at me and sending chills down my spine. I find it way cunning than it seems. It lets you believe that it's inescapable but there's always a loophole and I'm still straining to find it. They're two distinctive poles but have so much in common like they both want to strangle me to death. But I'm living. I'm breathing. I cannot say that this universe is not worthy of an exploration. Likewise, universe will not say that I'm unworthy to have it's 2 cents.

I'm fighting both of them but I'm still looping from fading away into this black hole of thoughts to getting back to this absurd and discomforting reality. They're both killing me softly and i can feel both of their filthy hands tracing the curves of my delicate mind. The more I'm struggling to run away from it, the more I get fascinated and pulled back. From solving mazes, when i was a kid, to making my mind one, I've come a long way and now I cannot seem to unmaze it. I could give you a bit more of a sneak peek into my head but I'm afraid you'll get lost too.

xC

[lunamonchtuna]

hope u see a pretty sunset and think of how i would’ve loved this

[mademoiseellllee]

Delete the whole text and send “ Okay “ it will save you from a lot

[yeesiine]

If you miss me just text me, why u showing up in my dreams ..

[strawberryzn]

we need non cancerous cigarettes to give to women so they look hot. men get the normal kind

[kosmogrl]

[anxietynwater]

Something about the British accent that would make me surrender if they rule again here ;)

[velocitations]

how it feels to make the mature decision regarding your long-term future

[haysaprocky]

[anxietynwater]

I lost parts of myself i never knew i had, drowning in the colors that were once my own.

Ps: so guys i made this a few days back and couldn't feel more good to get back to what i love doing the most.

[anxietynwater]

Unsolicited dick pic would be nice atm

[weltenwellen]

Andrea Gibson, "DEPRESSION [VERB]", Lord of the Butterflies

[puregrief]

"إنّي مرساةٌ لا ترسو. جُرحٌ بملامحِ إنسانِ."

[soul-from-another-era]

Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

[cherrybombpussy-deactivated2025]

men in love are like “i love you” and women in love are like “i wouldn’t mind taking all of your pain in my hands and letting it overflow into the cracks of my skin just to be able to have a part of you with me”

[heavensghost]

im always on my way back home to myself

[1anonyymous1]

big fan of anything that shuts my brain off for a little while

[anancientheart]

the world is heartbreaking every day and the world is beautiful every day and we have to pay attention to both